Travel Writer

Hello !!!

Hari ni xkluar lunch, atas beberape sebab ... Antaranya, post traumatic effect dr 12jam focus buat report + sakit tengkok salah tidor mlm tadi ... Atau lebih tepat lagi, menyampah nak be around double faces b!+c#es yg tak habes2 buat unpaid report to my superior ... Nanti I'll explain further on that, but most reliable reason was that - baru je lepas makan nasik lemak kul seblas tadi ... Haha, nampak tak dramatic effect di situ ?? Hehe ...

Stat dah jatuh to almost half, since 4 bulan yg lepas ... Saye baru prasan, hihi ... Tapi memang dah lame giler tak update pun ... Now my life have been put back together, so korang akan prasan perubahan dr segi routine kehidupan seharian di situ ... Heh ... Sorry to encik Fifiey, kalau terase cam saye makin blagak whatsoever ... Aku memang camni kalau dah start keje, ;p ...

Kalau korang prasan my updates lately, are mostly about my island vacation ... Island hopping kat KK, my yearly trip to Perhentian ... And rite now, sebenar nyer saye tak kluar lunch sebab eksaited searching pasal Pulau Tioman ... Hadooo ...

This had bring me to the thought - am I going to change my blog direction into travel writing ??
Jawapan: Maybe not la, it's just something interesting I love to do now ... Since mostly I'll spend my free time doing that, so that will be the most interesting topic for me to share will you guys la kan ??

I still have other things which are not related to travelling that I found interesting to share, such as how I survive 6months unemployment ... My new job, which is in Manjung ... Every week bole pegi Pangkor, & related to travel ?? Haha, it's just happened to be that my new job is near to a vacation spot ... Xpenah pegi pun Pangkor tu sepanjang 3weeks spent here ...

I better go now, before I exposed my bloging activities to unwanted stalkers ... Hihi, have a great week ahead guys ~

Lost of Rhythm

Recently ni raser cam I lost my skill to write, sumer type separuh jalan ... Pastu, jadik pekasam dlm draft ... Hahah ... Kenape, kenape ?? Haha, sebab I know well ade org yg extra concern ... So malas nak updet ... Bole eh ?? Hahah ...

But that has to go, saye tulis blog bukan utk awak sorang je bace ... Org lain pun bole bace, other people with the right purpose of knowing ... & bukan sebab sebok nak tau hal org ... Kalau awak nak tau my updets, bbm je la ... Kompem saye reply, haha ... Yakin je kau kan, ;p ...

Kadang2 terpikir jugak, raser mcm saye tulis entry sampah jek ... Xbest pun, entry org lain lagi best ... Lagi meletops, gambar lagi cantek ... Materials lagi mahal, serba serbi lebih menarik la dr ape yg saye papar kan ... Ceh2, ayat ...

But then I realize ... Kenape, kenape ... Kenape ?? Sebab saye share ape real life has to offer kot ?? Ape yg average people can afford, something wearable & tak over the top ... Or how much an average 2years experience exec can spend on her baju raya, bukan nye baju designer yg riban2 mcm nak gi shooting program raye ;p ...

I shared info about what normal people can expect for some range of cost, for a tailor made baju kurung moden ... Which tailor can offer a better workmanship, either the tailor hanya femes pd nama or it is worth every single cents you spend ... Since duit tak tumbuh from pokok depan rumah, & you work you S day & night to have what you want ...

Sorry if I disappoint you guys, my dear readers ... Saya tak tulis blog fashion, nor a good reference for wedding preps ... It's just a blog with entries on how I survive, managing my time-money & attention ... Utk kesekian kali nya, thank you for reading ...

I promise I'll try my best to stick to my roots, utk tidak berubah pendirian dan terpengaruh dengan arus penulisan blog ... Haha, ape aku merepek ni ... My point is, I'll stick to writing things I experience in my daily life ... Bukannya life style of rich & femes kalau aku kawen dgn anak datuk ni atau anak tan sri tu ... Keekekekekkeke ...

Meh, hugs ... Hihi ~

It's Friday ~

People Talk

I always think, people will always think of you the way the wanted to think about you ... & I still do ... It's like, regardless what you've done for them ... Put aside all your positive efforts, they'll always remember you by the one (or maybe more) thing they hate about you ...

