Another Negative Post

I've tried to find an interesting topic to share, like I've tried a few times nak post that entry on how much I adore AQ ... But rase hipokrit kat diri sendiri if I put that up, sebab it's shaky between us since he left last weekend ... Back to work ...

So, a few people addressed their concerns to me since yesterday ... After what I posted on facebook ... Yes, I admit ... Aku memang emo ... I'm lying if I tell you guys I'm just fine ... I went thru a break up 3weeks ago, & now there's another heart breaking moment that I have to deal with ...

I cried my heart out, hahah ... But only when I'm alone in the car, it's my ego ... Hahah ... I don't cry in public ... & I'm good in hiding my feelings ... But actually, when I think back ... Aku pun tak paham kenape nak nangis, ;p ... I guess it's the emotions clouded since the last heart break, that I left ignored ...

'Her/She' dlm context tersebut bukan la org ketiga like my previous relationship ... It's something I can't tell, only those I trusted jek I bagitau ... But I'm going to explain things in the most proper way I can do, in the same time trying my best utk tidak menyinggung mane2 pihak ...

So, over my conversation dgn P (nama sebenar dirahsiakan) ... I should forgive him, sebab 'her' didn't count ... Because it didn't involve feelings ... Then akan timbul argument, why kene forgive AQ ... But not KA ... As I said in my previous post, KA is a mistake ... & the situation is totally different ...

Then I had this conversation with my mum earlier this morning, she just got back from India on Wednesday ... & guess what ?? Instead of sharing her experiences visiting daddie, she asked - "How's ur abe doing" ?? Giler pissed of aku di situ, that's the 1st question she asked me ... Bukan "Did you went for holiday in these 2weeks" ke, die tanye bf aku sehat ke tak ?? Demn ...

My point is, my mum kind  of telling me ... It's a men's nature ... & I should forgive him ... Tu dah rephrase la, mamak told me in different sentence ... Indirectly ... It's just me actually, I dunno how to forgive him ... I know, I shouldn't compare them ... I can't compare what KA did, dgn AQ ... But why do I have to care about him feeling hurt being compared, while he don't try to understand my feelings when he repeat the same mistake KA did ??

So ... Right now, lets take things slow ... I can't really tell, what I wanna do ... Because honestly I dunno how to handle this ... Yes, I can forgive him ... But tell me how ?? Let's pray, with God's will ... My heart will be lebih tenang, & I can think about this in the whole picture ...

Give it some time, then I'll made up my mind ... Don't worry about me ... Yeah, things are rough for me ... But I have to deal with it, instead of running away ... Enough said, I'll update with you guys when I got the situation resolve ... Pray for me ~

Reysha Itu Sexy

Actually, I'm tired of negative post ... Sebab been reading my blog generally a few days back, giler last 3post sgt depressive ... Tapi hati ni membare selepas ape yg baru lepas saye discover sebentar tadi ... So never mind la, negative ke ... Positive, this is something I wanted to share ... Citer ni dah basi sebenar nyer, dr last year - end of December ... That's when we had combined event dgn this one government bodies ... Jgn tanye siape ...

Aku takde la kejam mane, nak sampai nak reveal nama ... Masa & tempat kejadian ... Cukup sekadar gambaran individu tersebut, rumusan dari kejadian ... Serta pendapat & pandangan peribadi saye tentang ape yg saye faham dari tindak tanduk dan perlakuan tersebut ... Chewah, aku memang ade bakat jadik lawyer ... Hehe ...

Satu ketika dahulu, aku dihentam oleh salah seorang peserta combined event tersebut ... Quoted: Sakit telinge dgr org mengate aku berpakaian seksi ... Ekoran dr statement tersebut, kitorang gaduh2 over the phone ... Towards me blaming makcik2 government yg tak open minded ... Seriyesly ?? Aku pakai baju kurung pun dorang akan ckp aku pakai seksi2 ...

That's what I mean, knee length skirt + long sleeves shirt ... ++ Cardigan lagi ... Itu sexy ?? Seriously ??

