This is Manjung: Work Hard, Play Hard

This is the job that I decline back in 2012, korang bole refer entry Suratan atau Kebetulan & Loosing Your Values ... About a year later, I gave the HR department a call ... Notify them that I'm available to join them now ... The HR lady trus arrange for an appointment the day after, somehow I have to attend another session of interview sebab the head of planning department yg handle technical staff tade ... I've already forgot when was that last interview, I think that was before raya ... Yeahhh, sebab I attended a course in the office mase bulan puasa ... They offered me a drink, but I declined sebab respecting Ramadhan walaupun saye xpuase ... :D

During the last interview, that was when I had a crush on my boss ... Haha, a year ago mamat tu ntah baru balik dr site mane kan ... Selekeh je, now dah boss duk attend meeting tu la bole pakai smart2 kot ... Haha ... The next day mase attend the training course, I googled him & found out that he's married ... Then everything stops there, you guys know I had a strong crappy policy on married guys kan ?? & I still hold on to that very principle strongly, will never ruin someone's marriage ... Chewahhh ...

But ade jugak la fikiran jahat, 'will it change anything if I join them last year' ?? 'Did I made the move a year too late' ?? Jawapan nya ialah tidak !!! Memang boss aku dah kawen, xde effect pun saye join bile ... Last year when I'm about to join tu, he's having his first born ... Paragraph ini wujud semata2 mengelak kan rasa hipokrit dlm diri, kekkekkekeekkeke ...

Interview seblom raye, was waiting for their respond kengkonon nak kene tender resignation kan ... This part I will explain in my next entry why the word kenkonon tu even existed ... After raye also dorang diam je, sampai putus harapan la tunggu dorang offer ... After my brother's reception on end of September pun senyap lagi, mase tu still menaruh harapan la since I declared I'll be available by October ... Sampai kene carik other option to survive, sewa rumah pun dah delay sampai a month in stead of 1-2 weeks on August & September ...

Sampai ... 17th of October, I received a phone call ... Tanye biler free, I said I'm available immediately ... Trus kene gi kj, sign appointment letter ... Esok kene gi Manjung dgn boss ... Aku ni seronot sgt dpt keje, gi celebrate 'farewell' party la sgt ... Pagi bgn2 je dah 8stengah ... So I missed my first ever site visit, & late for my 1st day ... Sabtu masuk office jumpe boss, trus sign allocation letter kene hantar to Manjung ... 

Mase tu memang xpikir ape, boipren sumer ku tolak ke tepi ... Dlm kepale otak cume ade satu bende, nak balik umah pack barang ... Mengikut perjanjian asal, kene duduk Manjung 3weeks je ... Tu yg mcm eksaited je kan, keng konon weekend je nak gi Pangkor la ... 3weeks later ?? Here I am, still in Manjung ... Extended for another month, katenyer ...

None of the introduction above related to my main point in this post, but at least I give you guys an interesting start kan ?? Hihi ... So, same thing happened this year ... As I just joined the company, dpt another offer ... Rm 650 extra from my current salary, kau ade ?? Hehe ... But I declined atas bnyk faktor ... & bnyk jugak reference & good advice from people around me ...

Sebagai contoh, my father pun advice - 'more money normally come with more responsibilities, less hours for yourself' ... And someone I just knew share a very good advice - 'it's a test either you're greedy or being thankful' ... 

This year's choice not as stressful as last year's decision that I made ... Reason being - I always feel this job was meant for me ... Imagine, I went for 4 interviews before I finally join them ... & after a year, masih lagi rezeki utk saya ... Complete with penantian 2bulan for the job offer, fair & square la with the fact that I turned down their offer last year kan ?? Heh ...

As I claimed this was meant for me, it's not that easy for me to take care of it actually ... Kadang2 kite rase, 'sape la nak dengki, bukan bnyk pun gaji saye kalau nak banding dgn pengarah cawangan jalan JKR daerah Manjung' ... Tapi kite berurusan dgn manusia, ade manusia yg xpuas hati dgn semua bende ... Jadi kalau die dah nak dengki, die tetap akan dengki jugak walaupun kelebihan tu sebesar zarah ...

So nak kire mcm mane ?? Die tabur pasir kat rezeki awak, pastu awak tabur pasir balik kat die ?? Tu sebenar nyer terpulang pd individu terbabit ... Mcm saye, saye pk die ade anak ... Tinggal anak die kat rumah, sebab nak keje tolong suami ... Sampai hati tak kau ?? Kalau aku memang xsampai dik !!!

Question - "kenape awak nak pk pasal die, die pk pasal awak ke" ?? "Die tak pk ke, mcm mane awak rase kalau org buat mcm tu kat die" ?? Ok, kalau aku tambah lagi 1 soalan ia akan jadik menambah2 ... Haha ... So, jawapan - kan saya dah ckp tadi ... Tu lumrah manusia ... 

Saya pakai swift, die pakai myvi ... Die dengki la, walaupun instalment swift tu bole kaver pampers anak die sebulan + instalment myvi ... Kalau saye kene beli pampers ngan susu anak mcm die, mungkin saye tak mampu bayar swift ... Owh, & die xtau pun swift tu dah sangkut sebulan lebih ... Haha ...