Yes, I do have things I hate about someone else ... But I always tolerate the weakness with that person's best personality ... Or even there's only a few things to appreciate compare to their pile of weaknesses pun, I always consider them as a friend ... & friends stick together for better or for worse, even when there's a few times I'm ashamed by their behavior towards my another circle of friends ... I apologized for them said, "she's a b!+ch but she's my best friend" ...

Growing up, people became even more mean & heartless ... Those selfish enough, will only think about themselves ... Their happiness, & protecting what the consider their's ... Friends or no friends, most of the time money is more important than making your friends happy ...

For instance, you'll feel left out when your friend went out for vacation with her other circle of friends ... Nak kecik hati sebab you're not invited, or she didn't put effort to initiate that kind of hangouts with you ... But if you got invited pun, you'll put on a face when you're around her other circle of friends ... Make it difficult for her to choose between her other friends, or you ...

If it's was for me, maybe I'll get jealous for a while ... In time, I'll heal & move on ... & most probably, I never voice out my feelings ... I keep it to myself, let her have her moment ... & wait patiently, because one day I'll have what I dreamt of ... Yet, there's still people out there who go around telling people that I always have hidden agendas ... Base on what, I totally have no idea ... & my life is too precious to care more about them & their negative thoughts ...

The best thing I can do for my own good, leave all these people who dunno how to appreciate me behind ... & cherish those who's willing to do all it takes to spend time with me ... Seriously, recently I found out that I've wasted too much time chasing people who'd taken me for granted ... While actually there's a lot of other amazing people who actually appreciate it if I give them a chance to hangout/catch up ...

& those who dunno to appreciate ni la, yg normally go around stalk my facebook la ... Keep an update on my blog, do I have a bf ?? If I did then, when will this next guy dump me ... For what, God knows kan ... But base on my understanding, you know deep inside what you said about me is not true ... That's why you kept trying to find a reason to prove it, stalk me thru fb & blog ... Hoping, one day you'll find the reason to prove I'm worth all the things you said ...

My advice, just move on ... If you hated me that much, buat ape keep an update about me ?? For your own good, stop stalking me ... & focus more on your current life/relationship ... Again, move on !!!

I can't be around people who keep telling me it's wrong to be happy, & I just can't stand those who made me feel guilty when I'm doing the right thing ... While there's other people who kept telling me I'm too kind & sweet that it make it hard for you to be around me when you're just not good enough ... It's just confusing ...

Once a friend told me that I have a noble heart, that I should share my thoughts with others ... Because it's beautiful, the way I think about it ... My perspective towards things happened in life, that's the reason I started blogging in the 1st place ... But since things didn't really turn out as planned, it scares me ... It's just feel like sharing is not a good thing (this is what I mean, certain people just make it feel wrong to do the right thing) ...

But I'm not going to let others change me, I'll be sharing my experiences & approach in my daily life ... It's just a matter of time ... Till then, this <3 is for those who really care ...

Have a great weekend ahead ~

Sharing Love

I've remove a post, Staying Strong ... Which I wrote about my ex's friend, who's constantly being rude to me ... Bukan sebab we've broke up ... Tapi sebab gambar die made a big statement ... Since I have a conversation recently ...

Me: I dah break off last week ...

M: Ni bf yg yg mane ni, yg gambar dekat karaoke tu ehhh ??

And another conversation a few weeks earlier ...

Mek: Mu pakai baju ape tu mokcik ... Mcm (ape bende ntah die ckp, aku dah lupe) ...

Tapi her point is, baju ke ... Memang kau xpakai sluar mokcik ?? Heheh, ok ... Gambar itu too much !!! Sebab tu saye remove the post, ok fine ... Tipu la kan kalau I nak ckp xde kene mengena langsung with the break up ... So now it's over, that post mean nothing ... Heheh ...

But I won't remove the post about how we met ke & the datings ... What's done is done la kan, it's just a break up ... Nobody's dying ... Later I'll elaborate more on the break ups ... Sebab post tu akan jadi depressing, so I need to get in the mood ... Right now, xrase mcm nak men'depress'kan diri anytime soon ... Thank you ...