Dalam masa yg same, berite minah pakai sexy2 mase event tersebut tersebar secare menyeluruh kat pusat operasi dorang ... Government kan ?? Paham2 jek la ... Aku tak dpt pasti kan sebenar nyer, sape kah penyebar cerita ... Until, aku pegi stalk sorang mamat ni ... Aku google name die, maka t'jumpe la saye akan carta organisasi office beliau ... Dgn name boss die skali ...

Kantoi di situ, skarang aku tau la sape pakcik yg gigih menyebarkan cerita keseksian itu ...

Bukan pasal he spread the gossip 200km away ... Tapi sebab I honestly admire him ... For the 1st time I was brought pegi meeting when I joint the project, was a meeting pasal CPM ... My heart was pouring for him, sebab pakcik tu mcm hebat giler ... Relaxed, cool ... Somehow came up wif killing question every now & then ... Yeah pakcik, that's how much I adore you ...

Adore & pouring my heart out, is strictly work related - charismatic & ability on delivering the task ... Kalau kau kecoh duduk site 2tahun, tapi aku tanye size culvert pun xbole nak jawap ?? Hahah, sendiri mau ingat la ... Tapi xde la sampai giler kat laki org, those who knows me ... Are well aware that I don't do married man, so does bf org ... KA is a mistake, aku tatau die ade gf ... If only I knew ?? I memang xkacau, sebab aku tak suke org kacau bf aku ...

I'm naturally attracted to a man that good at work, they got this level of confident that differ from those yg tau ckp jek ... But xbole deliver ... Tapi aku pun, entry level je kan ?? So tak yah la nak complaint sgt ... Yes, I'm attracted ... My the attraction is more to admiring & respect, bukan kejar nak buat calon suami ... Hokay ??

Mcm married guys, they have this particular extra attraction (to me la) compared to those single guys ... They're neat, & more relaxed from what I've seen ... Of course, sebab ade yg menjage ... So they're neat ... & maybe because the responsibilities to the family, made them look matured compared to the single guys ... Again, I don't do married guys ... All I have for them is respect ...

Bukan senang for me to grant my respect to an individual, unless die memang betul2 bagus ... Sebab honestly, aku memang judgemental ... :D ... So having someone that I really respect to things that I personally think unnecessary & so not his level to do so, just made me even more judgemental ... Like seriously, if earlier I will say - "Owh, pakcik tu ... Sgt hot, sebab die power giler buat CPM" ... Now there'll be an addition to that story - "Owh, pakcik tu memang hebat pun ... Tapi tu la, gatal" ... Geddit ??

Enough said, individual's behaviour is not something you can change ... No matter what you said ... All I can do, is be aware ... Mcm aku dah tau pakcik tu gatal, so be extra caution being around him ... Jage pemakaian, & watch out my words ... Make sure nothing come out from me yg bole make him use as an excuse ...

Like I always feel it's ok to join the guys' dirty talk every once in a while ... But it might make them simply judge aku ni easy ... So, be extra careful with words when dealing with these kind of guys ... I'm going to stop now ... People's attitude won't change for the world, so it's up to you to make the change that make world a better place ... Till then ~

How To Know, He's Not THE ONE

Good morning, what a refreshing week for those working in Selangor ... Hehe, I managed go to Kerteh on Monday ... Visit my 2nd family there, saje kacau2 dorang ... Show off aku tak keje, haha ... But it was a fun day for me ... Nanti I'll make another entry about that, because it was the best day I had yet ... So far this year ...

Title related, over ntah bape belas failed relationship ni ... I pick up a few confirm signs, about perangai2 lelaki ... That u should be aware of, & I can be 80% confirmed that it's demn true ... Sebab I've been thru 2similar cases last year, cume watak2 adalah b'beza ... Name dirahsiakan, & sorry KA & FA kalau terasa ... Since it's still hot & new, hehe ...

1. When He Hit You


Don't worry, neither KA or FA ever hit me ... But I've been emphasizing this since day 1 aku start blogging, or even earlier than that ... Kaki pukul bukan lah calon suami ideal, walaupun die tak sengaje ... Let's say, t'siku sebab tindakan reflect ... Sengaje atau tidak, pukul perempuan itu tidak cool ... Period ... I've been thru an event, aku kene baling almari oleh seorang b'name lelaki ... What I learnt from that - I know I can definitely take a hit, meaning kalau laki aku abuse aku ... I'm sure aku bole tahan kene tampar or kene humban dgn handphone ... But I choose not to, settle down for a life like that ...

