Buying Friends with Money

I only have a few friends, in some stages of my life ... Ni yg I called bestfriends la, memang stock tido 1katil ... Share everything, clothes ... Shoes ... Linda, kau tinggi sgt ... But we share make-ups, kannnn ??

Like in high school, my best friend - yati dgn p-pop ... Then mase kat technical school - legendary Linda & Anis ... From Linda & Anis, expandable to Wani & Fara ... Bole eh, expandable ?? Hahah ... Then mase from 5 - ko'in dgn p-jot ... Then mase kat UiTM - Yanti dgn Naqia, expandable to Ailin, Eiha, Ghulam & Zaki ...

Kawan lain ade la, but not that close ... & I always have my ex's, which I kept as a friend ... Approaching new phase of life ni, I have to deal with new people - my bf's bestfriends ... Which came with a package of gf, & already have their group of friends ...

Tu history jek la, sikit2 ... They're not really a problem actually ... Their behavior that caught my interest actually ... Heheh, this happened quite recently la ...

1st I came in, memang totally outsider la ... Since bf's ex was the girls bestfriend over their 8months relationship ... So they came in all offensive against me, bukan they pun actually ... This one girl jek ... Siap mentioned history2 right in my face, & b'sungguh2 ajak my bf pegi their next planned vacation ...

I dunno about you guys la, but haku dah kene brape kali dah dgn pempuan2 molot puake camni ... Xreti nak jage sensitivity org, ckp ikut sedap mulut ... I mean, kalau aku nampak bf kau bawak awek lain lepak ... Xde la aku nak sound direct depan kau kan, 'eh, hari tu awek lain' ... Kan ??

Ni bukan kes xnak back up member la, it's more to avoid drama ... Sorry eh Linda, kau lagi case of study ... Sebab senang ckp ... Mcm mase A dok hangkut minah A sane sini, haku diam jek la ... Walaupun Linda tu my bestfriend for 9years now ... Bukan xnak bagitau, but she's happy kan ?? Let her be happy la, later when she find out ... I'll be around with ice-cream cake, isn't that easy ??

Like for now, kalau kau xsuke aku pun kan ... Be happy for Fariz la ... Aku pun xde la hadap sgt nak jadik bestfriend ko sampai tahap comolot kan ?? Hahah, dah lame aku xbi+c#hy camni ...

That's what happened in early weeks la ... Now ade gak sikit2, but dah in tolerance ... Hahah, after we treat them to a party ?? Just FYI, I didn't do that to buy you girls la ... It's for my darling ... Because he's happy with you guys ...

It's up to you actually, because from what I understand ... You're been reporting back quite efficiently to the ex, then after these few weeks tibe2 slow kan ?? Correct me if I'm wrong, but I think I can buy you guys with money ...

& I don't do that, I do flash my designer dress every now & then ... I don't buy my friends expensive gifts every week, I bought them a thoughtful & something memorable on their wedding ... Unless - you let yourself trade-able with my lavishness ...

It's not fair jugak actually, for me to judge this early ... But you judged me in a week kot ?? Sorry that I came back all defensive mcm ni ... I just hope our relationship will get better in time la ... Because I don't like it when you have to choose between the person you love & friends ... So I'm not doing it to somebody else ...

Hahah, my mum just came up wif a funny statement ... Xbole blah, ilang trus my bi+c#y mood ...

For Those Who Need to Eat Make Ups

I'm suppose to head my comfy bed right now, but this is just too funny ...

Saye memblogging dlm keadaan syok sendiri sebenar nye ... I know I have readers, & I know what my readers expect ... Somehow, I refuse to deliver my post according to their needs ... Sebab I prioritized my life ... Things revolves around me ...

Tapi sometimes kite xsedar, who actually read your blog ...

Sebab:

1. Korang xcomment, so mane la I nak tau korang bace kan ?? Kind of xde respond, so I only will responded to those who show their interest in sharing ideas ...

2. Sebab bz blogging (+ keje), I don't realize what's really happening out there ... I don't check my fb that often now, baru this morning ade mase to stalk around fb ...

My point is, you dunno how much your writing will effect others ... Xkire la, positively & negatively ... In my case, I have this cat fight with a bunch of girls ... Which I simply categorized as girls with lack of inner beauty ...