Ade jugak I read someone else's blog, quite femes la ... Follower ramai, that how we define famous in blogger world kan ?? He kept on condemning girls who extremely express their happiness on blog ... Those who post gambar2 romantic dgn bf ... Salah ke ??

I mean, memang salah la ... Kalau belum kawin, posing peluk2 dgn bf ... He was trying to point out that, kalau people judge you social ke hape ... Jangan nak melenting la ... Actually his word is more extreme, I rephrase it in a very polite manner dah tu ...

But that what most girls do kot, trying to share her happiness with the whole world ... & what's wrong with that ... Cume cara masing-masing berbeza ... Ade yg show off gambar visits to relatives place mase raye, & those yg extreme akan post gambar when they're on vacation or something like that ...

So, yg b'gambar peluk2 tu perempuan jahat ?? Yg ambik gambar with her girlfriends, pegi island vacation ... Padahal yg snap the picture tu her bf, itu yang t'baik ?? This is all human's behavior ... Sgt subjective, & I don't wanna go in too deep about it ... Sebab my life is too precious to care that much about what other people want to do ...

I'm one of the girl, yg show off her bf to the whole world ... Sebab for me, that who I am ... I'm not going to pretend to be someone else, just sebab makcik seblah xsuke tgk aku pakai skirt kluar rumah ... But I will put on a proper jeans, so that jiran seblah xpikir yg enga'2 towards my family ...

So, in case for my picture dlm post yg I delete tu ... It's better be removed sebab my close friends sumer bagi -ve feed back ... Utk myself, & those who really care about me ...

I'm not the girl yang made up fairy tales stories, I didn't just tell you guys the happy moments to brag ... But I did share my problems, the down side of my relationship ... Reality lies behind the needs of being in the comfort zone, & things are just not as easy as you imagine ...

Ok, just saying yg dah jadi sangat panjang ... I'll spill more details in the next entry ... Thanks for all the love & support girls, luv u guys ...

Mensucikan Blog

Ni xde hubung kait dgn Bersih 2.0, tidak same sekali ... Sebab rase nye, dah slalu sgt meroyan skarang ... Sikit2 nak panas, salah sikit nak panas ... Ape hal kan ?? Ilek sudah ... Pastu merepek ntah pape kat blog kan ... Sebab makcik jual nasik sup kat depan opis xmo goreng telur, tu pun mau touching ke ?? Hahah ...

Dengan semangat baru ni, xtau ah semangat ape ... Hahah ... 2bln skali ade resolution baru, yg lame ntah pegi mane ... Tapi ni semangat utk memperbaiki hubungan dgn orang2 di sekeliling la ... Since I promised not to meroyan dlm blog lagi ...

So, xde dah kutuk jiran seblah rumah ke ... Kutuk member kau gemuk, member die xhot ... Tipu la xde, hahah ... Tapi saye akan lebih berhati-hati dlm penggunaan perkataan, supaya post saye lebih berhemah & mesra member2 ... Hahah ...

Diharap, usaha ini akan mendapat sokongan la ... Dari kawan2 sekeliling, dan ahli keluarga ... Jangan buat mokcik emo plis ... Atau dgn kate lain nye, mokcik kau xpayah la nak emo sangat ... Sikit2 nak tulis kat blog, annn ??

Ok, dah determined mood ape utk resolusi kali ini ... Mood mensucikan blog yg suke maki2 org ni, xmo dah kutuk2 org ... Tepek direct, siap haplot gambar ... Isk x3, teruk2 ... Enough of that ... Nak meroyan nanti aku post kat blog lagi satu yg private tu ... Hahah, nak jugak ...

Kire cam my promise la ni, better content ... Xmo dah emo & too personal ... Kalau dah emo sgt pun, I'll make sure I arrange my phrase properly ... Ala2 pempuan suci gitu, tapi xnak la suci sgt ... Gedik pulak kan ... Heheh ...

Dah merepek, bye ~

I Just Love Her

I found this blog just now, I started to fall in love with this girl ... Lady la !!! She's happily married, expecting her 1st baby ... Oh, how I wish I can be like her ... Pouring her heart out, telling her great love to her beloved husband ... With no limitation ...