2. When He Ask You for Money


Real gentlemen, don't take money from the ladies ... Mcm mane susah pun, someone u put faith on to be ur children's father shouldn't ask you for money ... Biler u ade rezeki lebih, nak blanjer gi makan mahal2 ... That's a different thing ... Even tok kadi yg nikah kan my kazen said, "Duit bini, xbole mintak ... Tapi kalau die bagi, ambek" ... So when he started to say, "U dah gaji kan ?? Bagi I 2ratus, I tade duit ni" ... That means he have no intention of marrying u, but he's keeping u around for his rainy days ...

3. When He Ask for Your Nude Photo


Biler a guy, ikhlas nak b'kawan with a good intention ... He'll never ask for nude photos, 3g phone sex whatsoever ... Get urself to think girls, booty calls ... & segala yg lucah2 itu, itu ade lah tanggungjawap scandals ... If u're expecting to be treat like a gf, then don't low urself & entertain him ... Takut die carik gf lain ?? Let it be, most probably memang dah ade pun ... So when ur bf start to ask for those, leave because he's not serious ... A guy shud respect you enough, if he picture u as the mother of his children ...

4. When He Let You Drive


Sorry FA, but dulu I ikhlas drive sebab I je yg ade valid license ... Haha ... Face the fact, when slept all the way ... & let u drive 3hundreds km away, u're definitely not on the top of his priority list ... My AQ ?? I just drive 200km pegi balik pun, he took the wheel ... Even I'm a better driver than he is, hehe ... So lucky me, it's a crystal clear comparison ... How much AQ cares, & why I should not put KA anywhere in my priority list ...

5. When He Let You Do What You Want


Ko ckp, "Abe, I nak gi clubbing ... Befday N" ... & he said, "ok" ... Tu makne nyer, die dah xkesah ape nak jadik kat ko ... Auuccchhh, kannn ?? But that's the truth, when he cares ... Kau ckp la, "I nak pegi Penang, Z nak blanjer ... Fully sponsored" ... Die akan ckp, "jgn pegi" ... Biler ko ckp nak pegi clubbing, janji la mcm mane pun ... 'I tak joget, I tak smoke' ... The answer should always be 'NO', no matter what ... Kalau die bagi je, xkesah ... Start looking for a new one yahhh, hehe ...

6. When He Started To Lie


When he lie to you, even if it doesn't involve someone else ... Mcm die tak keje, somehow die nak hide his activities (even die lepak2 dgn member jek pun) from u ... He just jump into conclusion, said 'lying is the best way' ... There must be something wrong there ... Being next to each other should make you feel comfortable, complete ... When he lie, that's mean he's not comfortable being around you ... My advice - leave ... Because he'll keep lying, again & again ...

7. When He Hides You from His Family & Friends


Nak kene explain ke ?? Maybe to meet the parents tu, agak tak relevant biler kau baru kenal 2bln kan ?? But when he denies you in front of his colleagues, especially from work ... Indirectly it means - 'kau tak cukup bagus utk die destroy his reputation at work standing next to u' ... Dlm fb pun buat tatau jek, jage saham kat awek2 dlm his friendlist ... How clearer shud I be ?? Most probably he keeps you around utk geli2 jek ...

8. When He Stops Investing


Ni includes time & money ... When he stop spending his time wif u, or text u sipi2 jek ... When u're bed rest sick, the most he will say - "I hope u get well soon" ... That's mean, u're not worth to waste his time/money on ... Sebab long term, die dah tak nampak u guys' future together ... So he won't put in any more effort, he'll take it easy ... In other hand, he's trying to let u off the hook little by little ... Less calls, less dates ... Dgn harapan, lame2 it's gone ... Bile2 die perlu, die carik ko balik ... U should know better how to handle that, aite ??

I hope it help ... This is a few things that I picked up along the way, tak semesti nye KA do every single thing listed ... Ade jugak a few yg FA buat dulu, then repeated by KA ... By then I'm sure KA pun not for me, somehow I still believe in 2nd chance ... But life is about learning, & it never stops ...

