Bintulu - Day 2

Dah almost a week rupe nya, I didn't update my blog ... Pastu nak ngamuk xtentu pasal, kenape traffic xbanyak ... Hahah, sengal ...

I almost forgot what I did in Bintulu on the 2nd day, heheh ... But there's nothing much ... Since it's Friday, & MS is working ... I spent the day sleeping in the room + watching movie on StarMovies ... Sampai the tv shut down, hahah ...

U have to top up your tv credit, they only provide 24hrs (with extra cost of course) when you checked in ... Hahah, so next time I know how to manage my air-cond & tv when staying in Tune Hotel ... Hahah, tido sile tutup tv !!! & I only utilized 24hrs of the air-cond credit, sebab saye xtahan sejuk ... :D

So that night, we went for dinner at Peace Garden ... A seafood restaurant ... The hot appetizer is delicious !!! & so does the vege & prawns ... But the fish sucks !!! Too much shrimp paste I guess ...

We went to the snooker with a friend of MS, it's not that much fun things to do there ... I think Kerteh is much more better, yahhh ... Because we have Mesra Mall here !!! Later then we went to the hottest (or shud I say the only ??) club in the compound of the Everly Resort ... Checking out the scene, interesting ?? Not really, it's like KK 5years back ... When all the KL inspired clubs does not exist ...

The girls there mostly knew each other, then there's a few 'banker' around who either look like a tourist or exec working there in Bintulu ... But the girls in the band ?? Awesome !!! They're sizzling hot !!! They're from Philippines, of course they're hot ...

Owh, I forgot !!! I had breakfast in San Fransisco Coffee that morning ... Hahah, I want the bagel !!! But they're out of stock ... So I have to be satisfied, heheh ... There'e no other choice !!!

Boring huh ?? Yes, I admit ... But this is it, this is my life with MS around ... He'll be away most of the time, & I have to manage everything on my own ... Laundry, groceries ... But I'm good with it, since I know what I'm about to deal wif ...

Instead on having promises of getting things done, but in the end I have to do it all by myself ... It's as simple as picking up my dress from the dry cleaner or buying my favorite flavored tea ... But having someone to do it for you is a huge relieve after a stressful day of finishing a report ...

A dear friend once told me, 'When guys show how much they care, you will be surprised by how much they thought about you' ... Even it's a piece of roti telur bawang, it mean something that you remembered your loved ones favorite & put some effort to get it ... Even it's only to walk 50meters away to the mamak stall ...

Hah ?? Merepek tibe2 ... Hahah, my point is ... It's good enough that he's there, even if he's busy with his work ... Kalau bf ko sebok layan ko, xbuat keje ... Ko komen bf ko xcommited to his job pulak kan mokcik ?? Hahah ...

It's about me, understanding his job ... Just like he understand my action - when I have to reject his call sebab nak jumpe pengarah ... :D ... It's good enough to see the look in his eyes on the rings, when I dragged him into the jeweleries store ... & he can say, 'I love you' before he hang up the phone ...

I'll update later on the 3rd day of my Bintulu trip, Yani ajak pegi site ... Gedix kan ??

Eat, Pray, LOVE - Day 1

The day started hectically, as I went to bed before I'm done packing ... Stormed into the heavy rain, 5am in the morning to get the ordered gardenia from 7eleven ... Then rushed to the airport, which I think I have to reach there around 5.30am since my flight is at 7.30 ...

I arrived in LCCT about 6.30am, convinced that I'm already late ... Dgn kelam kabut nya carik counter check-in for Bintulu, xde !!! I tot it's closed ... Somehow I managed to checked in at counter R18, sempat beli coffee lagi ... Boarding time = 6.50am ...

This is my advice, if you have an early morning flight from LCCT ... It's chaotic, be there early ... Because there are flight to almost everywhere in the morning (6.30am - 8.00am) ... Johor Bahru, Alor Star ... Kota Kinabalu, Kuching ... Miri, and Bintulu of course ...

I have to line up for at least 200m before security check, with gardenia & hand luggage ... Hahah, it's a mess !!! It's around 7am when they allowed us to board ... Guess what ?? The plane was at the end of all the walkways !!! Seriously ... It's F104, I think it's about 10mins walk ...

So ladies, just wear a comfy sandals/shoes when you're boarding on Air Asia ... Especially when you have a hand luggage ... I missed to snap a photo of the planes lining in front of the gates, before the sun came up ... Hahah, I always love hectic moment ... Like I love KL morning rush ...

I don't wanna share my terrible experience on the flight, it's nothing about the service ... It's just my unsatisfied expectation on the poorly mannered passengers ... Let me just put it this way - it's a discomfort 2hours flight with a malfunctioning massage seat ... Yes, thanks to pakcik kat blakang ...

There's nothing much to do, as MS is still working ... He have dinner at Selera Kampung, the Nasi Ayam Penyet was superb ... What do you think about my capability of eating chicken breast ?? Hahah, almost 0 rite ?? Somehow I manage to eat them, enough to make me full ... Heheh, xhabes sebab bnyk sgt ...

sambal, terbaek

We went back around 10pm, trus tido ... Hahahahaahahahah ... Later ...