Update: They remove me from their friend list, & their 3years old (or is it 5 now ??) friend too ...

My opinion sweeties ?? Yes, mulut I xde insurance ... But why do that to your friend as well ?? You just prove that friendship didn't mean a thing in your world ... & sorry again, I think you're shallow ...

So, yes ... I don't consider their feelings in expressing my words in my blog ... But can you name one benefit to me, in considering your feelings here ?? Xde dear, none ... Because you guys never think about others when you open up your mouth ... So when others do the exact same thing back to you, why snap ??

Just put a thoughts into it, before you went saying "maybe she feels something thats why die bagitau ko" ... Or "jage sikit mulut gf ko" ...

If you think what i said in my previous post is not true, why got so emotional ?? What do you think that really make you big sister kept you around all these while ?? Because you guys are easy for her ... You guys are well below her game level, that makes it easy for her to win it all ...

Haih, I said this so many times already ... You guys are disgusting, & I want my life away from your world ... You guys hate me for telling the truth, somehow you still read my blog ?? Can you see how funny your guys are ??

Here's some tips on how to be nice to the person you hate:

Hide them, instead of deleting ... Their updates won't be flashing right in front of your eyes ... Because you dunno if you're going to need them someday ... & to redo what you did, send friend request once again ?? Heh ...

I hope this is the last thing I wrote about you guys, seriously ?? It's wasting my time ...

Source: Google

This Might Be Offensive, Sorry in Advance

Stalker please back off, because this post is especially for you ... The truth hurts, prepare for crucial pain if you think you can handle all the risk reading it ...

I'm quite defensive, NONE of you knew me well actually ... Somehow decided to put one foot into my relationship matter, so this is the consequences when you decided to gave opinion on things that wasn't really care ...

Exhibit A1:

Less attractive, make up tebal ... Quite innocent, somehow always came up wif stupid move ... Making herself look foolish ...

Problem: I don't have any problem wif her actually, as I bukan jenis ambik tau hal org sgt ... & you're not that close pun ... I just hate that people compare my bestfriend wif her ... Said she's a good one, & my best friend been called a gold digger ...

My Point: They're basically doing the same exact thing, menghabiskan duit jantan pegi enjoy ... Both are in a relationship, somehow still manage to hangout with other guys ?? Well girls, that's your choice ... I got nothing to complaint about that, I just don't get it ... What make her a better person than my best friend ??

Exhibit A2:

Less attractive than exhibit A1 ... Makan, makan ... Makan, makan ... Makan ... That's all the review I heard from your friends ...

Problem: Aku pun xpaham kenape kau is a problem ... I don't even know you last name ?? You get me ?? Memang kau xde kene mengena dgn aku langsung ...

My Point: Hade my friends sound bf exhibit A1 sebab kacau relationship my best friend ?? Keep you hands of my man !!! I know my bf used to spent you fancy meal , now that he have me ... He got no time for you girls ... So just try to accept the fact that you have to roll on to other guy ...

That's why I want a clean escape from the circle, it's complicated ... Exhibit A1 dated a friend of my best friend ... Exhibit A2 used to spent one whole day spending my bf money ... I got nothing against you on that, since it happened before I met him ...

So, if I can respect the friendship you guys have before I even existed in your circle ... Why can you do so, & respect my relationship NOW ??

You know what's making me sick ?? Get to the bottom of all this problem, it's all about MONEY ... I've been thru this kind of problem back in 2008, I walked away from a friendship also back then ... Because you guys care too much about money, rather than a friendship ...

What I learnt back then ?? Those girls chasing money instead of keeping a relationship, they do anything to get what they want ... Even if they're about to loose a friendship, senang ckp they back stabbed each other ...

Enuf said about you girls, I prefer a real friendship rather than being around you guys ... Wonder what friendship means in my world ?? I have a pair of my best friend jeans well kept & practically wearable ... Even it came in a different size ... It don't have to be GUESS or ZARA ...

It's not about who's wearing the most expensive dress, or who's carrying a branded handbag ... You will be better appreciated if you turn up for a house warming instead of going out town for vacation ... Or hanging out for a healthy lunch instead of clubbing all night with people you barely knew ...