It's all go back to the bottom of ur heart, once I said - "Kalau dah nak tu, dah tau dah c polan ni kaki pompuan ... Tapi degil, nak jugak kan" ?? It depends on individuals' tolerance & patience, ade org bole sabar kalau bf die tak call or tak sms seminggu ... Mcm aku, xbole ... 2minggu hari sudah cukup utk membuat kan aku meroyan hati ini tabah & move on, hahah ... Yup, dgn kate lain - in average, lepas 2weeks aku akan ade bf lain ...

I better stop, sebab confident level aku melimpah ruah skarang ... Keje puji diri sendiri jek, aku pun rimas ... Hahahahahhaahah ... Xde niat nak kutuk sesape dlm post ini, a few things listed pun kalau aku bace balik ... Kene kat batang hidung sendiri, heh ... It's just a few of my experience that I feel worth to share, what's hidden under the sweet lines lelaki2 buaye ...

Nite ~

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Managing the Break Up: Part I

I've been thru an average of 3break ups a year, hahah ... Mesti korang nak ckp, "sampai biler" ... Or secare kasar nyer, "How can you be so stupid, & sampai biler nak learnt" ?? Come on, I can deal wif that ... That's reality check ... So let's not mess this up wif my counting, lemme share what happened on a few days after I broke up ...

Delete All Excess

This is standard procedure, delete fb ... Delete bbm, delete twittter ... In my case, abe ade gf lain ... So, kenape perlu kan delete ?? Instead of berpura-pura cool buat mcm tade pape ?? Sebab aku tanak tgk any hapdet from him & his gf ... & sebab aku gedik, suke hapdet location thru bbm status ... So aku delete him from bbm jugak ... Motif ?? It's one way or another, aku pun tanak die tau mane aku pegi ...

Example: Biler aku buat cupcakes utk lobi potential bf, mesti la aku nak upload my cupcakes kat fb ... Because of the cupcakes kan ?? Bukan sebab the potential bf, cehhh ... Hahah ... Anyway, I don't want him to see that ...

Get Over Your Biggest Fear

We used to say, "I will suffer without you" ... So, get over that ... I put on the shirt we bought together kat Rantau Panjang, & the skirt he bought for me ... The whole day, right after break up ... Ade tak ko nak t'kenang2 ?? Or sikit2 nak cium, ade bau kedai lagi tak kan ?? For me, it went just fine ... Thanks to AQ sebab kept me company, until ... Die gatai tgn pegi msg aku balik kan ... Ok, tu nanti elaborate more on next point ...

Example: Tada, hak hak ... (gambar xbleh haplot plak)

Get Sentimental

How sentimental can you be ?? Aku memang giler sentimental nyer, the 1st hundred notes yang abe bagi aku simpan ... Tapi sebab 1st movie ombak rindu, so aku tak simpan tiket wayang ... In case it's a fail relationship kan, nanti emo2 mcm dlm movie ... Too bad for me, aku tade cincin mahal yg tak sanggup nak baling cam Lisa Surihani dlm citer tu ... Hahah ...

Example: Aku pakai duit yg sentimental sgt tu, shopping ... The best part is, shopping beli baju baru nak gi dating dgn potential bf ?? Revenge is the sweetest thing ?? Takdo makne nye, biler mlm nanti ko hingat kat die balik ... But to me there's 2things here, 1st - get rid of the sentimental items ... 2nd - tenang hati aku dapat shopping ... Owh yahhh, almost forgot ... The other half of the hundred, aku pakai utk beli ingredient cupcakes for potential bf ... S#!t ...

Spend Time B'sama Orang yg T'sayang

This is important, you need someone by urside ... Mcmm aku, mek (gf my brother) slalu ikut dating sampai KT ... So, die sangat memahami segala liku2 dlm my relationship ... Biler sebut pasal abe finally kantoi pegi dating kat Kuantan ... Mek trus ngamuk sakan, hahah ... Ilek mek, ilek ...