Heheh, I put her on my blog roll ... Tapi xlarat nak follow, because I'm not really interested to click on Low Placenta Lying or Pregnancy Tips at the moment ... I mean, I'll only read that when I have nothing else to do ... But I'll prefer to click on Wedding Favors, or My Reception Dress Preview ...

But I just wanna share what I found wif you guys, because I think she's amazing ... Like when she wrote the post about women in love, I couldn't agree more with her honest opinion - that women do stupid things when we're in love ... But friends will always be around no matter what you choose to do ...

Or when she listed quality values you should find in a guy, she included snores & street smart ... That was something you face on daily life ... & I just love it because it was so realistic ...

She's amazing, go check her out ...

I'm Back

Hell yeah I'm back on my blogging mood ... Since I lost my drives back few weeks ... & everything around my life went in slow, & again ... New direction for my blog ... Hahah, how uncertain kau ni Mokcik ... So here's my excuses - for the new concept ... :D

I haven't be honest with myself lately, juggling my post in between dresses ... Food, friendship ... Wedding preparation, bla x3 ... The truth is, I'm far far away from getting married ... It's ridiculous to buy a diamond ring anytime soon, or met my wedding dress designer ... Since I have no idea when I'm going to get married, or whom I'm getting married to ?? Hahah ...

If you notice from my labels, I had a lot things I wrote about relationship ... How confusing it is for me, as I think it's hard to understand a man's action towards the relationship ... Or it's just a stupid reaction from me who always complicate things ...

Seriously ?? I'm the last person to give advice on relationship ... Heheh ... Since collage, my relationships stay for an average of 3months ... Hahah, somebody do the math for me on the number of guys I dated please ?? ;p

I love weddings, yes I do ... But I love weddings as much as I love the wedding dresses ... & I love dresses as much as I love Chinese food, & I love Chinese food as much as I love grilled fish ... & I love grilled fish as much as I love cupcakes ... & I love cupcakes (& the list goes on) ...

Hehe, you got what I mean ?? I love a bit of this & that ... & the intention of sharing every single thing in my blog, just make it fall all over the places ... Too many information to be shared, making it messy & unorganized resource of reference ...

So, I've been searching for things that I love the most ... As difficult it is for me to admit it, but it's the most honest of me ... I LOVE GUYS !!! Heheh, nothing more interesting to compare with the companion of a comforting guy to complete your day ...

Lets do this ...

I love weddings, but it will be more exciting to have a date ... Lagi la a perfect guy, drop dead gorgeous ... With the perfect ride ?? Come on girls, don't be hypocrite ...

I love the clubs, but do you really enjoy girls night out without any guy ?? Come on !!! You don't really wanna go out with your girls just to dance with yourselves ?? You can do that in the dancing class !!! & when you got you hands on the hottest guy that night, it's just feels like there's only you & him on the dance floor ... Nothing else really matter ...

I love fine dining, but do you really think you can survive a table alone in Tony Roma's ?? Yes, of course ... But if I have the chance to grab a male companion, who I can share the appetizer with ?? That will make me feel it worth to swipe my card on a tight budget weekend ...

I love designer clothes, a well dressed guy will complete the look ... The best accessories to go with anything ...

I love an upscale apartment, but what will that mean to me ?? Just myself & Mox ?? Will I be satisfied to have that as the highlight of moments in life ??

Am I right ?? Or should I go on with the list ??

During college, I met new guy every 2weeks (average) ... Now that I'm working, expanding my connection thru social networking & stuff ... I met new guy every single week ... Last weekend I spent the weekend with a high school sweetheart ... & this week, I end up dancing with a stranger on a side of a bar ...

So lemme share all those experience here, it might not the way you expect things to happen ... Because I handle things in my own cold-hearted way ... But this is how this blog going to work from now on ... My journey finding the right guy ...

Thank to Carlos, he's my muse ... Nothing but a perfect guy ... He's somebody I like, but he's just not the guy I love ... There's nothing wrong about him, just that I had my heart reserve for a Malay guy ... Hahah, how conservative was that ??

Enough with the introduction, I'll spill more on the juicy details in the next post ...

Later ~

It's Weekend !!!