Saya ade iPad + nokia 80 ringgit, die ade samsung ... Die tetap nak dengki, walaupun iPad tu sebenar nyer org sedekah je kat I ... Sebab susah itu org tak nampak, biler nampak org lain lebih ... Kite akan jealous ... Biler saye balik lunch bersama paper cup starbucks tu, org tak kan tau saye hulur reward card kat kaunter sambil berkata dlm key paling rendah - "dik, tolong check ... Ade free drinks tak, kalau ade saye nak redeem" ...

Nampak tak permainan nyer di situ ?? Saye penah pegi curve without spending a single cent ... Parking depan maybank - free ... Pastu pegi makan kat marche ... Bnyk duit mak makan kat marche ?? Memang takde, that was balance credit I've top up in few months ... Just swipe membership, 1sen pun xbayar ... :)

Got what I'm trying to say ?? Org tak kan tau susah kita, or maybe they know ... But they won't care that much ... Plus, I don't think people enjoy your story during hard time that much kan ?? They appreciate the the fancy food photos on instagram more, or the beautiful pictures of your vacation on private resort rather than the snap shot of balance in your acc ... Yelah, manade org upload gambar transfer duit bayar hutang ke hape kan ?? Sebok upload gambar duit berkepuk2, letak kat fb ... Motif ?? Tatau ... Padahal pegang duit tu 5mins je, boss suruh tolong cash kan duit nak bayar gaji bangla T_T ...

And another thing, biler kite terlalu obsess cerita/ambil tahu pasal org ... Awak jadik paranoid, biler nampak org discuss je ... Awak akan perasan mcm org discuss pasal awak, padahal tade ape pun ... Sebab that's what you do behind other's back, so you expect people's doing the same thing as you do ... 

Utk kesekian kali nya, it's a time utk muhasabah diri sebenar nyer ... Maybe saye pun xbole berterusan begini, open myself to the possibility utk org dengki ... But how low shud I put myself down in order to please people ?? It's your call, draw your own limit ... :) Boss saye slalu ckp, 'stay positive' ... Always think positive about others, world will be a better place tomorrow with one less negative thought in the morning ...

Ps: for the first time ever in my whole life, I felt nothing when someone confront me ... Maybe because I've already knew what's going on, so I'm well aware of what she's capable of ... :D

Loosing Your Values

I did mentioned about my job offer with a MRT related company recently, the over dramatic title post ... Heh, & I promised I'll share my decision with you guys ... The decision that have made me suffer gastric for a week long, kind of regretting it at the moment ... But somehow I choose to stay positive ...

I turned down the offer, memang ramai yg menyuarakan pendapat secara lantang - "Bodoh, pegi je la" ... But what I'm facing is not as easy as you can see on the surface ... Bnyk bende2 yg saye kene consider ... & most importantly, people that I love are happy ...

To be honest ?? My mum, dad ... Even my boyfriend, masing2 point out the pros & cons if I took the job ... Somehow they'd gave me an indirect message that they actually expecting me to stay ... Mcm, "but if you stay, your house & car interest sumer bole claim" ... And 'But xxx (my current company) bnyk benefit la' ...

Let's not go on & elaborate on that, I took my favorite doctor cum psychiatrist kat Kota Damansara's tu punye advice ... "XXX is a big company, & your still young ... There will be other offers, more promising" ... That's a really good advice actually, I told that to myself all the time to manage the stress ...

I never notice it actually, until I came across this job offer recently ... That actually I'm stressed, my work is stressful ... Bnyk kali sebenarnya, cubaan mewujudkan semangat kekeluargaan dlm office tu gagal ... Event my killer chicken rendang pun tak mampu meng'house-warming'kan my team ...

Mungkin sebab dah terbiase dgn cara kerja kat projek kat Kerteh dulu, atau mungkin saya yg terlalu membandingkan ... So everything seems to be not good enough for me ... Or maybe I'm the one who should get adapted with this new environment ...

But as long as I remember, it is not appropriate for a Project Engineer to say - "Owh, I dunno la ... Bukan I yg jage M&E" - contoh ... Even kerja org lain, you should know at least ... The progress, major problems ... But tu la, as I said ... Maybe I'm the one who should get adapted ... It's a big company, can afford sufficient staff ... So masing2 just focus on your own job scope ...

Maybe that's one of the reasons why I always feel like my teammates are cold to each other ... But then, I can't find one day that i can actually have a nice rest on my leave ... Kalau I didn't show up, 9am somebody will call ... By 10am, if i didn't reach the office ... I'll definitely have the phone call from my boss ...

Bukan la saya nak ckp saya ni bagus sgt, sampai kalau takde 1hari bole terbalik office tu ... My point is, if someone else not around ... I'll definitely give them a hand to make sure nothing get delayed or not complete ... But if I'm not around ?? Mengelabah masing2 call, wanna make sure that I have my part done somehow ...

I was raised this way, thru life ... Thru working experience, that team work is important ... If my other engineer are short one leg, I'll definitely lend her a hand ... Somehow it's impossible to happen to me for a return ... Sebab masing2 buat keje utk lepas kan diri sendiri ...

So, as me ... Someone who came in highly enthusiastic with strong firm on work ethic, will you loose your values just to be fair with others ?? I even say, "gaji same je, tak  payah tunjuk rajin lebih" ... But somehow now I have to bear in mind that - if nobody will do the job, then who's gonna get the blame ?? Nak suruh boss buat semua ??

