The first time we met, he took me for lunch at Ujong Pasir ... One of the food sensation in Malacca, for Beriani Kambing ... Before we arrived, we had this chat about my rejected bf to be- a banquet captain of one of Malacca's top hotels ... As we're walking from the parking space, he reached out his hand towards me ... And said, "Meh, I bagi you tumpang bermanje" ...
I just realize that I have to include the F&B captain's story in this chapter, to make it easy for you guys to understand ... Owh, I hate to do that !!!
Two Weeks Earlier- I just had my killing break up with my 8th ex ... I consider it's killing because I was left in Malacca, the place that I shouldn't be as you know I was studying in Kajang ... So I was left there, with an unfurnished room ... No transportation to go out to have meal or buy my food stock, except for the public transport that require 5-10 minutes walk to reach the pick-up point ... And nothing but trouble to people around me ...
A Week After the Two Weeks Earlier- I was working like mad ... Because this is the only way ... That can avoid me from staying home, and cry ... I work all thru the weekend ... I even work on eve's of new year ... Because it's the only chance of happiness for me at the moment ... As working is the place where I met the F&B captain I mention earlier ... Hmm ...
So on that pathetic new year's eve ... A former friend of mine should be picking me up, after work around midnight ... But she didn't, because she's busy ... Partying with my ex boyfriend ... I guess it explains all, why I addressed her as 'former friend' ...
So, that's how it goes ... I end up mourning over my break up, dragged to the next week ... I should been studying at that moment, as my final exam was just around the corner ... But I didn't ... Because I was too busy, crying ...
Before the week ended, I decided to move temporarily to the F&B captain's house ... As I can do nothing but crying alone in my room ... So I packed my things, approximately for a weeks stay ... I brought pillows too, just to make me feel like home ... And departed to the house, that actually is also the F&B boss's house ... And occupied by other mixed of full-time and part-time F&B's staffs ...
We've been seing each other for quite sometime actually, about a month I think ... Since I started working at the hotel ... We go out for bowling, dinner on his off day ... And supper, before my boyfriend came to pick me up ... Heheh, now I realize I was cheating on my ex !!! Hak hak ... But the sweet part of this guy is, he called me 'B' ... It wasn't that big huh ?!!? Hak hak ...
So upon my arrival, we had pillow talk before bed ... Then he gave me another killing moment when he said, "Encik %! rase la ... B gaduh dengan budak-budak pempuan kat hotel tu, sebab dulu gefren Encik *# penah datang office (the hotel's banquet office) ... Duh, what the he~! was I'm doing back then ...
We (me and my sister) had a fight actually on that new year's eve at the hotel, it's silly to mention ... Because it's school leavers issue ... Gosh, I'm old all ready !!!
That was the first time he ever mentioned about his girlfriend, after all the while we spent time together ... And thank him, for completing my two consequent weeks of misery as a whole ...
So on the next day, it's Thursday ... I'm sure because I remember the date so well ... I got this call, from Encik Kobak ... I all ready set his name that time, because he had been calling a few times before that ... So, he's asking me out ... For lunch ... Then you go back to the first paragraph, hak hak ...
I had exam actually, on the next day ... But I still can't study ... I was pathetic huh, I do think things wasn't so bad after all ... It just me that take things too emotionally ... Being too emotional upon the break up that leads me to rushing into a new relationship, being too emotional when I know I was cheated by my new possible boyfriend and went out for lunch with another guy that pick me up in front of his house ...
But anyhow, it leads me to my new relationship ... We went to a friend's place after the lunch, that after a few months had been my house eventually ... And we're suppose to have a kids by then ... Hak hak ...
He send me back home afterwards, to the F&B captain's house ... Somehow, before midnight ... He came pick me up again ... That was the last time, I ever been there ...
We went for supper before we go back to that house again (the friend's place that was my house eventually) ... Then he reach out his hand towards me again, so that we're holding hands ... While walking for a few meters before we reach the table (sape yang nak manje dengan sape nie, hak hak) ...
The next day, I got exam in the morning ... So he send me to the bus station, at 4am in the morning ... And there goes a new chapter of my life ... I failed that paper I did on that day actually, that leads me to a new chapter also !!! Hak hak ...
So, for all this trouble of remembering every single moment passed ... It reminds me, how amazing my bf is ... You can see how terrible my life was during the two weeks ... Somehow, he still there ... Lending his hands to me, when I really need somebody to be the shoulder to cry on ...
Regardless the number of boys (it's weird to call them boys, they were old enough to be a men) I've been with ... He still came and pick me up on that night, to make sure I didn't do any other stupid thing ...
Even he know all my story, he still do his part ... In making things right for me, and for us ... Being responsible, for things that might not be his ... Just because I say so, and he trusted me ...
At some point, I felt really mad when he didn't get back home ... Or when he get back home and get mad at me over a lipstick stain that wasn't mine ... And when I found his text to my former friend ... Saying that I'm the only one who's feeling it's happening ...
But I'll wait until I can be calm, and think on my steady mind ... For all these time, the reason that I'm staying ... Is because he's the one, who came and look for me ... Now it's even more clearer, to me to understand him better ...
For what I am, he never complaint ... He just say, stop drinking ... And he stopped buying me cigarettes to control my smoking ... Of course, he said ... "Kite kawan jek ramai-ramai, nanti kalau nak kawen ... Pilih yang mane sesuai" ... But why should he get mad if I went out for dinner with some other guy, when we're just friend ... Why did he bring me to see his parents for lunch, when I was just a friend ...
I never share this with other, people that know me ... And my boyfriend ... I only share this with my close friend ... So what if his friends think I'm just a girl he kept outside the house, so what if my former friend think I got nothing but my feelings ... I know where I stand ... And yet, we've been together for almost 10months all ready ... Huh, my longest relationship in 4years !!!
There's more actually, sweet things ... Done arrogantly between us ... Somehow, I found that charming ... Hak hak ... Yah, he can take that sweet term, I'm fine with silly ... Hak hak ... This is just the part when we met ... I need to analyzed all the other parts, to find the beauty of my relationship ...
After all, my life wasn't so bad all thru this years ... With my close friends, families and boyfriend that always stay by my side ... It just me, that didn't wanted to move on ... Keep on remembering the hurt, that suppose not to be that hurting ...
P/s:Encik Kobak = Encik Muiz = my devoted love to death, hak hak ...