Having dozen of friends around won't necessarily mean you're popular ... It will be enough for me to have a few who will surely lend a hand when you needed ... How many friends will help when you're moving out, & how many do you think will turn up for the new apartment party ??

I'm thankful that I have a heaven sent best friend who always be there for me even we're miles apart ...

Dear Bestie: Part II

This is the most convenient way for me to reach out to my friends, since facebook is too much for privacy & will look more like attacking ...

It's been a week since the big drama ... Yes, I created it ... Admit it, & guilty as charged ... I'm selfish ... Because I was frustrated with the unfair treatment ... I was trying to prove myself, it suppose to be a 2parties problem ... Somehow I dragged along N's reputation, since that's the best case to win it ...

It's suppose to be my problem with so called bestie, there's lack of communication ... That's lead us here where we stand on each other's ground ... & building wall around each others ...

A few weeks before this drama exploded, I was standing up for her when my bf came b!+c#y on her ... Said ...

Bf: she didn't even thought you're her friend ...

Gf: she's my bestfriend la, you just have to swallow it ...

Bf: die buruk2 kan u depan org lain ...

Gf: who, her friends ?? what does her friends got to do in my life ??

It's not like she's coming all the way up to your mother, to spread bad things about me ... Or tag pictures of my bad behavior, there's nothing she did that harm me physically ...

Gf: if she got no place to go, & spending her life on the street ... we will pick her up & gave her a place to stay ... because she's best friend ... daddie will make sure she have food to eat ...

Mum: yahhh, totally agreed (tibe2 ade mum, hahah) ...

Bf: (went crazy)

That's the conversation we had on the way somewhere (dah lupe la), & my mum & Little Ray was there ... Trying to plant the idea of best friend into bf's mind ... Hahah, Inception la sket ...

So, how do we get here ??

1. ramai sgt parties involve ...

It's been 9years L, & all I've been hearing all these while are stories from others ... K said this, A said that ... Z told me this, S told me that ... Seriyesly, there's nothing I got first handed from you ??

What do you think when I heard something from K, I would believe it right away ?? All I wanted to do when I hear stories about you is to hear it from your side ...

2. we pretend we're fine ...

I dunno either it was meant to protect my feelings, or you just wanna keep it from me ?? But I heard of so many version of you being uncomfortable with my presence, somehow we pretend like we're fine all the time ...

But I know we're not, you know how emotional you can get after 2am rite ?? & there's a lot of discomfort moment that we left unsaid ...

3. there's no actual hangouts ...

Sometimes I wonder what friendship are suppose to be ... I am jealous, seeing other girls having girls day out shopping ... We never have that, because we're so busy doing what ??

Do you really want me to remember those crashing at your place as our moments ?? The warmest event been with you around was in Marche', that's when your eager to leave for Borneo ... & when we're hanging out wif Iana, but that's not really our moment ...

Remember when I took you to my bf's place in Melaka ?? I consider that our moments, except the part when we have to follow that s-babe around for her another pair of stripper heels ... Until you ruin it that night, do you even remember what you did ??

4. can you name a best friend's relationship that you did't get 'involved' wif ?? the bf particularly ...

I don't have anything to elaborate on that ...

Lets not drag this into a list of my unsatisfied needs against you, I know I made it clear that I wanna clean escape from your circle ... But you're my best friend, even if you don't think we are ... Do you really think you wanna flush 'us' down the drain ??

This is the closest point of our life involved with each other, if you notice ... I've already told K when we start dating ... I never get involved too much in your life, somehow you know how hard it is to educate them ...

When K's about to move in to your place, I was scared ... I dunno how much you can take it, with me around the clock ... We have different taste in fashion, totally opposite diet ... It will kill to spent most of the time around each other ...

But we're going to bump into each other every now & then ... Can you imagine avoiding each other on Wani's wedding ?? Impossible right ?? & please don't create any drama on her big day, it's her day ... Let's give her the greatest celebration possible ...

There's always a door open for you, no matter what my bf said ... There's only one rule merging in future - I won't lie for you ... Because it's against my principle ... You know I'm a good keeper, you know I am ...

So in the case of Z&S that night, I have to cover my own S as well as it involved me directly ... Bare in mind that I was having some kind of relationship with Z later that few weeks ... I'm sorry about that mess, but I can't take back what I said ... Again, it's against my principle ... But I do learn from my mistake, you're aware of that ... Didn't you ??