All I can do now, is hold on to those good attitude I've been practicing ... As long as it won't effect my own work and life ... I'll still be around, lending a hand ... Even if I won't got anything in return, for the sake of the team ... To complete the project with a good reputation ... Somehow I have to draw my limit, so that it still fall under helping instead of instructed ...

I have another 3years to deal with all these ... Since I'm both foot in now ... At the moment, trying to enjoy my half day off ... Somehow dah kene call since 10am, reminded about all those work that have to be done ... Dlm hati memang ade perasaan - 'tinggal nak scan & email je, yg tu pun tade org bole tolong ke' ?? So yes, I have to deal with all these craps for the next 3years ...

I was advised to manage the stress, I guess I have to learn how to enjoy my work ... Even with all the pressure, I should manage to get them done without forgetting how to enjoy myself ... Maybe my previous & current approach is not working, so I should try it differently ...

The new year's approaching, it's a good start for a change in whatever you do ...

Till then ~

Suratan atau Kebetulan

Post tade hubung kait dgn tajuk cerita, haha ... Just mcm suka that phrase these few days, so suke hati la kan ?? ;p This is work related, tetibe je ... Di saat & ketika yg tak diduga, dpt offer yang rase mcm nak nangis je to let go ... Ditelan mati c bapak, di luah jiwa kacau ... For real ...

I'm currently working with the 4th Lane Expansion team, which a well known established company ... Dpt assign car, staff house provided ... Medical expenses all covered, everything you ask for ... Kire kalau gaji 2k tu, plus house & car ... Jadik 3k la, contoh ... Kalau kire2 potongan kwsp & employer's share, dpt la 3k tu ...

So now ade another offer, from a Australian company ... For an extra rm500, somehow tade kete ... Tade rumah, but project near to home ... MRT la senang ckp ... Kalau ikut my calculation, I prefer extra money ... Rather than assigned car, or rumah staff ... Sebab money is something that you can measure ...

While company's car, or staff house are things yg tade figure ... Some might get lucky biler project dorang kat Penang & dpt kondo, while for me kat kawasan membangun ni dpt rumah flat je because tu je bole dpt dgn limit allowance rm800 tu while kat penang bole dpt kondo with the same value ...

Kalau ikut my consideration, a few considerations sebenarnya ... Pros & cons die adalah fair & square ... Quoted from someone who advised me on this issue, "Kire now dah ade bf, tapi ade boipren baru lagi ensem" ... Mesti kau nak kan ??

Ramai yg dah involve lame in this industry suruh go for MRT, sebab it's a consultant firm ... & tak bape seswai la pempuan nak b'jemur pegi site, for a 5years look ahead plan ... I'm using the easy way up, in 2years gaji dah letop ...

While if I stay, I'm struggling all the way up ... 5years kluar masuk site, pastu baru bole duk rilek attend meeting ... Tu pun masuk meeting nak b'gaduh je ... Tapi my benefit, medical ... Sumer tip top la, one third of my expenses are covered by the company ...

But in 5years ?? Lepas habis project ?? I lost all the privileges ... Memang skarang jimat, duit rumah tak yah bayar ... Pakai kete kampeni, kad minyak bagai sumer complete ... But that will only cover my current expenses, for 3-5years from now ... Lepas tu ?? Rumah, kete ... Sumer kene serah balik ...

While if I go for the better pay, kene pakai kete sendiri ... & of course senang nak beli rumah, & in 5years time bole rilek harvest investment ... But tell me honestly, duit dlm tangan ... Yakin ke you can buy all those in 5years ?? Rumah, check ... Kete ?? At this point, I see myself having one of those je ... If I buy a house, a new car definitely have to wait ...

I haven't decide lagi until this moment ... From what I see, both are equally beneficial ... If I go, tade rugi pape ... Maybe sedih sikit nak lepas kan kete baru pakai 3minggu la, hahah ... & if I stay, I still have either one kereta baru or a house ... But in longer duration ...

Never in my twenty something years of living ni nak kene buat decision as important as this ... Boipren ajak kawen pun tak stress mcm ni ... Hahah ... Slalu pandai je advice org kan, biler kene kat diri sendiri jem plak tatau nak pilih ...

For better or worse, my decision will always be based on my priority list & kepentingan org di sekeliling ... & of course, I'll seek guidance from Yang Maha Mengetahui ... To help me thru, making the right decision ... Pray for me guys ~

Reysha Itu Sexy

Actually, I'm tired of negative post ... Sebab been reading my blog generally a few days back, giler last 3post sgt depressive ... Tapi hati ni membare selepas ape yg baru lepas saye discover sebentar tadi ... So never mind la, negative ke ... Positive, this is something I wanted to share ... Citer ni dah basi sebenar nyer, dr last year - end of December ... That's when we had combined event dgn this one government bodies ... Jgn tanye siape ...

Aku takde la kejam mane, nak sampai nak reveal nama ... Masa & tempat kejadian ... Cukup sekadar gambaran individu tersebut, rumusan dari kejadian ... Serta pendapat & pandangan peribadi saye tentang ape yg saye faham dari tindak tanduk dan perlakuan tersebut ... Chewah, aku memang ade bakat jadik lawyer ... Hehe ...