Say Goodbye to Your Heart Tonight

Please don't say I didn't try ...

Can't say much at the moment, it's complicated ... Sorry for all the pain I caused/will caused ...

ADEZIO Cetirizine HCl 10mg

Mox xnak pegi jumpe vet ... Dah brape kali buat cubaan untuk bawak die jumpe pachik kat Kerteh tu, tapi utk kesekian kali nya ... Mox akan menghilangkan diri bile saye pasang niat nak bawak die pegi klinik ...

Since last week, mox selesema ... Sblm balik kl last week, xsempat nak take him to see the vet ... Sebab vet tu bukak office hour jek, heheh ... Yes, saye cheapskate ... Bawak gi vet kerajaan jek, murah !!!

So, cubaan pertama dilakukan sblm mox lari hari tu ... Saye cube nak drug him to take him back to Bangi ... Hahah, misi gagal !!! Die lari dr rumah mlm tu ... Esok pagi tu, jumpe die kat another row blakang rumah ... But dgn kerek nye die memilih utk pegi bersame perempuan lain ... Heh, ;p ...

So, back few days ... I have this intention to take him to the clinic during my lunch break ... Guess what I found when I reach home ?? Hahah, xde pape ... He's gone, pastu elok jek kul 6 time balek keje ... Dgr mox bersin2 kat depan rumah ... Gedix kan ??

So, hari ni memang dah nekad giler ... I'm going to push my flu medicine down his throat ... Hahahahahahahhh, kejam giler ...

So lepas kemas2 kat atas tadi, tibe2 t'ingat nak find the flu meds ... Find something in my bedroom for alahan/alergic on the tag, it's Cetirizine HCl, tapi xconfident it's for the flu ... Since it says alergic ...

Then I went down, I found this Zyrtec Cetirizine Hydrochloride 10mg ... Pastu bole plak t'pause jap, sempat tu nak pikir ... Shud I give mox my meds, or go with my housemate's which clearly state for flu ??

I took the Adezio, cut it equally into 2 ... Then forced it down mox's throat !!! Hahah ... Pastu baru nak perasan ... HCl tu hydrochloride la makcik oi ... Hahah, sorry ... Slow, hahahahhahahahahah ...

I think it's working, mox cudn't open his eyes now ... Hahah, suke tgk kucing tu pening ... So die duduk diam2 jek kat dapur ... That meds memang buat mengantuk, from what I remember yeahhh ...

Get well soon mox ...

helpless mox ... lurve it !!!

Baju Kurung Moden

Just got back from a friend's wedding, still tired ... Somehow excited by the rate for a tailor made baju kurung moden in Tangkak, Johore ... How exciting ?? Rm50 a pair ?? Unbelievable right ?? But those piece needed lining (eg. chiffon), will cost you rm100 ... Full lining yahhh, yes ... Including the sleeves ...

Just that you have to bring in your own lining, as she didn't provide any ... But it's Tangkak, I get 4m lining for rm24 within 10mins ... Huhu, it's really convenient ... Really !!! Hahahahahhah ...

Met this one ambitious girl when I walk in, by ambitious I mean ... She was sketching the dress she wanted, & asking the auntie's advice on suitable materials ... Hahah, I used to be that girl back couple years ... Yahhh, nak buat camane ... Can't effort designer dress, even until now I still can't have one ... T_T

The auntie is doing lace patching mase tu, hahah ... Impress la, she can do lace patching ... Now I have something else to expect on her, beside good fitting & neat finish ... Tapi she going to retire soon, someone will take over of course ... But I bet it won't be the same, she'd been doing my dress since I was 14 ?? Hahah, mane nak carik another tailor that can connect & keep me coming back for more than 10years lepas ni ...

Gonna make this post short, sebab xsempat nak snap gambar tadi (giler excited kan) ... For those who lives around Muar, Jasin & Melaka ... I will highly recommended Chia Lee Sekolah Jahitan for a very2 cheap price, & good delivery + great hospitality ... She even try to finish my baju kurung (2 pasang) by next week, somehow die suruh call dulu to make sure it's done ... [Suke !!!]

Kedai die biase jek, xde fitting room ... Divided equally with a hair saloon ... Susah nak bagitau kat mane exactly sebab xde gambar ... It's on the side of the bus station, next block to Pizza Hut ... I'll post a picture later la when I got there to collect my dress ... Together with the result of course ...

Sebelum b'akhir, sempat beli lace lagi sepasang !!! Hahah, lempang skali !!! Bape bnyk lace ntah, bukan pakai pun ... Simpan dlm almari buat hiasan ... Tunggu ade job jadik mc/pengapit baru nak pakai ... Next wedding I need gold dress, tapi beli pink lace ?? Heheh, gedix ...

Swipe card & feel like a shopaholic jap, pastu trus kene balik, jgn pandang ke arah kedai tempah baju lagi ... Sebab xpenting pun nak buat sepasang baju lace dlm mase terdekat ...

For Those Who Need to Eat Make Ups

I'm suppose to head my comfy bed right now, but this is just too funny ...

