Thursday, December 22, 2011

It's Even Worse Than It Looks

You shud know, when a guy show cased a single violent action ... Pack ur bags & leave ...

Related to my previous post, this is what I got ... Actually it's even worst, cabinet tu tadi ade atas my desk ... But 1office saksi, semua org dah nampak perangai kau ... From this moment, doa aku cume satu - jangan la housemate aku sampai kawin dgn kau ... This is unacceptable ...

Even when F accidentally hit me pun, that's not acceptable even it was a reflect reaction ... Lagi la kalau kau INTENTIONALLY humban cabinet aku ... Find ur honor dude ...

Boss tade, berani la kau tunjuk hero ...

Final Stress

Ade jek makhluk dtg merosakkan mood aku pagi2 ni ... Last day kat Kerteh ni pun, kau nak carik pasal lagi ... Dah la kau tak mintak maap kat aku langsung kan ??

Ni la yg membuat kan aku rase nak ungkit balik semua bende ... Kau tak nampak ke, bnyk lagi bende aku nak settle ?? Dgn result asal bole dorang hantar aku kene sign, RFI lagi blom settle ... Dah la kau nak mintak soft copy keje aku ... Kau ingat aku tade keje lain, nak layan kau jam2 tu jugak ??

Kadang2 manusia ni tak sedar diri, kau nak rase kau bagus sebab keje kau lagi penting dr keje aku sign result ?? Kau jadik engineer la, baru kau bunyik ... Hutang study loan sampai 60k buat degree, ape kau tau ?? Ni la masalah lack of appreciation on education kat Malaysia ...

Siap nak kluar ayat bangang kau, melayu suke tangguh keje ... Aku sign site diary keje kau even for those mase aku tgh jage piling kat Rembau kot ?? Mulut tu cantek sikit, biler org tegur ... Kau tacing lebey ...

Bile time aku, summary result dekat 200 item ... Esok aku kene print out report, ptg kul 5 baru kau bagi ... Penah aku bingit kat kau ?? Aku tak kuase nak kaver kau, kalau kau bagos ... Kau bagos la, doesn't matter whatever shit aku ckp pasal kau ...

Good luck la ~

Friday, December 16, 2011

It's Friday ~


Blue Sapphire


Now I know why dorang pesan, 'Jangan rambang mate' bile shopping utk kawen ... Sebab memang makin gatal nak kawen ni, makin bnyk kehendak ... Aku tade la nak kawen sgt dah, tapi dah bole la start kumpul duit nak tambah budget future husband supaya dpt beli bende2 merepek yg di-idam2-kan ...

Dulu time tade bf/ade bf yg tade perasaan nak kawen, sgt determine - 'Saye seorang yg conservative, my wedding must be very traditional & follow adat ... Baju kurung for engagement & kurung moden for nikah ... It's a must to wear kebaya for reception' ... Poyo abes ...

Skali boipren ajak kawen, bole plak berangan nanti tunang nak pakai dress la ... Dr focused to diamonds, tibe2 gatal tgk blue sapphire pulak ... Nak xbox la, mac book pro la ... Mengade kan ??

I always have this intention nak bagi my future husband blue sapphire wedding ring ... Sebab tu every time aku jumpe mamat dah kawen pakai blue sapphire, aku t'lompat2 & compliment them the ring - 'It's a nice ring' (ayat standard aku) ...

Since excited tgk blue sapphire on sale kat Tomei Mesra Mall smalam, gigih la aku google about blue sapphire sehari dua ni ... Pastu t'google la skali blue sapphire for ladies kan ... Comel kot ??

Imagine this ( ^ ), to match .. this ( ^ ) ...............

Or these ~

Berangan, berangan ... Hahahahahahahah ~ x_x

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Merajuk

Hari ni saye sgt marah ... Aihhh, malas pulak nak publish this post since ade org akan perasan aku marah kat die ... Again, I have to explain myself ... 'Tade keje nyer aku nak dok marah kat org yg tak penting dlm hidup aku, aku marah sebab aku care & sayang (heheh, malu2 ... kecik sket font tu) about this someone I'm mad at ... Yang tak berkenaan tak yah perasan, get a life ...

Mari saye review dulu sedikit sebanyak sejarah mengenai org yg saye marah ni ... Kalau kau rase meluat, tak payah bace ... Sebab setau aku, ramai jek yg sebok nak tau dengan sape aku kluar & slalu gayut tepon dgn suare gedik ala2 manje skarang ni ...