Lame giler rase nye since the last time I pour my heart out in my entries ... Recently ni, sangat bz ... Hahah, tapi keje xhabes2 jugak ... But, my time got restricted ... Then I realized that I hutang bnyk giler post ... Hahah, gambar pun xtransfer lagi ...

But I'll try, to keep the stuff up to date ... Since it's weekend (yay !!!), bole hadap blog 1hari !!! I better do a checklist, hahah ... So that I don't missed it until it expired ... Hahah, penting !!!

Good luck mokcik !!! Hahahahhahahahh ...

Silent Reader: Part II

Never underestimate the power of your blog (with advertising of course) ...

Sumer org develop their own blog to share their thoughts & ideas with the world ... No matter how humble you are, deep inside you still wish there's somebody out there reading your blog ... That's why you keep writing, rite ??

So recently, after 2years of hiding my blog somewhere you cannot find ... Hahahahahhah, hardcore stalker jek yg jumpe ... Then only this year I think, I have the guts to publish my post on facebook ... There's where my readers came from, my wall post ...

Respond to that ?? It's exciting actually ... To see your stats increasing day by day ... Then you got comment, which also mean respond from your readers ... It's just exciting, to know that there's actually people reading your ideas, & leaving comments just show how much you care ...

Respond can approach from many different way, some say 'hi' on IM ... Or some may compliment you personally through email/BBM ... Then at the end of the conversation, they'll congratulate you on things you least expected ...

For instant, you never thought your vacation is that exciting since everybody may visit the place you went to ... Or some other friends in your friend list already been there like dozen times ... Then they drop a comment suggesting other place for you to visit base from your interest as you described in your entry, or activities you should try when you get there ...

See ?? Never underestimate a single thing you thought less important, as it may caught others interest ... I always thought my lengthy entry are ridiculous, & difficult to drive my readers attention to read it until the last sentence ... Somehow, from stats ... It's actually the most popular post judging from the numbers ...

So don't feel embarrassed to advertise your blog, because you didn't know exactly what others may think or how they find it interesting ... The simplest way, post it on facebook ... In fact, advertise it everywhere ... Twitter, IM status ... You name it, you know better where you can get the crowds attention the most ...

Yes, there is cons for it ... Like for now, I have people who read you blog on daily dosage ... Or should I declare it stalker ?? Hahahahahhahah, just don't put too much thoughts on what other people may think ... Because in the end, it's your life ...

It's the boundary you set for your own privacy, how many personal issues you're willing to share with your readers ... How do you want people to understand it, & bare in mind of the consequences of exposing those information publicly ...

Good day everyone ...

Hello Silent Readers

This is getting interesting more & more each day ... Ni bukan post perasan, just nak share my excitement ... As I said in my previous post, kalau menyampah xpayah bace ...

I got quite a number of visitors this month, & it's improving every month ... That's the motivation to keep writing, because I know you guys reading it ...

I don't really mind about being a silent reader, because I'm a silent reader as well ... Heheh, malu ... But talking from experience ?? Bloggers ni xmakan org, they are mostly nice ... When I post my comment every once in a while, normally they really appreciate it ... For example, they'll reply your comment asap ...

I know a few types of people who read my ~xde la femes mane~ blog ni ...

1st - those who cares about me, but like to keep it low profile ... Avoid the sport light, segan kot kalau I mentioned them here & broadcast it ?? As, kalau I link whose M is ... Comfirm korang tekan kan ?? Nak tau gak, sape M ni ?? Or hensem sgt ke bf minah ni annn ?? (Tiru my gay husband sket)

Eg. - my dear brother

2nd - my super best friends ... Dorang ni xpayah suruh, memang suker publicity ... Komen2 kat facebook ... Korang xnak publicity kat cni ke ?? (Hahah, pancing ... Suruh org comment kat blog die, dream on girl !!!)

3rd - stalker ... Ni kawan jugak, but in very competitive way ... Sebab they actually nak gossip/compare you with herself/others ... Of course la, kalau she can't win over the comparison she'll compare you with others ... Yakin ke sumer stalker is a SHE ??

Hahah, no matter where you stand in these 3groups ... I always appreciate you guys ... Yes, including you stalker ... :D

But if you leave a comment, I'll know better then what you expect from me to share in my post future ... ;p, pancing lagi ...

Lots of luv ...