Saye memblogging dlm keadaan syok sendiri sebenar nye ... I know I have readers, & I know what my readers expect ... Somehow, I refuse to deliver my post according to their needs ... Sebab I prioritized my life ... Things revolves around me ...

Tapi sometimes kite xsedar, who actually read your blog ...

Sebab:

1. Korang xcomment, so mane la I nak tau korang bace kan ?? Kind of xde respond, so I only will responded to those who show their interest in sharing ideas ...

2. Sebab bz blogging (+ keje), I don't realize what's really happening out there ... I don't check my fb that often now, baru this morning ade mase to stalk around fb ...

My point is, you dunno how much your writing will effect others ... Xkire la, positively & negatively ... In my case, I have this cat fight with a bunch of girls ... Which I simply categorized as girls with lack of inner beauty ...

Update: They remove me from their friend list, & their 3years old (or is it 5 now ??) friend too ...

My opinion sweeties ?? Yes, mulut I xde insurance ... But why do that to your friend as well ?? You just prove that friendship didn't mean a thing in your world ... & sorry again, I think you're shallow ...

So, yes ... I don't consider their feelings in expressing my words in my blog ... But can you name one benefit to me, in considering your feelings here ?? Xde dear, none ... Because you guys never think about others when you open up your mouth ... So when others do the exact same thing back to you, why snap ??

Just put a thoughts into it, before you went saying "maybe she feels something thats why die bagitau ko" ... Or "jage sikit mulut gf ko" ...

If you think what i said in my previous post is not true, why got so emotional ?? What do you think that really make you big sister kept you around all these while ?? Because you guys are easy for her ... You guys are well below her game level, that makes it easy for her to win it all ...

Haih, I said this so many times already ... You guys are disgusting, & I want my life away from your world ... You guys hate me for telling the truth, somehow you still read my blog ?? Can you see how funny your guys are ??

Here's some tips on how to be nice to the person you hate:

Hide them, instead of deleting ... Their updates won't be flashing right in front of your eyes ... Because you dunno if you're going to need them someday ... & to redo what you did, send friend request once again ?? Heh ...

I hope this is the last thing I wrote about you guys, seriously ?? It's wasting my time ...

Source: Google

Diamond Hunting: Part 1 & 1a

It's been a while since the last time I try a diamond ring ... A few days jek sebenar nye, heheh ... You know now how excited I am ... But these are some idea of what I found past few weeks ...

This is what I found in a jeweleries shop in Kuantan (well, this is the closest ... with white gold of course), it's in East Coast Mall ... Right in front of the Carefour counters ... Haih, it's been a while now ... That I forgot the characteristics ... I think it's around 0.5carat, good range of color (can't remember exactly) ... Clarity - vvsi ... Cool huh ?? At a price of rm 1x, xxx ...

source

I can give you the 2nd number, tapi mcm unfair pulak ... Kesian pulak kat org lain yg trying hard to get it kan ... Hahah, you have to go down & hunt it for yourself ... Or, you can just email me ... Heheh ...

I like the fact that it's rare for you to find this shape, & I think the price is reasonable ... Me ?? I'm not really interested in trying something rare, heheh ... I'm conservative, I'm more attracted to those more classic ... Heheh, poyo !!!

Tapi kalau org nak bagi why not kan ?? Heheh, but if only I have it pun ... I'll definitely find something else, sooner or later ...

Then later last week, we went to Tomei in Mahkota Parade ... Melaka, the SA offer us this 'triple excellent' diamond with 'ntah hape ntah die sebut' casing ... I never heard of the triple X before, but I guess it's just the 4c's thing ... They gave 1x to a single c that diamond represented ...

For instant, the one the marked 1x - came in G color ... Somehow it's around 0.5carat, with clarity of vsi ... It's the characteristic of the diamonds, simplified in term of excellent ... For the ease of understanding, for those who don't speak diamond language ... Heheh ...

There's a few good one as well down there, she event mentioned about the special cert ... Hahah, actually don't really get her ... Have to sit down & focus to learn more on what she's trying to explain ...

Maybe later, when I'm ready for it ... I'll keep you posted ...

~Until the next diamond hunting session~ :D

This Might Be Offensive, Sorry in Advance

Stalker please back off, because this post is especially for you ... The truth hurts, prepare for crucial pain if you think you can handle all the risk reading it ...

I'm quite defensive, NONE of you knew me well actually ... Somehow decided to put one foot into my relationship matter, so this is the consequences when you decided to gave opinion on things that wasn't really care ...

Exhibit A1:

Less attractive, make up tebal ... Quite innocent, somehow always came up wif stupid move ... Making herself look foolish ...

Problem: I don't have any problem wif her actually, as I bukan jenis ambik tau hal org sgt ... & you're not that close pun ... I just hate that people compare my bestfriend wif her ... Said she's a good one, & my best friend been called a gold digger ...

My Point: They're basically doing the same exact thing, menghabiskan duit jantan pegi enjoy ... Both are in a relationship, somehow still manage to hangout with other guys ?? Well girls, that's your choice ... I got nothing to complaint about that, I just don't get it ... What make her a better person than my best friend ??

Exhibit A2:

Less attractive than exhibit A1 ... Makan, makan ... Makan, makan ... Makan ... That's all the review I heard from your friends ...