I met him 2weeks ago, tak payah nak 'bile nak kawen ??' sgt ... Aku siap buat label baru kot ?? Aku Belom Nak Kawen Lagi ... Baru jumpe 2minggu, tak kan la dah nak trus kawen kan ... Lemme do this step by step, proper way ...

So kitorang lepak minum that very day, on the way back ... Aku dah berangan sebakul, heheh ... So typical me, beli kan bunge sekuntum kat tepi jalan pun aku balik ckp kat sumer org - "He's the one" ... Hahahahahah, sile gelak guling2 ...

From the 3hours hangout, bnyk bende that we learnt about each other ... & the most of it, I figured that he's not a typical lelaki Terengganu yang suke minah klantan putih melepak ... There you go, 1st hint - bf aku mamat ganu ...

Sampai rumah tu, actually aku nak sgt msg die bagi tau - "I dah sampai, good nite" ... Muah muah muah x8 ... Hehehheheheh, but I didn't ... Sebab die ckp die nak tido kot, so takmo kacau la ... & the main reason is, I know I'm falling for him but I don't wanna keep falling ...


Dah lame, I didn't felt that way ... Since the last break up, my heart kind of closed ... As much as I'm trying to deny it, I just have to deal wif it ... That I'm hopeless romantic ... & it's been a while since the last time I went back home & be stupid after a date ...

The next day baru I texted him, said good morning & thanks sebab banjer makan ... Naseb baik die bagi aku makan Chinese food, kalau tak mesti aku buat muke choosy & makan tak habes sebab food tak sedap ... We won't be falling in love with each other I guess if it was a different restaurant, since aku akan buat muke tak happy & he might not like the grumpy me ... ;p

Dr good morning wish, masuk dirty2 topic sket ... We both tied to our blackBerry & senyum sorang2 the whole day, texting each other ... Sampai ke petang, when I reached home after work ... Die ckp he likes me, yay !!! Hahah, hati dah kembang semangkuk time ni ...

2 days from our 1st date, he declare 'you're mine' over the phone ... & pesan jangan nak gatal2 dgn orang lain ... Eheh, memang tahan napas takmo senyum dgn hidung kembang kuncup depan boss time ni ... Heh ...

Dalam eksaited dpt bf, I did gave him 6months probation period ... Lepas 6months baru bole jumpe my parents, sebab I don't want things to go wrong mcm my previous relationships ... Nanti my mum sedih lagi ...

I went back to Bangi that weekend, I did offer him - nak ikut tak balik Bangi/pegi wedding kat Johor ... But I'm afraid he'll be left alone ... Since I'll be bz being the MOH for the wedding ... So he declined it ...

It's Friday, I was lying on the bed ... B'malas2an guling2 atas katil sebelum mandi & getting ready to drive to Kulai, Johor when I recieve his marriage proposal ... Heheh, yeahhh ... I got him to propose after 3days, ;p ...






Excited ?? Memey la ... Tapi tade la eksaited sampai nak kawen trus kan ... But the planning is there ... Atas faktor2 kewangan, saye kene bersabar ... & since my future husband's work related to money, paham2 jek la he's very particular bab2 duit ni ...


Hahahahahahah, sape kah ?? Accountant, lawyer ?? Majistret, doctor ?? Hahah, I can't tell u guys (yet) ... Sebab p&c issues ... Sabar yeaaa ...

So far, things went well for us ... I screwed the 6months probation period, & already bring him back to see my mum last week ... AlhamduliLlah, my mum happy ... We're not talking to each other (me & my mum) that morning when I left home, takut jugak to see her respond kan ... Skali balik2 rumah jek, I can smell she's cooking nasik briyani ... Hahahahahhah, I know she'll love him ...

My mum trus senyum when she saw him, dr buat2 bz kat dapur ... My mum trus lepak kat sofa, siap gadoh rebut2 seat dgn my youngest brother ... Hahahahahhahah, I was upstairs mandi mase my mum interview him about job sumer ... I dah tido when my mum got back from tesco & kept the conversation going with him, she definitely like him ... I know, :D ...

Last time I gaduh2 gurau2 dgn my mum, she did mention this statement -
"Your taste kan same dgn I, I'll love whatever you choose" ... Yeahhh it does, including this one ... Heheheheheheheheh ...

Ape hal intro panjang giler ?? Hahah, dr marah sampai tak jadik marah ... Since the main issue nak kawen ni is money, aku pun semakin extreme la meng'google' wedding stuff ... Photographers, door gifts bagai ... My intention - grab any available reasonable offers supaye bole save ...