Bukan xmo share dgn my mum, or adik cherry ... But I don't wanna break my mum's heart, since die suke sgt kat abe ... Biler aku ckp aku nak gi jumpe abe baru, bole nampak la reaksi kurang selesa ibu saya di situ ... Tapi masih mengekalkan concept yg same, no sad stories ... Xdo eh den nak cito kek omak den perangai ex boipren den tu, kire what passed is passed jek la ... We, all of us (including my family) move on je ... Hokay ??

Example: Gi alamanda, shopping bersama mek + adik lelaki + adik lelaki ... & buat cupcakes bersame mek ...

Don't Get In Touch wif Him or Anyone Related

Trust me, memang korang raser it's the greatest revenge biler ko ngorat bff ex boipren ko ... But it's going to hurt more in future ... Why do I said so ?? Sebab been there, done that ...

Memang la aku lepak dgn member2 (lelaki of course) utk menghilangkan stress ... Tapi lelaki ni, biler jumpe member ... He forgets everything else ... Like he forget kau ade kat seblah,, die men blasah jek citer ngan kengkawan die what happened in Vegas ... Memang la niat ko nak lepak2, hav fun & bukan nye nak korek rahsia ... Somehow kau akan tau, ape yg kau tak tau ... Sebab cerita2 yg t'kongsi bersame itu ...

Example: Biler aku lepak dgn FA, dr elok2 aku tatau what happened for the past 6months ... Tibe2 aku t'hapdet, because adrenalin penceritaan yg rancak ... Hehe, jan risau FA ... I still love u, but not like that ... Heh ...

Enough with that, next post ... I'm going to share wif you guys, how to know when he's not the one ... & if there's anything more to share on this, I'll update it in part 2 ... I'm still fine, emosi masih terkawal ... You guys enjoy the rest of this holiday, I'll get better in time ...

Last but not least, thanks for all the best wishes ...

Things About Me: Part IV - Another Break Up

Hoyehhh, aku tukar bf lagi ... Laju giler hapdet, hak hak ... But this is a general update la, so that people who care ... & generously pouring advises on me, well informed of my current status ... I really appreciate korang nyer advice, cume kadang2 emo sendiri kerana stress ... Please forgive me, kalau tibe2 t'marah ... Or tibe2 I went silent, xreply ur text/bbm/wassapp ...

So I officially left KA, for my own good ... Bukan sebab aku dah ade AG AQ (cait, camne bole sala ni), or aku pegi jumpe FA & he called me darling ... Heh, bukan2 ... Sebab kepentingan diri sendiri terlalu bnyk terabai sebulan ni, it's time for me to treat myself better ... Details ?? Xdo ehhh den nak publish sumer kek cni ...

Nak gossip, siler call or bbm ... Heh ...

Forget he's a good husband, forget my mum really likes him ... When it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be ... & aku xde la desperate sgt, like some other people tu ckp - aku desperate sgt nak kawen sebab tade org nak kat aku ... I'm willing to take the risk, leave everything I have & start fresh ... When I'm not happy, I'll leave ... Bukan stay, makan hati every now & then ... Utk happy ending yg aku sendiri tak pasti ...

Part of it, I'm dealing wif my biggest fear ... So I know, that bukan sebab barang aku worth 5k kat rumah die ... Or bukan my superstitious believe over the sequences of signs that I got from my own judgement yg make me stay all these while ...

For the other side of support team, yg percaye I shud perjuang kan my love ... I'm sorry, bukan xmakan saman dgn ur advice ... But I've done begging, tolerating ... Sumer dah ... I cudn't find my ego at some point ... I've tried for a month now,  now it's time already ...

Xde citer sedih nak share2 d cni, nanti I'll update camne I deal wif the break up ... Buat mase ni I'm fine, ikut lagu fav adik Cherry pun ... Dah puas menangis semalam, heh ... Rite now, dunno how to smile & tell my mum - "Mak, I nak tukar abe baru ... Bole" ?? Demn ...

Till then, please don't worry 'bout me I'm fine (pastu korang sambung nyanyi lagu Neyo ramai2, heh) ...

Hijrah

Walaupun sebok nak balik, nak kene settle this post jugak ... Because it's a good thing, nothing to be ashamed of ... & better to do it right away before I left it on the back of my mind ...