Problem: Aku pun xpaham kenape kau is a problem ... I don't even know you last name ?? You get me ?? Memang kau xde kene mengena dgn aku langsung ...

My Point: Hade my friends sound bf exhibit A1 sebab kacau relationship my best friend ?? Keep you hands of my man !!! I know my bf used to spent you fancy meal , now that he have me ... He got no time for you girls ... So just try to accept the fact that you have to roll on to other guy ...

That's why I want a clean escape from the circle, it's complicated ... Exhibit A1 dated a friend of my best friend ... Exhibit A2 used to spent one whole day spending my bf money ... I got nothing against you on that, since it happened before I met him ...

So, if I can respect the friendship you guys have before I even existed in your circle ... Why can you do so, & respect my relationship NOW ??

You know what's making me sick ?? Get to the bottom of all this problem, it's all about MONEY ... I've been thru this kind of problem back in 2008, I walked away from a friendship also back then ... Because you guys care too much about money, rather than a friendship ...

What I learnt back then ?? Those girls chasing money instead of keeping a relationship, they do anything to get what they want ... Even if they're about to loose a friendship, senang ckp they back stabbed each other ...

Enuf said about you girls, I prefer a real friendship rather than being around you guys ... Wonder what friendship means in my world ?? I have a pair of my best friend jeans well kept & practically wearable ... Even it came in a different size ... It don't have to be GUESS or ZARA ...

It's not about who's wearing the most expensive dress, or who's carrying a branded handbag ... You will be better appreciated if you turn up for a house warming instead of going out town for vacation ... Or hanging out for a healthy lunch instead of clubbing all night with people you barely knew ...

Having dozen of friends around won't necessarily mean you're popular ... It will be enough for me to have a few who will surely lend a hand when you needed ... How many friends will help when you're moving out, & how many do you think will turn up for the new apartment party ??

I'm thankful that I have a heaven sent best friend who always be there for me even we're miles apart ...

I Hate This Town

Yes, after 9 & a half months baru nak hate ... Kerana seorang SA yg bodoh ...

I've been to Mesra Mall every week ... Bole kate, almost daily ... 2hari skali ?? Dah macam my 2nd house ... I even bath there, kau ade ?? Tapi hari ni, sgt menyirap ... Sebab been there, 2x SEHARI !!!

I need a passport photo, for my cidb registration ... 1st round there, my fault ... Xbawak wallet & my atm card bagai ... Pegi tanye, they said it's rm15 ... Dah korek2 syiling dlm handbag, I got about twelve ringgit jek ...

Xpe, bole sabar lagi dgn perangai sendiri ...

2nd time around, dah siap bedak bagai ... Masuk2 tanye, "Nak buat gambar pasport brape lame" ?? Dengan slamber jek die jawap, "10menet, tapi machine die rosak" ?? Wtf la, kenape tadi xnak ckp ...

Punye la menimbulkan kemarahan, dlm nak rushing2 balik kl ni ... Mokcik nak post kat blog jugak, marah punye pasal ...

Xpayah argue la kan, about education level ... Dah name pun keje kat kedai gambar depan umah, xpenah kluar dr kampung ... What you expect mokcik ?? UK education ??

Sorry la, I banned kedai gambar kat Mesra Mall !!!

Kesian Pulak

Smalam berapi2 marah kat mox, tibe2 hari ni kesian pulak ... So, utk konklusi drama smalam ... Yes, mox tido kat luar ... Xtau la, sliding bukak jek ... Tapi turun bawah pagi2, die kat luar ...

Then I moved my car, sebab block my house mate's ... Then nak naik la, get ready for work ... Tibe2 minah sblh rumah sound ...

Minah: yg gemok tu, kucing awok ehhh ??

Mokcik: ha'ah

Minah: die beroak merate ...

Mokcik: ye ke ??

Pastu kau nak aku buat ape minah ?? Tolong cuci umah kau ?? Porch je kot, siram air sudehhh ...Kalau nak ikut kan hati, nak ckp mcm ni ...

Mokcik: xpe la, nanti saye buang ...

Or ...

Mokcik: pastu, nak saye basuh rumoh awok ke ??

Or, sarcastically ... I can say ...

Mokcik: xpe la, nanti saye pesan kat die jangan berok kat umah awok lagi ...

Hangin siot, ape kah ?? Kucing jek kot, yg xde akal ... Kite ni human, suppose to think for them kot ?? That's why they declare it - keperimanusiaan ... Kalau they called it keperi'kucing'an ... Maybe you can expect them to be civilized ...

Haih, ape la nak jadik dgn institusi kejiranan skarang ni ... I tot mase duduk BBB jek ade makcik sblh yg budget up tu nak ckp, 'jgn bela kucing eh, busuk' ... Rupa nya kat Kerteh ni pun, ade gak jiran yg budget cam duk apartment kat kl ...

Dunno la, for me ... Timbang rase, sikit lebih kurang la kot ... Dgn neighbors ... I mean, bukak movie kuat sikit jek ... Org sblh bising ... Siap sound, 'nak dengar lagu kuat2, pegi duduk dlm hutan' ...