Satu ketika dahulu, aku dihentam oleh salah seorang peserta combined event tersebut ... Quoted: Sakit telinge dgr org mengate aku berpakaian seksi ... Ekoran dr statement tersebut, kitorang gaduh2 over the phone ... Towards me blaming makcik2 government yg tak open minded ... Seriyesly ?? Aku pakai baju kurung pun dorang akan ckp aku pakai seksi2 ...

That's what I mean, knee length skirt + long sleeves shirt ... ++ Cardigan lagi ... Itu sexy ?? Seriously ??

Dalam masa yg same, berite minah pakai sexy2 mase event tersebut tersebar secare menyeluruh kat pusat operasi dorang ... Government kan ?? Paham2 jek la ... Aku tak dpt pasti kan sebenar nyer, sape kah penyebar cerita ... Until, aku pegi stalk sorang mamat ni ... Aku google name die, maka t'jumpe la saye akan carta organisasi office beliau ... Dgn name boss die skali ...

Kantoi di situ, skarang aku tau la sape pakcik yg gigih menyebarkan cerita keseksian itu ...

Bukan pasal he spread the gossip 200km away ... Tapi sebab I honestly admire him ... For the 1st time I was brought pegi meeting when I joint the project, was a meeting pasal CPM ... My heart was pouring for him, sebab pakcik tu mcm hebat giler ... Relaxed, cool ... Somehow came up wif killing question every now & then ... Yeah pakcik, that's how much I adore you ...

Adore & pouring my heart out, is strictly work related - charismatic & ability on delivering the task ... Kalau kau kecoh duduk site 2tahun, tapi aku tanye size culvert pun xbole nak jawap ?? Hahah, sendiri mau ingat la ... Tapi xde la sampai giler kat laki org, those who knows me ... Are well aware that I don't do married man, so does bf org ... KA is a mistake, aku tatau die ade gf ... If only I knew ?? I memang xkacau, sebab aku tak suke org kacau bf aku ...

I'm naturally attracted to a man that good at work, they got this level of confident that differ from those yg tau ckp jek ... But xbole deliver ... Tapi aku pun, entry level je kan ?? So tak yah la nak complaint sgt ... Yes, I'm attracted ... My the attraction is more to admiring & respect, bukan kejar nak buat calon suami ... Hokay ??

Mcm married guys, they have this particular extra attraction (to me la) compared to those single guys ... They're neat, & more relaxed from what I've seen ... Of course, sebab ade yg menjage ... So they're neat ... & maybe because the responsibilities to the family, made them look matured compared to the single guys ... Again, I don't do married guys ... All I have for them is respect ...

Bukan senang for me to grant my respect to an individual, unless die memang betul2 bagus ... Sebab honestly, aku memang judgemental ... :D ... So having someone that I really respect to things that I personally think unnecessary & so not his level to do so, just made me even more judgemental ... Like seriously, if earlier I will say - "Owh, pakcik tu ... Sgt hot, sebab die power giler buat CPM" ... Now there'll be an addition to that story - "Owh, pakcik tu memang hebat pun ... Tapi tu la, gatal" ... Geddit ??

Enough said, individual's behaviour is not something you can change ... No matter what you said ... All I can do, is be aware ... Mcm aku dah tau pakcik tu gatal, so be extra caution being around him ... Jage pemakaian, & watch out my words ... Make sure nothing come out from me yg bole make him use as an excuse ...

Like I always feel it's ok to join the guys' dirty talk every once in a while ... But it might make them simply judge aku ni easy ... So, be extra careful with words when dealing with these kind of guys ... I'm going to stop now ... People's attitude won't change for the world, so it's up to you to make the change that make world a better place ... Till then ~

Hello 2012

Lame giler dah tak update blog ... Sgt, sgt bz ... Dgn transfer, & new job scope ... Now tgh pecah kepale nak crack balik all the formulas from the past 3years, heh ... It's not a wonderful week to start the year, but not going to elaborate on that ... No sorrows to share to start the year ...

Lets start the year with new resolutions:

1. Get Rid of the Less Important

2011 ended penuh dramatic, kene baling cabinet ... Hahah, but not going to elaborate on that either ... Sebab dah masuk kes polis, xbole bagi statement lebih2 ...

But I've already get rid of unnecessary people, those yg b'masalah & causing more problems - already got totally disconnected & left behind by end 2011 oredy ... Dengan harapan, less drama ...

2. Let Bygone be Bygone


Ex boiprengs, former friends sumer I left behind in 2011 ... Together with all the dramas, xkuase nak ingat2 ... Tapi kalau ko nak menyibuk lagi, nanti aku kutuk la kat blog ... Heheh, cam tetibe my block list came up with a name yg dulu xde dlm list ... Rupe2 nyer dah kene dump, heheh ... Dah tu, kau unblock aku buat ape ?? Nak bukak persatuan ?? Sorry dear, just move on yahhh ??


3. Savings, Savings

Started end 2011, savings pun agak maju & laju ... Bangge jugak la dgn diri sendiri, credit cards debts pun looking good ... Less swipe & more payment ... Harap2 by mid 2012 dah bole go shopping seperti suatu ketika dahulu ... Wee ...

4. Relationship 210 - Take Things Slow

Hah, post about Relationship 101 xsettle lagi ... Hahah, tape2 ... Slowly, now with a more promising candidates ... I can elaborate it in a better way ...