Kau tau ape aku dapat ?? Kene tepek 'eksaited sgt' ... Memang best ah boipren aku kan ?? Pastu dgn pantas & garang aku tepek balik - "Fine, 3thn lagi baru kawen" ...

Aku pun tatau la, aku yg freak out ke ?? Memang lelaki ni tak ambek pot sgt ?? Kalau tak hambek pot ni, xde la aku kesah sgt ... Masalahnye siap kutuk balik tu the best part ... Org booking dewan 2years advance kot ?? Photographer lagi, make-up artist ??

Tape la darling kan, you kan bnyk duit ... I tunjuk 0.4c, u ckp kecik kan ... Org tak nampak ... From now on, aku xde mood nak kawen dah ... Tade nak plan ahead ke, xmo ... Xpe ah, shut down for a while ... Enjoy the vacations ... Sampai ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ntah ... Sampai I got the mood to plan again ...

Actually I'll still plan, berangan ... Gather pictures of things I love, but put actions on hold ... Heh, keep everything to myself ... Nanti book everything last minute, kalau mahal you bayar jek la kan darling ... I hate love you ...

Bye ~

Friday, December 9, 2011

People Talk

I always think, people will always think of you the way the wanted to think about you ... & I still do ... It's like, regardless what you've done for them ... Put aside all your positive efforts, they'll always remember you by the one (or maybe more) thing they hate about you ...

Yes, I do have things I hate about someone else ... But I always tolerate the weakness with that person's best personality ... Or even there's only a few things to appreciate compare to their pile of weaknesses pun, I always consider them as a friend ... & friends stick together for better or for worse, even when there's a few times I'm ashamed by their behavior towards my another circle of friends ... I apologized for them said, "she's a b!+ch but she's my best friend" ...

Growing up, people became even more mean & heartless ... Those selfish enough, will only think about themselves ... Their happiness, & protecting what the consider their's ... Friends or no friends, most of the time money is more important than making your friends happy ...

For instance, you'll feel left out when your friend went out for vacation with her other circle of friends ... Nak kecik hati sebab you're not invited, or she didn't put effort to initiate that kind of hangouts with you ... But if you got invited pun, you'll put on a face when you're around her other circle of friends ... Make it difficult for her to choose between her other friends, or you ...

If it's was for me, maybe I'll get jealous for a while ... In time, I'll heal & move on ... & most probably, I never voice out my feelings ... I keep it to myself, let her have her moment ... & wait patiently, because one day I'll have what I dreamt of ... Yet, there's still people out there who go around telling people that I always have hidden agendas ... Base on what, I totally have no idea ... & my life is too precious to care more about them & their negative thoughts ...

The best thing I can do for my own good, leave all these people who dunno how to appreciate me behind ... & cherish those who's willing to do all it takes to spend time with me ... Seriously, recently I found out that I've wasted too much time chasing people who'd taken me for granted ... While actually there's a lot of other amazing people who actually appreciate it if I give them a chance to hangout/catch up ...

& those who dunno to appreciate ni la, yg normally go around stalk my facebook la ... Keep an update on my blog, do I have a bf ?? If I did then, when will this next guy dump me ... For what, God knows kan ... But base on my understanding, you know deep inside what you said about me is not true ... That's why you kept trying to find a reason to prove it, stalk me thru fb & blog ... Hoping, one day you'll find the reason to prove I'm worth all the things you said ...

My advice, just move on ... If you hated me that much, buat ape keep an update about me ?? For your own good, stop stalking me ... & focus more on your current life/relationship ... Again, move on !!!

I can't be around people who keep telling me it's wrong to be happy, & I just can't stand those who made me feel guilty when I'm doing the right thing ... While there's other people who kept telling me I'm too kind & sweet that it make it hard for you to be around me when you're just not good enough ... It's just confusing ...

Once a friend told me that I have a noble heart, that I should share my thoughts with others ... Because it's beautiful, the way I think about it ... My perspective towards things happened in life, that's the reason I started blogging in the 1st place ... But since things didn't really turn out as planned, it scares me ... It's just feel like sharing is not a good thing (this is what I mean, certain people just make it feel wrong to do the right thing) ...

But I'm not going to let others change me, I'll be sharing my experiences & approach in my daily life ... It's just a matter of time ... Till then, this <3 is for those who really care ...