Hujah saye: camne nak dengar lagu dlm hutan, bawak generater ?? org xdengar lagu dlm hutan kot makcik ...

Secondly: kau la pegi duduk dlm hutan makcik, kalau xreti nak hidup b'jiran ?? I mean, you nak peace kan ... Go somewhere outskirt then ... Baru la tenang, kete pun kurang ...

In my case, lagi la sadis ... Low cost house kot ?? Ape hal kau nak demand lebih minah ?? Umah no. 22 tu, siap ade tukun (kete xjalan) depan rumah ... Xde plak org nak sound suruh buang kan ?? Anak kau bogel2 depan rumah, ade aku suruh kau buang anak ??

Haih, dah2 ... Malas nak layan org camtu, tapi sadis episode ptg tadi ... Kucing den basah2, kotor giler ... Kesian tau ?? Dah la I decided xbole nak bawak die balik, since I'll be spending 2days kat sane ... Sape nak jage mox kat Bangi kan, ngamuk omak den ...

kat perut tu, kesian kan ?? peha die mcm xbersih2, kotor sgt kot

So, sape yg b'salah ?? Mungkin mox nakal sgt, so xpe la ... Nak tinggal kan this weekend ?? Tawakal jek la, dr die lari kat Bangi & menderita lagi ... Jgn nakal2 eh mox, jgn gi umah minah sblh ...

Luv yuh ...

Mox Carik Pasal

I have a lot of other things to share, but dunno where to start from ... So di tengah2 mlm yg sejuk dgn angin yg mule nak main giler ... Mari kutuk mox ...

Hari ni, mox memang carik pasal ... Nak buang bole ?? Cannot !!! Sayang, heheh ...

Mox memulakan drama, seperti biase la ... Prime time drama mox, time balik keje kul 6stengah ... Berak b'sepah ?? Hello Encik Abang, I dah penat puji2 you dlm blog tau ?? U're the most civilized hensem cat I met ... Kat tangge ?? Buat kat tempat yg senang sikit nak kemas bole ??

I already forgive him, baik kan I ?? I know ... Hahah, giler puji diri sendiri ... So tadi, before leaving to pasar mlm ... Mok pegi jalan2 kat luar, die gaduh2 bawah kete (my house mate's) mase I reach home ...

Pastu mcm biase la, pegi makan2 kat rumah jiran ... Xmalu kan ?? Asyik gi makan kat rumah org ... And, there's another cat on my couch ?? Ape ni mox ?? Mane kejantanan mempertahankan ur territory ?? Xbole harap tol ...

And now, as in tgh mlm ni ... Ade kucing b'gusti kat luar ... Kau kan tu mox ?? Malas aku nak layan ... Ade umah yg cozy ni, nak jugak lepak2 sampai tgh mlm kan ?? Kunci sliding mau ?? Tido luar baru tau ...

Nanti balik buat muke manje, mintak kaki ... My cat = foot fetish ... Xtau la ape yg best sgt, kalau gosok2 pakai tangan die buat muke xde perasaan ... Then he'll go sondol2 kaki ... Nak lempang kan ??

You have till tomorrow for evaluation mox, kalau esok buat perangai lagi ... Babai !!! Tinggal sini sorang2, xpayah ikut balik Bangi ...

Aku nak tido mox, pandai2 la kau balik ...

~ ngantuk + intenet lembap, esok la upload gambar ~

Nite ...

tempat kejadian, nangis tau mox aku nak clean up

Dear Bestie: Part II

This is the most convenient way for me to reach out to my friends, since facebook is too much for privacy & will look more like attacking ...

It's been a week since the big drama ... Yes, I created it ... Admit it, & guilty as charged ... I'm selfish ... Because I was frustrated with the unfair treatment ... I was trying to prove myself, it suppose to be a 2parties problem ... Somehow I dragged along N's reputation, since that's the best case to win it ...

It's suppose to be my problem with so called bestie, there's lack of communication ... That's lead us here where we stand on each other's ground ... & building wall around each others ...

A few weeks before this drama exploded, I was standing up for her when my bf came b!+c#y on her ... Said ...

Bf: she didn't even thought you're her friend ...

Gf: she's my bestfriend la, you just have to swallow it ...

Bf: die buruk2 kan u depan org lain ...

Gf: who, her friends ?? what does her friends got to do in my life ??

It's not like she's coming all the way up to your mother, to spread bad things about me ... Or tag pictures of my bad behavior, there's nothing she did that harm me physically ...

Gf: if she got no place to go, & spending her life on the street ... we will pick her up & gave her a place to stay ... because she's best friend ... daddie will make sure she have food to eat ...

Mum: yahhh, totally agreed (tibe2 ade mum, hahah) ...

Bf: (went crazy)

That's the conversation we had on the way somewhere (dah lupe la), & my mum & Little Ray was there ... Trying to plant the idea of best friend into bf's mind ... Hahah, Inception la sket ...

So, how do we get here ??

1. ramai sgt parties involve ...

It's been 9years L, & all I've been hearing all these while are stories from others ... K said this, A said that ... Z told me this, S told me that ... Seriyesly, there's nothing I got first handed from you ??