When I said 'I take things slow', I never stop sebenar nyer ... Tu la sampai ade those yang don't try to understand me call me desperate ... But then, lets leave them out of the picture ... The most thing I can  take slow is my heart, but my commitment will never stops ...

Tell me how can I take it slow, when I know him for a month ... & I can sent all my stuff in my whole house to him ?? But I have my considerations jugak, xde la aku bute2 bagi org barang rumah aku kan ... It took a lot of trust, & of course he's a good man to take the responsibility when he agreed to accept it ...

people who really care ~

5. Healthier Life Style

So far, bole duduk office the whole day without a puff cigarettes ... No matter how stressful it is, cume sometimes pagi2 tu stress sebab jem nak gi keje ... So smoking before, or after work only ... Shud try leaving the cigarettes box kat rumah ... Supaye tangan xbole nak capai2 time driving ...

No more after mid night activities, so far 2012 ni tak penah pegi lagi ... Befday dinner pun, healthy dinner with my dearest family at my happy place - Ole2 Bali, Solaris Mont Kiara ... :D - Hopefully things will remains the same sampai biler2 ...

Took a greater care on personal care, been thru all kind of necessary tests since July 2011 ... AlhamduliLlah sumer went well ... Since I completely moved to KL area, so I can seek better help for my allergies ... About 3times taking anti allergies shots from doctor in Kerteh, sampai specialist kat Taipan finally they declared it Eczema ehhh ... Memang best la ...

Spend a couple hundreds ++ on that, but things are looking good after a couple days of treatment so far ... Itchy2 pun dah kurang, doctor perempuan ... So she worries about the scars more, heheh ... Siap suruh go for acne treatment ... ;p - Sabar2, one step at a time ... Budget tgh tight ...

6. Work, Work & Work

Focusing more on work, really wanted to excel myself ... Learn the most selagi ade peluang, a week ni things agak slow ... But I'm willing to seek for help, maybe nak gi study balik dgn my dearest bff Naqia ... Dear, please bear my stupid questions ... Before I present myself to my superior ... Hehe, sebab dah tahap kronik dah my design skill ni ...

7. My Power Animal

Tatau la aku ni superstitious ke hape, but I realized that my life really gets better with E-bit & Demok ... Yeah, the metal rebbit year is over ... But I'll always love them, lagi la tuan dorang ckp their family member dah goal ... & hope I can breed them, let them be the prime generation plak ... Dah branak nanti, bole bagi balik kat tuan die ... :D

Memang about a week I took them in, trus dpt boipren ... Then rezeki mencurah2, since they're around ... Imagine one of my credit cards, dr almost 2k ... Now dah tinggal rm800 ++ ...

Dear E-bit & Demok, walaupun it wasn't you guys nyer year anymore ... I'll always love you guys ... I'll put my best effort to take care of both of you ... Nanti aku carik kan aweks, hehe ...

8. More Patience, More Love

I'll try my best not to be a complainer, rase nyer ... My friends pun dah boring dgr citer pasal those who dunno how to appreciate me ... Kalau dah sebakul complaint jek, baik tinggal jek kan ... Buat ape nak complaint2 lagi ...

So I'll took more advice from those who really care, & to show my gratitude on that - I'll make a decision for myself ... So tak payah la nak ngadu2 lagi on things that wasn't important kan ... Better use their time giving me other useful advises ...

More loves are definately there, my wall penuh with my dear friends & families thoughtful wishes on my birthday ... Sampai tak larat nak comment satu2 ... Thanks guys, I really appreciate that ... God bless every single one of you ...
                                                                                             
Enough with 8 la, ni resolutions aite ?? Wishlist aku buat 12 ... Hehehh ... Till then, have a blast in 2012 ... Live like there's no tomorrow ...

~ Lots of Luv ~

Borneo Trip Round 2: Bundle Updates

Oh my, bnyk giler bende belum settle ... I'm less than 24hrs from my flight !!! T'pakse buat bundle updates, sebab xsempat nak buat hapdet every now & then mcm last visit ...

48hrs Before Departure -
Went shopping for my essentials kat Mesra Mall, because I'm still working on Sunday ... Siap kan report, because I'll be away for a week ... Just cream cleanser dgn hand lotion je pun, then I got my weekly shot of Caramel Macchiato kat Starbucks because I have to drive back to Bangi ...
Then drive the longest journey from Kerteh to Bangi, brenti at every r&r along the highway for approximately an hour every stop ... Sebab mengantuk sgt, the night earlier ... I just drive back dr Bangi, crazy right ?? Sebab bnyk giler bende xsettle lagi, + my report xsiap ... So t'pakse balik Terengganu jugak, considering xnak susah kan org lain settle kan my report ...

36hrs Before Departure -
Picked up my bride's maid dress yg 5mins away from home jek, hehe ... Puas hati ?? Yes, just that ... Ade mis-communication sket ... Since Rico nyer staff ckp there's more beading, but actually it's done just like mase 2nd fitting ... But I lurve it oredy !!! I'll sure find Rico for coming events ...
Then we (me dgn adik cherry) went for baking shopping, all the flour & kotak2 yg perlu utk transport my heart melting cupcakes for my dear bestfriend - Puan Shazuwani & (bakal) Puan Anis ... (Bakal) Kakak ipar aku, & scandal aku kat kk tu ... Hahah, scandal la sgt ... Sebab dah janji kan, so kene bagi ... ~ imagine my angelic impression ~ ;p
Got call from 'Api Terbang' said the flight re-timed at 1910hrs, perasaan ?? Panas ati, die call adik aku kot ... Apsal xcall aku ?? Called my ex who suppose to be on the same flight, said yes - hade jek org FireFly called, flight kul 7.10pm ... They sent me email je ... Haish, apsal sumer suke 'assume' aku ni career women yg check email hari2 ... Tapi not fair kot, apsal org lain dorang call ... But I didn't get the call kan, naseb baik la adik aku will be in the same flight ...