So, t'lihat kan gambar a friend of mine kat fb yg cantek molek ini ...

It just hit me, one day I'm gonna be there ... Answering the call ... Bukan kerana abe semate-mate, but for myself & my parents ... Cume skarang, saye belum cukup sempurna utk itu ...

All I can do for now, kurang kan perkara2 yg tak baik ... & tambah ape yg patut ... Sampai saye rase, pemakaian selaras dgn amalan hidup seharian ... Honestly ?? Bnyk lagi yg kurang ... But insyaAllah, I'll be there someday ...

Lots of luv ~

Eczema, Appetite, Gastric & Stress Related: Week 3 Updates

It's been 3weeks since my Eczema treatment started, by end of 2nd week ... I got chronic gastric attact, & crazy appetite ... I can eat the whole A&W waffle with 2scoops ice cream sorang2, when I just had my lunch (+ appetizer) 2hrs earlier ... Kagum tak ?? Hahahahahahhaah, aku kaget !!! Hak hak ...

So approaching the 3rd week ni, napsu makan dah slow sikit ... Masuk keje after cuti raye cine ni, my appetite dah hilang the 1st day at work ... Makan nasik lemak, dah rase tak sedap ... Then I ate the yummeh fish ball noodle pun, rase mcm tanak abes kan ... But I can manage to push the rest down my throat, walaupun dah rase full ...

Perasaan makan secare mengade2 mcm sblm ini kembali, aku makan 3suap pastu aku komplen tak sedap ... Pastu tak habes ... Cume this time around, I can push myself to finish my meal ... Like my lunch today, makan half way ... Pastu dah mcm tanak, but I'll motivate myself to finish it ... Hahahahahhahah, giler psycho diri sendiri ...

But no more dessert mcm dulu, pagi pun makan roti jek sekeping (dulu 4, hahahahhaahahah) dgn 3in1 tea ... Then an oat granola bar around 10am, pastu dah rase kenyang ...

It's either the meds dah habes, sebab all my meds (for itchy dgn antibiotic) dah habes last week ... Now tinggal body wash dgn krim sapu jek ... Or stress bf aku gi endon, joli katak ?? Or maybe sebab dah period, & the appetite is just hormone ... Haha, I dunno ... I guess we have to wait & see for next week's progress ...

My body dah kembang, tapi blom semangkok la ... Masih dlm kondisi terkawal ... My weight is around 50kg ±2, heheh ... Pastu certain shirt design, haku kene ambek size M ... Tengkiu mamak sebab banjer sopping kat jb rituh, heheh ... I lebiu !!! My limit - I don't want to get to the level where I have to change most of the outfit in my wardrobe ... Fair enuf kan ??

Emotional wise - Ntah, aku heppi jek montok2 sebegini ... (Aku perasan) Body aku mantap jek, hahahahhahahahah ... Cume kadang2 stress sebab skirt ketat sgt, or sluar susah nak butang ... Hahahahahhaah ... Sampai makcik2 kat opis dah start bising, aku sexy ... 'Hakak (akak ke, mcm mak aku dah), saye pakai skirt same saye pakai 2minggu lepas ... Cume skarang saye dah gemok, so nampak sexy ... Hokay ??' Dulu mase aku kurus kering, tade shape ... Tade org kesah pun kannn ??

What else did I miss ?? Owh, the eczema mcm itchy balik during menstrual ni ... But in controlled condition la, tade scars mcm dulu ... Cume a bit itchy, depends on my meal that day ... Kadang2 tak prasan, dlm mee hoon ade ikan bilis/udang kering ... So, hadap jek la ... But I'm still restricting myself from consuming (cehhh, consuming) seafood, at least sampai all the scars fade away ...

Till then, I'll update wif you guys how things go next week ... Luv ~

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Minggu Ex Boipren

All these week, I have this instinct that I'll bump into this one particular ex ... Rase terancam jugak sebenar nyer, biler dah full time menetap around KL ni ... I love to do this to myself, imagining the worst case scenario that cud possibly happened ...