What do you think when I heard something from K, I would believe it right away ?? All I wanted to do when I hear stories about you is to hear it from your side ...

2. we pretend we're fine ...

I dunno either it was meant to protect my feelings, or you just wanna keep it from me ?? But I heard of so many version of you being uncomfortable with my presence, somehow we pretend like we're fine all the time ...

But I know we're not, you know how emotional you can get after 2am rite ?? & there's a lot of discomfort moment that we left unsaid ...

3. there's no actual hangouts ...

Sometimes I wonder what friendship are suppose to be ... I am jealous, seeing other girls having girls day out shopping ... We never have that, because we're so busy doing what ??

Do you really want me to remember those crashing at your place as our moments ?? The warmest event been with you around was in Marche', that's when your eager to leave for Borneo ... & when we're hanging out wif Iana, but that's not really our moment ...

Remember when I took you to my bf's place in Melaka ?? I consider that our moments, except the part when we have to follow that s-babe around for her another pair of stripper heels ... Until you ruin it that night, do you even remember what you did ??

4. can you name a best friend's relationship that you did't get 'involved' wif ?? the bf particularly ...

I don't have anything to elaborate on that ...

Lets not drag this into a list of my unsatisfied needs against you, I know I made it clear that I wanna clean escape from your circle ... But you're my best friend, even if you don't think we are ... Do you really think you wanna flush 'us' down the drain ??

This is the closest point of our life involved with each other, if you notice ... I've already told K when we start dating ... I never get involved too much in your life, somehow you know how hard it is to educate them ...

When K's about to move in to your place, I was scared ... I dunno how much you can take it, with me around the clock ... We have different taste in fashion, totally opposite diet ... It will kill to spent most of the time around each other ...

But we're going to bump into each other every now & then ... Can you imagine avoiding each other on Wani's wedding ?? Impossible right ?? & please don't create any drama on her big day, it's her day ... Let's give her the greatest celebration possible ...

There's always a door open for you, no matter what my bf said ... There's only one rule merging in future - I won't lie for you ... Because it's against my principle ... You know I'm a good keeper, you know I am ...

So in the case of Z&S that night, I have to cover my own S as well as it involved me directly ... Bare in mind that I was having some kind of relationship with Z later that few weeks ... I'm sorry about that mess, but I can't take back what I said ... Again, it's against my principle ... But I do learn from my mistake, you're aware of that ... Didn't you ??

I've set the rule, it's your call then ... Have a good day L ...

we're all look fabulous complementing each other don't you think ??

Silent Reader: Part II

Never underestimate the power of your blog (with advertising of course) ...

Sumer org develop their own blog to share their thoughts & ideas with the world ... No matter how humble you are, deep inside you still wish there's somebody out there reading your blog ... That's why you keep writing, rite ??

So recently, after 2years of hiding my blog somewhere you cannot find ... Hahahahahhah, hardcore stalker jek yg jumpe ... Then only this year I think, I have the guts to publish my post on facebook ... There's where my readers came from, my wall post ...

Respond to that ?? It's exciting actually ... To see your stats increasing day by day ... Then you got comment, which also mean respond from your readers ... It's just exciting, to know that there's actually people reading your ideas, & leaving comments just show how much you care ...

Respond can approach from many different way, some say 'hi' on IM ... Or some may compliment you personally through email/BBM ... Then at the end of the conversation, they'll congratulate you on things you least expected ...

For instant, you never thought your vacation is that exciting since everybody may visit the place you went to ... Or some other friends in your friend list already been there like dozen times ... Then they drop a comment suggesting other place for you to visit base from your interest as you described in your entry, or activities you should try when you get there ...

See ?? Never underestimate a single thing you thought less important, as it may caught others interest ... I always thought my lengthy entry are ridiculous, & difficult to drive my readers attention to read it until the last sentence ... Somehow, from stats ... It's actually the most popular post judging from the numbers ...

So don't feel embarrassed to advertise your blog, because you didn't know exactly what others may think or how they find it interesting ... The simplest way, post it on facebook ... In fact, advertise it everywhere ... Twitter, IM status ... You name it, you know better where you can get the crowds attention the most ...

Yes, there is cons for it ... Like for now, I have people who read you blog on daily dosage ... Or should I declare it stalker ?? Hahahahahhahah, just don't put too much thoughts on what other people may think ... Because in the end, it's your life ...

It's the boundary you set for your own privacy, how many personal issues you're willing to share with your readers ... How do you want people to understand it, & bare in mind of the consequences of exposing those information publicly ...

Good day everyone ...

Worst gf in the World Award Nominee

How can I transform this ...

To have this ??

Muahahahahahhahah, jahat kan ade gf mcm ni ?? Heheh, mulut dah same ape ??

Hak hak, kene groom sikit lagi ... Hahhahahahahahah ...

p/s: bf ke ??

Lagi Drama Selepas Meeting

Actually xde intention pun nak update anything ... Sebab bnyk lagi keje nak kene buat, + layan tension rush hour before meeting just now ...

Flashback: sebelum meeting tadi kene sound dgn bos - "lain kali report buat cepat sikit eh mokcik" ...