32hrs Before Departure -
Posted on my fb, suruh my dear friends place order ... Either nak chocolates or carrot cupcakes ... They want both ahhh ?? Hahah, padan muke aku ... Cite2 tinggi sgt, nak settle sumer bende ... But one of them won't be around, so there'll be less boxes for adik cherry to carry ... Hahah ... Sebab tu la aku murah hati beli kan tiket die, supaye die boleh angkat barang aku ... :D

24hrs Before Departure -
I'm done with the 1st round baking, ade 3more important things to be done ... Another flavor of cuppies, & frosting ... & packing, haih ... Frosting sempat buat lagi tomorrow ... Wish me luck ladies ...

I better go now, adik cherry is getting bossy suruh settle those things ... & b!+c#ier dgn my little brother yg degil giler xnak blajar even tho PMR dah dekat giler ... ;p

Good night ...

Overspending

I just bought, flight ticket for abg Wan ... From KL-KK, for about rm300 ... & flight ticket for adik cherry on the 13th, same date as mine ... All charged to my over limit credit card ... Sangat pelik why the bank didn't block my usage ... Padahal belum bayar ...

Mak dah pesan, be careful using your credit card ... But I just spent, spent & spent ... Of course la bank xlimit usage kan, bole charge more interest ...

Seriously, lepas raye ni ... I was thinking of giving the card to my mum ... One of it la, the one I use for shopping purpose ... Konon2 bnyk benefit la kan, sign up credit card yg bagi a lot of benefit for that particular hyper market ...

But now, I think my fuel credit card pun I have to ask my mum to keep ... Isi minyak pakai cash jek, xde duit duduk Kerteh diam2 ... Haaaahhhhhhhhh ... Can I have at least 1 ?? But kalau ade yg 1 tu dlm tangan, comfirm gune full swing ... Since dah patah kaki with kehilangan the rest ...

Daddie, nak 5k bole ?? Hahah ...

Agak giler sebenar nya, the whole day travelling pegi meeting bahan + cuci mate tgk songket kat Pasar Payang tadi ... Happy with the output from meeting tadi, tibe2 smangat nak buat report bahan ... Heheh ... & I figured out kenape saye malas sgt nak settle kan my report back few months, sebab the last meeting sumer kene reject !!! Hahah, biler sumer lulus ... Excited lebey, meter rajin trus ijau ... Hahhahahahhahah ...

About the songket, very ... Sangat la gorgeous ... Sampai b'peluh ketiak, sebab excited ... For price range of rm500, you can get a beautiful design ... Tapi kene betul2 carik, might not have kaler yg you prefer ... Or dgn kate lain, might came in color yg susah nak match dgn other colors ...

Kalau you have budget around rm750-1200 ... You'll definitely make a statement with the songket ... Imagine plain black, with pastel colors benang tenun ?? Memang haku nak snap tadi, tapi takut abang tu marah kan ... Heheh ...

Yg rm1200 tu, made of silk ... I'm not sure benang yg silk, or the material tu yg silk ... Nanti bile betul2 nak beli, I'll ask betul2 ... Heheh ... Nak kirim ?? Heheh, I have a good taste ... Trust me, hahahhahahhahah ... Giler puji diri sendiri ...

Perasaan ketika melihat songket2 nan indah itu: I wish I've saved some money, bole beli kan my best friend for her nikah ... Seriously, it is that good that it can make your day perfect ... Ok, terlebih suda ...

I'm stuck @Mc Donalds ni, nak balik tapi hujan lebat ... ;p

I Learnt the Hard Way

Saye telah b'janji pd diri sendiri, utk watch my words when writing in my blog ... So post ini akan di buat dengan berhemah, walaupun hati ni panas membara ... :D

When I graduate, I don't have any practical training ... Sebab mase kat UiTM, it's not compulsory for diploma student to do practical training ... & during my degree in Nottingham, BEng programme students are not required to complete their industrial training ...

With my result yg tak cukup makan, I landed a job 100km away from home ... Cukup 3bulan, saye dapat warning letter ... Cukup 6months, I got TERMINATED ... Yes, saye kene buang keje ... Bukan nak bukak aib sendiri, but I just think it worth to share ...

Saye keje 5bln, baru kluar myvi t'cinte ... Selama 5bln tu, how I survive ?? Public transport ... From Bangi to Seremban ... Sampai kekurangan xde transport ni, the company buat alasan I xbole perform ...

The truth is ?? PM aku resign, notice 3bln ... So selame 3bln notis die tu, memang mcm xde PM ah ... Suke hati die je nak dtg pukul brape, nak balik pukul brape pun ... Mcm mane aku blajar tgk drawing ?? Level dah salah, PM datang mengamuk tunjuk number kecik2 kat tengah2 portion earthwork tu ... That's how I know, "Owh, tu level die" ...