Have a great weekend ahead ~

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Bride's Maid Outfit - Material

Sehari selepas hunting baju kurung for my 2nd bride's maid outfit (5th Nov), perjuangan diteruskan di kawasan sekitar Bangi ... When I left home, ade these places in mind to go to accomplish the mission - My Jan, Seksyen 8 Bandar Baru Bangi (memang kedai haku sopping baju raye dah 2thn) ---> Wangsa Walk ---> Gulatis Metro Point, Kajang ---> Alamanda, Putrajaya ...

Tapi on the way, ter-de'tour pegi Warta ... Then baru pegi My Jan ... But as I window2 kat My Jan, ade 1pasang yg comel & suweet kaler light purple ... But it feels like, baju raye haku tapi kaler pepel ... Hadoi, so decided - tak mau !!!

Pastu ckp kat adik cherry, I don't think kat Wangsa Walk akan jumpe ape yg dicari ... Since kakak cherry taste tinggi (lempang) ... Seriously, sebab dah extremely searching for 2days in a row ... Dah dapat perasaan yg agak impossible nak carik something I wish for, the piece yg I adore kat Semua House semalam pun I rase custom made ... But it's green in colour ...

It's a simple kurung moden, chiffon ... Collar cheogsam if I'm not wrong, with a little bit embroidery ... & butang bungkus kat lengan, both hujung baju dgn hujung kain just simple straight seam ... Tade details pape ...

Yang sebenarnye, dah termimpi2 kan border lace yg manager Jakel yg hensem tu tunjuk smalam kan ... Hahah, tu yg xbole nak terima ape jua pilihan lain ... Ade je alasan, purple tak cukup light la ... Macam baju raye haku la ... Heheh ...

So dalam kebuntuan to maintain the budget, tibe2 teringat a piece of lace I bought in Tangkak ntah tahun biler ... Rm100 for 2m of lace & 2m of satin crepe if I'm not wrong ... Just the lace kaler pink, so I just need to find another light purple base ... & use the lace for patching ... Bijak2 ... Heh, pujian diri sendiri ...

Kite makan dulu ...

Appetizer ...

Mine ...


Adik Cherry's ...


 Dessert ...

 
Pelaku ...

After I gave up hunting for ready made baju kurung kat My Jan, trus pegi Gulatis in Metro Point, Kajang ... Mission - carik chiffon & satin impian ... Tak pandang kiri kanan dah, tengok harge mcm murah ... Rm29.50 /m for the satin crepe, rm24.50 for the chiffon ... Both lerang 60", so ambek 3.5m each ... Total rm189 ...

Mase turun escalator, terpikir jap ... Smalam abang manager sasa offer rm270 for normal satin ... Rm350 for satin silk ... Itu termasuk border lace, sebut harge rm125 for 0.5m ... So paling mahal pun, rm150 minus border lace for the chiffon + satin kan ??

I guess that's the power of sales strategy, sebab die display price rm85/m ... Offer for rm29.50, & rm35/m offered rm24.50 ... Kau rase dah murah, padahal bole tawar for cheaper kat Jakel ... Heh, pastu baru terkenang how beautiful the non-washable chiffon kat Jakel nyer flow ... Hahah, padan muke !!!

Lesson learnt - jgn terpedaye sgt dgn sales ... Normally harge die same jek, kurang lebih 2-3ringgit jek ...

Tape la, janji dapat my dreamt chiffon ... Border  lace tu, put on hold jek la ... Lengkali baru beli for next event, kalau ade rezeki lebih ...

So it's official - lining satin crepe in hot pink ... Base plain chiffon in light purple, both from Gulatis ... & lace patching from Tangkak ...


Now there's 2 options for the tailor, either Tum Tailor (Seksyen 9, Bandar Baru Bamgi) ... Or my auntie kat Tangkak ... Depends on my availability to send the material to Tangkak & quotation from makcik kat Tum Tailor ...

Tum Tailor - Last time I sent my kebaya, upah rm80 + rm120 for patching if I'm not mistaken ... Rm180 for baju kurung chiffon (with diamond studs), full lining ... Rm120 for 2piece kurung moden, lace on top & plain satin for bottom ...

I wish I still can get the price of rm120 for the patching, & rm180 for the tailoring cost itself ... So, total cost of rm300 ... Hopefully ... Haih, kan bagus kalau ade phone number makcik tu ... Bole sms jek tanye ... Tu la, hari tu die sms tak nak save her number ... Kan senang kalau ade personal contact ...

Ade hati jugak actually nak sms Rico mintak quotation, ;p ... Tapi tape la ... Tak cukup budget untuk itu kali ni, heheh ... But seriously, why not ?? Since the cheapest you can get for tailoring is around rm180 + rm180 for the patching ... Almost rm400, kan ?? Tu tak termasuk material tau darlings ...