Ketika saye tgh sebok stalking blog2 kawen org lain setelah tension meeting 2jam tadi, tibe2 dtg sorang hambe Allah ni ... "En. Tut (bukan name sebenar) dah bagi summary ??" ...

Dengan nada mengawal perasaan menbalas, "Aku dah habes meeting dah ni Hamba Allah (bukan nama sebenar), baru kau nak tanye ??" ...

Reaksi Hamba Allah: boloq2 pastu blah ...

Mendidih, korang penah rase ??

Aku bukan nak cakap sebab kau keje aku xsiap, tapi xpayah la nak tanye soalan yg tidak relevan pada saat & ketika ini ... Pastu, bukan En. Tut tu, your team mates ke ?? Ape hal nak tanye opponent on your progress lak ...

Wait2, nanti korang take it wrongly ... We're not competitors ... Hamba Allah is the assistant to En. Tut ... & I have another assistant as I elaborated in my post back few weeks ... So (b!+c#y mood's back on), apsal nak tanye aku pulak ?? Korang xreti COMMUNICATE ke ??

Ok, let's cool down ... ~breathe~

I'm not that type of person, who take a complaint ... Then go blame others ... Like my bos said, 'report u lambat every month' ... I won't reply, 'Owh, I receive late input from John dgn Mayer' ... Sgt malas to elaborate more, but please la ... I'm trying not to be a complainer here, tapi korang seems taking advantage on my kindness ...

I don't like my job to be monitored, all that matters to me is the output ... I mean, I don't mind you went out lunch with gf/bf every day ... Or nak bawak awek outstation shopping on the weekend ... All I know, I want things I want when I need it ...

Manage your own time & work, for me ... I'll complete my task in the most convenient situation for myself, within the time I scheduled in my plan ... Mcm mlm tadi when I have to be in the office until half an hour past mid night ... Padan muke la kan, sape suruh xnak buat report awal2 ...

Lantak kau la nak jadik ape ...

Saye sgt stress, makan nasik lemak pun nak nanges (normally I cry sebab stress) ...

Tailor Made

Masih dlm mood t'kejut dlm jem2 kat Sungai Besi ni, yes lagi !!! Sungai Besi jem heading kl di kala senja ni, so sempat blogging dlm kesesakan lalu lintas ... Poyo abes !!!

So, setelah lepak2 dgn my mum after a while xbalik2 my parents house ... Dgn penuh semangat pegi kajang nak tempah baju, since bnyk giler wedding to attend in 2011 ni ...

Last 2weeks, dgn gagah nye meredah misi Project KT sorang2 utk memburu sutra pilihan ... Mase planning ramai la ckp nak ikut kan, time pegi sumer bailed out ... Pegi pancing udang, hahah ...

Anyway, dgn harge market sutera yg naik selaras dgn harge minyak ... Really ?? Actually beza rm40 je, tapi now the trend is - letak batu2 ... Xsampai 50bijik pun, tapi harge dah up rm80 dr last visit in 2007 kot ?? Hahah, giler out dated minah ni ...

Mengenangkan usaha beli kain jauh2, so b'azam la nak hantar kat tailor b'quality annn ?? Senget kain merah mak ngah kang, setahun xabes complen ... So lepas xjadik jumpe HD pagi tadi, trus la balik lepak2 kat Bangi (malu nak ngaku rindu kat omak) ... Dgn niat suci nak gi DzulldeClassique tempah baju 2pasang ...

Dpt paking cantek giler depan kedai yg compem bz tu, pastu dgn yakin nye kepit beg plastic Noor Arfa Batik kan ... Semangat giler coz finally can make it, & the shop still open ... Risau dah actually, takut dorang tutup be4 Magrib ... Tapi dorang bukak sampai pukul 10 mlm ... Hahah, lepas ni confirm I'll take advantage on that late closing ...

Actually stunned by the details on the pieces they've done ... Agak mengancam kalau tgk betul2, ade plak one of the worker tgh buat beading kat depan2 counter kan ... Memang cair la ... Tanye trus brape dorang charge for beading ... Rm190 utk beading saje yeaaa, upah jahit lain ... Reasonable rite ??

Lepas agreed to do kurung moden for both materials, ambik ukuran ... Akak tu tanye, 'ni deposit nak bayar brape' ?? 'Sratus' (sile buat2 excited) ... Siap b'lari2 anak sebab wallet t'tinggal dlm kete ... Excited lebey ...

Selepas pra-pembayaran selesai, trus ambik card & b'niat meninggalkan Kajang dgn kadar segera ... Pastu ade motor lak sebijik kat blakang my car, which later the rider create drama wif me ... So, dgn sabar nye ... Tunggu la uncle t'sebut selesai, pastu t'tengok la kad (normally they gave receipt) tempah baju tadi ... Total = RM300 ?? Sepasang rm150 ??

Hahah, t'kejut sampai t'lupe nak bukak air-cond tau ... Dah sampai Sungai Besi baru prasan button a/c tu xtekan ... Sampai2 damansara, bf ckp tu harge standard ??