Kau hingat ade org nak ajar kau If you expect people to say, "Reysha, ni drawing earthwork ... Ni level yg consultant design, so kalau kat site ni ... Kite check la, machine operator buat area die betul x ... Kalau xcukup level lagi, kite bagitau la ... Kene potong lagi 1kaki ke, setengah kaki ke " ... Seriously ??

I'm a cold b!+c# I know I can be a bit harsh when delivering my order, aku tau korang cakap aku gatal kan, dengan jantan sumer lepas ... dengan pempuan payah sgt but it pissed me off the way you guys present your work ... I mean, when you're in diploma ... Ur assignment will have a proper cover page, well divided into introduction ... Research method, then the findings ...

Later when you do your degree, it emphasis more on research ... Somehow you have to follow the report format for submission ... Xpayah cover page bagai, but it well presented la kan ... Ade submission form sumer ... Kalau stakat print kaver page, staple kat catalog ... Tu adik aku yg pmr tu pun bole buat Why not apply any of the skill picked up during college in your work ?? I mean, xde sedikit pun ke ... Perasaan nak put the best you can give in your work, sebab org lain buat mcm tu ... So follow jek la, xde keinginan nak buat yg lebih baik ??

I'm not asking for a fair treatment pun, I didn't expect you to go down the hard way like I did ... What I've been thru is my experience ... Something valueable, that you don't have ... But to see you guys having those privileges, & taking things lightly ... It's just frustrating ...

Just please, those phrase - "Ala mokcik, kau dulu pun mcm tu jugak" ... Don't throw that to my face, because you don't know what I've been thru before I got here ... I'm doing the best I can, controlling my nerves spending the last few months here ... Lets make it easy for everybody ...

Have a good weekend ...

Being Busy

Saye sangat bz rupe nye lately, baru perasan ... Since I notice my game kat facebook I left unattended ... Xde dah masak, b'kebun pun dah jarang skarang ... Now bile log in, either the food spoiled ... Or the pig dah kotor giler coz dah lame xcuci ... Heheh ...

That means I spent less time at home, hadap laptop ... & more outings ... Which is good, sebab kalau x I'll be out clubbing je ... Now that I have something to do during daytime, like watching movies & tempah baju ... Hahah ... So xde la I went all out clubbing all weekend ...

So, after party hard ... I have to go back & finish my work ... In a bulk la kan, sape suruh buat rilek2 ... Bile sampai due date, mengelabah ... That's the reason why I think, I went thru massive stress bile danak meeting ...

Then bile stress I nak balik kl, enjoy lagi ... Pastu restless over the weekend, then come back to pile of works ... Then tambah stress lagi ... Hahah ... Pastu claim myself in depression ... Xbole nak stay any longer la ... Bla x3 ... Drama queen ... Hahah ...

This is a post meeting stress, mcm biase la ... Lepas meeting, gedix nak buat entry ... Now I'm all in for material report pulak ... Restless night again I guess, xpe ... Submit sumer, nanti bole duk rilek goyang kaki ... Yolahhh tu ...

Oh, bukan ini matlamat post saya ... Tadi tibe2 ade hit my post pasal my assistant ... Tu post tahun biler ?? Hahah, ape hal dowh ?? Terase ke ?? Everytime sakit hati, nak post kat blog ?? Meroyan ke ape ??

Seriously ?? Bnyk lagi keje lain dr nak buat post pasal ko, tau ?? You know you're wrong, sebab tu mengelabah check my blog ?? Rite ?? Xkesah la, I'm looking forward for a better tomorrow ... Kau nak stay in the past (I mean dgn perangai kau dr dulu secare kasar nye), that's ur choice dude ...

Baik aku buat report wire rope ... Wish me luck guys ...

More Than A Dozen to Go

It's a stressful day, with a lot to be done before the week ends ... ++, I took a day off early this week ... So, yahhh ... Take that !!! Heheh ...

I love drama, heheh ... Cannot deny that ... I love to clean the house when everybody's sleeping/not home ... So they have the surprise face when they got home ... Heheh, drama ...

When it come to my work, I love to do that as well ... I love to surprise people on the outcomes of my tasks, but I guess it just din't work that way ... Last minute will just make it difficult for others ...

So I better get it done now, & push back all the update for the blog for now ... :(

Lagi Drama Selepas Meeting

Actually xde intention pun nak update anything ... Sebab bnyk lagi keje nak kene buat, + layan tension rush hour before meeting just now ...

Flashback: sebelum meeting tadi kene sound dgn bos - "lain kali report buat cepat sikit eh mokcik" ...

Ketika saye tgh sebok stalking blog2 kawen org lain setelah tension meeting 2jam tadi, tibe2 dtg sorang hambe Allah ni ... "En. Tut (bukan name sebenar) dah bagi summary ??" ...

Dengan nada mengawal perasaan menbalas, "Aku dah habes meeting dah ni Hamba Allah (bukan nama sebenar), baru kau nak tanye ??" ...

Reaksi Hamba Allah: boloq2 pastu blah ...

Mendidih, korang penah rase ??

Aku bukan nak cakap sebab kau keje aku xsiap, tapi xpayah la nak tanye soalan yg tidak relevan pada saat & ketika ini ... Pastu, bukan En. Tut tu, your team mates ke ?? Ape hal nak tanye opponent on your progress lak ...