I've set the rule, it's your call then ... Have a good day L ...

we're all look fabulous complementing each other don't you think ??

It's a Long Night

I was peeling off some garlics when I receive a call from a very best friend, preparing for my signature dish - rendang ayam ... I was really excited to review about that actually, then came all the drama that dragged along till now ...

heheh, gambar sekadar hiasan - ni rondang 3tahun lopeh

Our 'so called bestie' - was having this hard time ... Yahhh, it's ME ... I'm the one who causing her all the pain, for what ?? Saje kot, puas hati rase menang ?? But this is not how I expected it to end ... I was about to make a clean escape out of the circle ... But somehow, somebody pulled the trigger ...

You wanna say 'Reysha busuk hati' ... Go ahead, I don't care (that much) on what people think of me ... But go to my friends and whining about the problem that you can discuss with me for a better solution ?? It pissed me off !!!

Did you get what I mean ?? You're my best friend, that person that you called pun my best friend jugak ... You guys have equal attention, equal rights on my advice & problem solving skill (poyo la pulak) ... What is it that make it so hard to address things that you're not satisfied with, directly to me ... Instead of wasting your money/time making phone calls hundreds kilometers away ??

And you deserve forgiveness ... More than other people did ... So no matter how bad you screwed up, WE will still be here for you ...

Lets talk about the problem now, I've been keeping the secret ... For the sake of both of you ... But you shud known better what you've been doing to me recently ... It pissed me off dude, and for God sake A ... Stop talking behind my back about my friends, if you're not willing to pay then just make you stinky face ... We sure understand that ...

FYI, you play nice that night ... We tot you're really a nice guy, just didn't expect this kind of s#!+ from you ...

Having a stack of money didn't gave you the right to underestimate others ... Yes, we do whining/complaint about others every now & then ... But you're a guy dude, keep it to yourself ... Instead of being b!+c#y & spreading out the gossip ...

I think I'm doing the best I cud, keeping my S away from your relationship ... Somehow I still got the blame, I'm the one who tell his friend about her little secret ... I'm the one who creating all the drama here & there ... I'm the crazy b!+c# on facebook, I'm going to tell the world every single details ...

Lemme tell you this:

1. I have a JOB

2. By job means, my time is limited to call others & gossiping

3. My job actually restricted me from posting bulls#!+ anywhere online publicly

Got what I mean ?? It's down to work ethic dear, remember to focus when your lecturer's teaching ...

I don't wanna go further down to work ethic, because by then I'll be reaching to the bottom of this problem ... Which it should been solved by the both of you, because no one understand your relationship better than you guys do ...

So little B, watch your mouth yea 'adik' ... Before you go 'maybe she feels something thats why dia bagitau ko' ... There's a fine line between what I did, & what you did ... Because I was CLEARLY SINGLE ... So, let's not argue more ... Because it's not a game to win ...

So lets conclude this, so we all can get benefit out of it ... Don't try to ruin somebody else's relationship, because karma is a b!+c# ... How do you think I knew all the things u said behind my back ?? Because it's a circle of trust I build around me, & in the phone call issue ... It's a 9years wall, you think something can get in and out just like that ?? Think again ...

I'm not trying to scare anybody, I'm not saying I'm against the law & have right to voiced out whatever i wish in my blog ... & hurt others ... As I said, I want a clean escape ... Away from ALL of you guys ... Because it's been too much for me lately ... So, good luck guys ...

Dear, I really wish you will feel better tomorrow ... ~lotsoflove~

Wedding Spirit

It's a month full of emotion for me, can't wait stepping into the next page of 2011 calender ... Can you imagine ?? Approaching the last month of the 1st quarter already ... Nothing has been wonderful so far, especially in my social life with friends & love ones ...

Yes, the money keep pumping in ... I had more than enough nowadays, which mean more responsibilities/commitment ... Just don't be hypocrite ... When you invested an amount of money, you're actually expecting some amount of courtesy & good return from thing you invested ... So, yes (again) ... Accepting the money is fun, but do remember you're opening yourself to a new pile of commitment ...