If you go for designers, simple design cost around 1k ... Dorang buat beadings sumer siap, at least you puas hati kan ?? Dr aku hantar kat tailor femes kat Kajang tu, dah la mahal ... Hancus my sutera Terengganu, dorang potong ikut suke hati mak bapak die ...

Enough said, will be updating on the tailor I choose soon ... Then the final outcome later on, but everything will be published after the wedding's done ... :D ... Sabar yeaaa ...

Nite2 ~ >hugs<

Bride's Maid Outfit - Hunting

Pertame skali nak mintak maaf sebab t'paksa publish post ni, 1bulan selepas hari kejadian ... Xde la nak budget artist sgt, cume lebih baik mcm ni ... Dr aku pung pang pung pang about bende yg kecik jek, nanti jadik issue lagi di kalangan mereka yg sengaja mencari issue utk diperbesarkan ...

Pada 2 November yg lepas, saye menerima satu lagi tawaran utk jadik bride's maid - kepada my lovely cousin Pn. Diah ... Only for reception, since her sister will take that job during nikah ... But it's on the same day, nikah pagi ... Reception in the afternoon ... So my dear friends, aku akan take another job je lagi for bride's maid ... Sebab xbole jadik pengapit lebih dr 3x, hahah ... Superstitious ...

So, dengan notis sebulan sblm the wedding ... Agak selesa di situ untuk mencari outfit yg sesuai ... Adik Cherry attended her 1st ever interview on 4th November, so kakak Cherry pun mengambil kesempatan itu mengangkut adik Cherry pegi Mesjid India utk servey2/beli trus kalau b'kenan ...

Until, I found out that sangat susah sebenar nyer utk carik a nice baju kurung according to the Bride's order - light purple ... Dah pusing 1 Semua House tu mencarik, tapi yg ade mostly dark purple ... Or else, it's made of lace ... Which aku malas nak beli another lacey dress, sebab nanti susah nak recycle ... Pakai skali jek for the wedding, or for some special events which tak tau ntah biler akan berlaku ...

So I decided to have it tailor made ... Yes, memang tak cukup mase ... Dengan I'm flying to kk on the 6th until 14th November for another cousin's wedding ... Baru rase tak cukup napas nak carik kain & hantar jahit kat Tangkak ...

Kenape nak hantar kat Tangkak jugak ?? Sebab I nak save cost, so the outfit will still fall under the bride's budget ... ++ the wedding is in Kulai, Johor ... So I can pick-up the dress on the way there ... Xpayah nak pegi 2-3 kali, just pegi once to send the materials & measure ... At this moment ?? I'm praying for everything to be easy on me ...

I decided to use chiffon for the baju kurung, so dengan slamber panjat Jakel tanye plain chiffon ... Skali manager yg sasa + hensem & super peramah tu tunjuk border lace kan ... Owh, sangat la jatuh cinta ... Memang la aku tak tido mlm ni ...

Bile kire price for all the material, it's still reasonable ... Ye lah, kalau beli yg baju kurung yg biase2 pun dah almost rm200 kat Mesjid India tu ... Before saye terbeli, t'ingat pulak pasal upah jahit chiffon which normally x2 dr upah for normal (cotton, satin etc) materials ...

Kalau kat Tum's Tailor, Seksyen 9 Bandar Baru Bangi - it's rm180 ... Kalau kat Tangkak, last time I tempah baju kurung modern siap lining - rm100 ... I'm praying hard, that auntie won't ask extra for non-washable chiffon ...

Another concern was the lace patching, last time I asked kat DzulldeClassique (read this post for more details) ... For a simple beading on hujung lengan & leher will cost around rm180 ... For the beading/embroidery only ... & tadi kat one of the textile store depan Sogo tu, the quoted me rmm180 for lace patching on lengan & bawah baju kot ... Own lace ...

Kalau material rm200 (with lining), upah jahit almost rm400 for lace patching ... Baik aku buat kat designer kan, puas hati ... That's why, mcm mane pun ... Kene usaha kan jugak hantar kat my tailor kat Tangkak tu ... Supaye everything fall in the budget ... Or else, tak payah gedik nak chiffon sgt kannn ...

But I'm going to put my best effort, just like what I did for Anis's wedding ... Later I'll update on the final material for the bride's maid outfit ... But I think my decision on the tailor is already fixed ...

Till then, good nite ~

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