Wait2, nanti korang take it wrongly ... We're not competitors ... Hamba Allah is the assistant to En. Tut ... & I have another assistant as I elaborated in my post back few weeks ... So (b!+c#y mood's back on), apsal nak tanye aku pulak ?? Korang xreti COMMUNICATE ke ??

Ok, let's cool down ... ~breathe~

I'm not that type of person, who take a complaint ... Then go blame others ... Like my bos said, 'report u lambat every month' ... I won't reply, 'Owh, I receive late input from John dgn Mayer' ... Sgt malas to elaborate more, but please la ... I'm trying not to be a complainer here, tapi korang seems taking advantage on my kindness ...

I don't like my job to be monitored, all that matters to me is the output ... I mean, I don't mind you went out lunch with gf/bf every day ... Or nak bawak awek outstation shopping on the weekend ... All I know, I want things I want when I need it ...

Manage your own time & work, for me ... I'll complete my task in the most convenient situation for myself, within the time I scheduled in my plan ... Mcm mlm tadi when I have to be in the office until half an hour past mid night ... Padan muke la kan, sape suruh xnak buat report awal2 ...

Lantak kau la nak jadik ape ...

Saye sgt stress, makan nasik lemak pun nak nanges (normally I cry sebab stress) ...

Misteri Kehilangan Pendrive

Tibe2 dpt mood utk mem 'blogging' dlm bahase Melayu ... Itu b'makne, emosi kurang stabil ...

Saye kehilangan pendrive, sejak 24 jam yg lepas ... Bile barang mokcik hilang, biase nye memang kecoh satu office ... Sebab saye memang artis, orang begitu mengambil berat (perasan giler ??) ... Atau lebih seswai ckp, minah ni memang kecoh ... Sumer bende nak bagitau org ...

Tapi saye bukan subject utama dlm post ini, subjek utama kite hari ini = PENDRIVE ... So, dr smalam mencari & tercari2 ... Sampai pagi tadi, sehingga meninggalkan kesan - xde colored graph utk report bln ini ...

Tibe2 ...

Selepas lunch tadi, pendrive muncul di atas kerusi yg mokcik letak RFI bnyk2 tu ... Padahal, sblm lunch tadi Yani duduk di atas kerusi tersebut ... Memang comfirm xde pape la ...

1. Kenape kemunculan pendrive tersebut selepas meeting ??

2. Kalau t'ambik, bagi jek la balik ... Kenape nak buat2 t'jumpe ??

Malas nak bagi point lebih2, or mengamuk xtentu pasal ... Ape tah lagi untuk membuat konklusi ... Ape yg saye cube kongsikan di sini ialah ...

Mase orientasi kat Nottingham dulu, academic advisor saye b'pesan: 'sile jage hasil kerja anda & jangan suke2 tunjuk your work to someone else, especially soft copy' ... (die ckp in English of course, tapi saye dlm mood utk support entri ni) ... 'Never trust people, even those who closed to you ... Because you can't expect what people can do' (<--- yg ni letih arrr nak translate to bahase) ...

Jadi pengajaran untuk hari ini ialah:

1. Merepek jek la, mokcik dah tue ... Sumer bende luper ...

2. Sile double/triple kan soft copy anda yea mokcik ... Xde la mengelabah bile nak meeting ...

3. Saye rase saye cube jadik sgt general, sorry la kalau ade yg terase ...

Sekian, time kasih ...

Semakin Hari Semakin Gedix

Saye bnyk keje, tapi sgt gedix nak update blog pulak ... Tapi saye nak menyuarekan pendapat peribadi saye, tentang kesibukan kerja ... (yeahhh to penggunaan bahase Melayu)

Saye org yg xpandai mengemas, heheh ... It's genetic tau !!! Hahahahahhahah ... So, maid ... PA, adalah perkara yg saye akan hargai dlm kehidupan seharian ... Heheh ... Demand lebih ...

So, dlm kesemakan diri sendiri ... Saye ade seorang pembantu yg bole tahan semak jugak, org Ganu ckp - BOLOQ !!! Contoh untuk situasi tersebut adalah - dgn kesemakan maksima atas table saye yg dipenuhi pelbagai jenis bahan dr multi categories ni, org yg boloq akan memilih untuk menyumbat kertas2 kerja yg perlu diserahkan pade saye di antare timbunan2 yg ada ...

So, nampak mcm die dah lame siapkan la ... Kertas2 kerja t'sebut, tapi saye yg semak lagi slow ni yg lambat sain ... TAPI ... Saye tau jugak die selit2 kat bawah tu ... Hahah, sebenarnye ... Pembantu saye bukan la fakta penting dlm post ini (tibe2) ...

Ape yg cube saye sampaikan adelah (wahhh, bagus nya mood bahasa Melayu hari ni) ... Biar la meja saye semak, kalau meja saye xsemak ... Makne nye saye xde keje ... Yeahhh ...

Tu jek sebenarnye yg saye cube sampai kan ... Heheh ...

Konklusi: Biar la meja saye semak pun, at least saye tau saye bnyk keje nak kene buat ... Wwweeeee, :D ...

Pendekatan: Penulis menggunakan kaedah monolog dlm penulisan ... (Hah, xde motif nak poyo di situ ... Slaps !!!)