Like when I have a heaven sent bf, which I'm well aware he's not capable of cheating ... But I always have this imagination of coming back home, caught him red handed with someone else ... Hahah, giler drama queen aku ni ... But tu dulu, when things doesn't mean anything when I'm in a relationship ...

Funny, that I thought of bump into him & said - "It's good to see you" [long pause] ... "are still a loser" ... Kekekkekekekkeke ... Then coming back home to see his x-gfs both berebut2 display gambar another bf on profile picture ... Heh, waddehell ...

Tapi tu bukan masalah utame sebenar nyer, what happened to them is none of my business ... Not anymore, cume sometimes it's fun ... Tgk gelagat manusia ni, do anything to win over each other ... While there's no prize to offer pun ... To me, cukup la I'm happy ... I know it, abe knows it ... & our family's happy with it ...

Then came another ex boipren ... Yg memang aku mengetan2 nak maki ... Tapi malas nak ambek pot, sebab menyemak kot ?? Kau ade lah seorang ex boipren, kalau aku maki kau pun ... Ia dah tak membawe sebarang erti dlm hidup aku ...

Mcm mane lagi aku nak terang kan, supaye kau paham ?? Yang aku tanak ade ape2 hubung kait lagi dgn kau, kawan2 kau ... Anything, related to you ... Sebab ape ?? You know why ... Tak perlu nak share dgn semua org ... But my life is better without you ...

Kau tak payah call aku, sebab aku tak kan angkat ... & aku tade kene mengena dengan drama password kau ... Elok2 aku tatau pape, dah terbongkar gambar2 scandel kau ... Thinking about it, gambar aku dengan kau yg panas itu ... Do no harm to me pun, I look good I must say ... Hahhahahahahhaah ...

So, kau settle la hal ko sendiri eh ?? Kau kan hebat, "lu sape gua mo goyang kan" ?? Hahahhahahahhahah ...  Ok, lawak tu tak klakar ...

Let's look at it sebagai seorang yg matang, sebab aku rase masing2 dah 25 ++ ... I'm doing this, sebagai kerja amal sebenar nye ... Menyampaikan msg utk, org yg kau tak reti nak reach tu ... Kalau kau tanye aku, aku pegi report police jek ... Sumer bole trace, dr mane dorang upload gambar tu ... IP address sumer  bole trace ...

Tapi tak payah la jadik manusia yg menghancurkan hidup org lain, walaupun tindakan tu masih dlm istilah memelihara kehormatan diri ... Tapi cube kau tanye diri kau sendiri, kenape kau nak sentap biler org buat mcm tu ?? Sebab kau tak dpt terima pandangan org lain biler tgk kau mcm tu ??

I always said this when I'm around you guys - "You're responsible for your own action" ... Meaning, biler kau buat sesuatu tu ... Pikir la, baik & buruk ... Ni tak, nak yg sedap jek ... Biler org sentuh sikit keburukan yg sensitif tu, kau sentap ... Cube jangan jadik self denial, bukan nye kau kene fitnah ke hape ... Memang ade bukti dlm gambar, itu la yg kau buat ... Kenape nak mengamuk mcm kau tak buat ape2 salah ??

Aku pun bukan nye baik sgt, nak nasihat kan org lebih2 ... Tapi at least, jadik la org yg disenangi ... Supaye tade org nak dengki kau mcm ni, sampai kau rase mcm org nak jatuh kan aib kau ... Biar la ape yg didengar dr mulut tu, selaras dengan ape yg tangan & kaki kau buat ... & yg paling penting, bersih kan lah hati tu ...

Aku kalau nak dengki kau, mcm2 aku bole buat ... Quotation kau tu ?? Bole jek aku extract, bagi kat sape2 yg nak ... Tapi ade aku kesah tentang keje kau lepas kite break-up ?? Please, utk kesekian kali nye aku ckp ... Aku tanak ade pape hubung kait dgn korang ...

Biler kau b'niat, nak tgk aku tersungkur ... Sampai duduk dlm longkang, kau sepatut nyer sedar level mane hati kau tu ... Aku tak penah doa ape2 yg tak elok utk kau, mahupun kawan kau yg sorang tu ... All I know, rezeki aku ... Jodoh aku, Tuhan yg tentu kan ... Bukan kau ...

Good luck ~