Well, let's not talk about my uncertain life ... Hell yeah, it's boring ... :D ... Let's welcome March !!! It's gonna be a month of wedding spirit for me ... Will be helping a friend for her wedding stuff shopping (yay!!!), & 3months left to brainstorm then present to another friend in Melaka on *secret* wedding theme ... Ohhh yah, & my cousin's engagement on 13th !!! Hah !!! (surprise face) Another wedding in Melaka on the 19th !!!

Hahah, excited lebey ... Mcm I plak nak kawen ...

I don't care !!! Hahah ... Yes, it's uncertain for me ... Somehow I'm excited to help !!! At the moment, I already listed the must have items for decoration, wedding dress details, hairstyle etc. ... Somehow I got stuck on the hand bouquet, & haven't give a thought on the menu ... I think I don't have to interfere in the menu issue, since it'll be completely provided by the caterer ??

Hahah, I yang stress !!! Seriyesly !!! It's like, I dunno if she got time to assemble all the things I have in mind for her because of the time constraint ... Her wedding will be held later by end of this year, & after my trip to Sabah in May ... I'll only have a few months to make her dream wedding a success !!!

Now, it's gonna be March tomorrow ... I'll be preparing to attend Wani's wedding in May, & in between I'll be busy with work & the *secret* wedding plan ...

After Wani's wedding, it's already June !!! Then I'll be busy for Hari Raya pulak !!! Heheh, bile nak kawen mcm ni ?? Mokcik, you're not the subject !!! Heheh, my point is ... June baru nak pegi tempah baju, August baru nak fitting ... Paling awal la kan ?? Kalau 3bln, September baru siap ?? No, no ... I yg freak out !!!

Anyway, dapat pegi shopping/tempah baju kawen dgn org nak kawen pun jadik la kan ?? Don't worry my dears, we'll give our best shot !!!

So, to ruin the surprise ... Heheh, sorry brides ... Saye excited !!! I'm the MAID OF HONOR !!! Hahah, drama ... For one of the weddings jek pun ... Hahah, lebey kan minah ni ?? On who's wedding, I xbole nak bagitau la ... To respect the bride's privacy ... Later on, I'll post the bride2b pictures if I have their permission ...

nak bride's maid dress mcm ni bole ?? xyah kain meleret2 la ... heheh, over kan ??

Biase nye, this kind of post ... Bride2b yg buat, to announce her MOH ... Over kan ?? Hahah ... Xpe, bukan ramai pun my viewers ...

Pade siape2 yg nak kawen, & want me as ur MOH ... (ade org nak ke, minah ni kecoh kot) Hahah, shut up !!! To kazens (especially) & friends, jgn buat acare bride's maid bidan terjun lagi yeaaa ... B'untung la saye x kawen2, because I can be ur slave on your big day ... Hahah ... Excitedly ?? Poyo !!!

I think I better go, sblm mood gedix kembali ... Pastu bf pegi beli Astro First sampai 2crite skali kan, sungguh hampeh ... Letih nak kejar time limit ... I better go now, beli popcorn & die on my cheap sofa ... Hahah ...

Tibe2 t'ingat rumah yg b'sepah ... ~sigh~ Luv U guys ...

Dear Bestie

Again, ini entry poyo ... Kalau raser2 nyampah, sile click 'x' on your window tap ... [*seriyes*]

Browsing thru fb this morning, tibe2 rase happy (bangge sebenarnye) ... I wish I did that yesterday, would have make my life better since then ...

S: Where are you (tanye kabar), bile nak lepak ??

SCB: Ade jek, biase you lepak mane ?? (& so on ...)

S: Mane Reysha ?? (Muahahahahhahahahh, gelak skarang !!!)

SCB: Resyahhh ?? Tak tau la die tu ... (Hahhahahahahahhah, gelak lagi !!!)

*SCB = so called bestie

Motif post ni ?? Hahah, saje nak poyo ... & menyokong my statement in my previous post ... So, xpayah nak budget kau total hotness kan ... Ade jek org lain lagi hot ... Because you see every single thing is a competition, that's why you're going crazy ... Padahal bende tu simple jek ...

Maybe she's good in one aspect ... & maybe you're better in so many other ways ?? It's actually your confident issue la, don't you believe that you're good enough ?? So xpayah la nak sabotaj others kan ??

My advice dear ?? Treat other people nicely la, if you expect people to do the same thing to you ... Same goes to earn respect dear, respect others ... You'll get their respect in so many ways for your manners ... & respect yourself too, that will definitely made you a better person ...

Something Just Best Left Untold

I'm really tired, somehow wanna do this post jugak ... So I can sleep well ... It's been an emotional day today, it's tiring ... Padahal sempat pegi MidValley lepas office hour tadi kan, hahahahahhahah ...

The day started frustratingly, wif a statement from K - "Eh, dorang tak nak kawan dgn you lagi la" ... Seriyesly ?? You're my bf, you shud know better how to protect me ... Instead of saying things intentionally to condemn others ??

Seriously dude, you need an attitude fixing ... Lemme teach you a lesson ... Rite here, rite now ...

There are things, that you know ... Somehow, you keep it to yourself ... To protect others, protection should cover greater aspects ... Including FEELINGS ... Bawak parang, & geng satu bas - yes ... That's a way of protection, but there's a lot of other civilized way of protecting your loves one ...

Like you know D's husband is seeing somebody else, tapi you xde la nak made an appointment wif D ... Just to tell her that her husband cheating, rite ?? Tu orang Melayu panggil, KAK NAM yea encik puan sekalian ...

So, I tau la L hates me ... Everybody can see it kot, she never treat me fairly ?? But who cares ?? I mean, she got nothing to do with my life, it's not like I'm going to die of depression without her ?? So why do you care so much about her ?? Is it me, who really scared of ruining the relationship I called 'friendship' somehow mean COMPETITION for her ?? Or you're the one who really afraid of loosing her ??

I kept A's biggest secret, don't even have the intention to tell L ... Because she's my best friend, well I tot she is ... Somehow I've been saving it for almost half a year now, because I knew it will kill her to know that ... Can you see the different of telling the truth, & protecting people around you ??

I wanna lecture more about friendship here, but it seems a waste of time since it really mean nothing to you guys ... Since it's all about who got the best ride, who's making more money ... Who's getting married first, that all you guys care about in you KAL world ...

Well, I'm not going back into your dirty game again ... Because I'm different, & I don't have any intention of being one of you guys ... Because in my world, friendship mean 3s - soul, sharing & supporting ...

Like when W is getting married married, we share happiness ... Not go behind her back & kept mentioning things she did in the past ... Take Kim Kardashian's for her nobel action for a an example - sharing her plan for her wedding with her dear sister, Khloe ... Bukan do anything to ruin her holy plan ...

There's a lot of thing to take back & think about at the moment, & the best thing for me to do right now ... Is to spend my time & thought for my bestfriend, who really needs my help right now ... Instead of wasting it on people who dunno how to appreciate it ... At least my friendship with her is real ...

You really think I'm nothing without you huh ?? We'll see dear, I got nothing to fight against you ... & my life is just too precious to be wasted competing against you ...

Ohhh, good luck chasing my wonderful plans guys ...

Saham Tinggi Sgt ??

I lost a friend last year, somebody really close to me ... Who suddenly became distant caused by an incident ... Which I can say partially reflect reaction, but somehow under a steady mind, you should be able to control it ... Especially for a guy ...

I've been doing some mean things to him as well, I skipped his farewell party on purpose when he's leaving ... We'd stop talking to each other for quite a while, when a few months earlier we shared almost everything together ...

He's a close friend la, a good one ... Somehow, for a God knows why reason we just stopped talking ... It's not about that back couples months incident already, it's a new year ... We've carry on with our own life, at some point I've tried to be nice to him ...

I texted him (but he didn't received as he already deleted me from his bbm contact), I even say hi on fb (chat) ... Somehow he always came out wif 'bz' reasons ...

This is how we felt apart in the 1st place, he shown lack of interest ... So I back down, refuse to make fool of myself ... So here we go again, same attitude over the friendship I offered ...

Well, you know what ?? I'm done being nice to you ... Nak kate saham tinggi sgt, xkawen2 jugak kan ... So, go th wif all your ego monster inside ... I'm just trying to be nice, & have u as a friend ... Didn't expect to be close mcm dulu pun, but somehow I'm done trying ...

Xkuase nak layan noxxx ...