Ade kah saye yg t'lampau out dated ?? Atau memang mahal ?? It's just a basic kurung moden, xde beading or sulam ... Last time I sent kat my amazing tailor kat Tangkak, paling mahal pun rm120, for 3pieces ... Lace, collar cheongsam ... Siap butang cheongsam b'deret ... Cutting xyah ckp la, perfect ... Xpayah fitting ke bagai, cume she'll tend to make it look innocent sket ... Sebab my original design normally revealing, hahah ...

Actually dah calculate siap2 hari tu, compare cost to sent it to nearby tailor ... Or hantar kat my dearest nyonya kat Tangkak tu jugak ... Kalau kat Tangkak tu, toll pegi balik about RM50 + minyak full tank = rm100 ... Then regardless what the design is, average it will cost me RM100 per pair ...

Sutera 2pasang, and kain from India another 3 ?? RM500, seriyesly ?? Hahah, tambah cost penghantaran & pengambilan ?? RM750 tau makcik !!! & most important reason why kene hantar kat tailor around my parent's house - mane ade duit nak bayar 1shot RM500 !!! Hahah, quarter my salary dah tu ...

So, tu la ... DzulldeClassique is the best choice, I bet it will turn out well ... This is not a bad review la, I'll post out the result later ... Sebab I read a few good review on their work earlier ... & some more, they can finish my 2pairs of baju kurung moden in 2weeks, cepat kan ?? Tapi I said ambik hujung bln la ... Heheh, tunggu gaji ...

There's another tailor kat Seksyen 9 yg I slalu pegi back then when I'm staying in Seksyen 8 ... Makcik tu jahit quite nice jugak, fitting sumer ok ... She did patching for me for the piece that supposely buat baju kurung, but I degil jugak nak buat kebaye ... Actually die sub jek, but I love how the final look turned out la ...

Then the 2nd time I sent lace which I bought kat Nilai, buat kurung moden ... Somehow bahagian leher die horrible giler, because you can see all the jahit tepi ... It cost me another 100bucks for beading to cover up, + the beading mcm striking sikit from the materials design ... Just agak serik la, to send materials that I have high expectation on there ... Heheh, kecoh ...

Maybe I can send a piece from daddie to her, since nak buat baju kurung moden wif simple kain jek ... At least the next visit, xde la die tanye kenape dah lame xdtg ... :D

I'll keep you posted on how the pieces turned out ...

I'm in Love

We went to Salt Water for supper last night, I met Mox here ... Felt in love at the first sight ... I took him back home for about a week back few weeks ... I think it's been a month kot ... Since the last time I saw him ...

Going back to that place, made me missed him ... He went away the night before I take him back to my parents house ... Sgt sedih, sebab he's been home for a week ... & the last night to spend at my place, he went away ... Chasing other girls ...

I was bz buat kueh that night, at a neighbor's house ... Sebab the next day ade meeting, so I made a promise utk buat kueh ... I know I didn't spent enough time wif him ... That's how I lost his attention in the 1st place ...

So on the way back from Salt Water late last night, I saw one pitiful figure kat tepi tali air ... Kebetulan I'm running out of sugar, right after Abang Zaid drop us home ... I drive back, heading out to 7e to get my sugar ...

Actually, 30% jek my intention to get the sugar for my tea ... The rest 70% is to check out that figure I recognized we passed by a few minutes earlier ... Stopped by, and stare straight to his face ... There he is - it's MOX !!!

Dgn semangat nye, it's 12am ... Brenti kat tali air yg biase nye ade kaki pancing lepas gian, dgn lembu2 b'rekreasi 10meters away ... Calling his name, 1st he run away ... Buat2 nak lari masuk dlm hutan, pastu he stood there ...

Alaaa, manje ... Nak jugak org angkat !!! Hahah, so there you go ... Mox's back !!! Tgh tido dgn comel nyer kat dapur ... Hahahahahhahaah ...

I missed him, all these while ... Rase b'salah sgt, sebab I took him away from his comfort place ... & made him suffer, wondering around my house ... I love you much x8 more now Mox !!! Sorry I put you thru a hard time all these while ... Mox sgt kurus now, kesian kan ??

Back few weeks, when I took him back ... He peed all over, his s#!t's all over the place ... Memang menimbulkan kemarahan la, to get back home from work to all those mess ... It's been a few days before he learnt to litter ...

But he surprised me a few minutes earlier ... He peed in the litter tray !!! Earlier I have to soak the news paper on his pee, then left that filthy soaked piece on his peeing tray ... Disgusting huh ?? After more than a month, he's civilized now !!!

I love you Mox, jgn lari lagi tau ... You know it's hard out there kan, it's better here kan ?? I'll bring you out to the vet every once in a while for you needs yahhh, I'll put that in my schedule ... Heheh, good night Mox ...

hensem kan ?? heheh ... ni gambar lame, I'll post his slimmer version soon

77hours

Sebenar nye, bnyk lagi bende lain nak citer ... Bende lain yg more important than drama Melayu during primetime ... Something like chicken rendang, or the drives to get back home & prepare the dish walau pun penat 1hari melepak kat office ...

So, it's been 77hours since the last cigarette ... Tu pun pow rokok bf (ex now) ... Somehow, I'm about to fail actually ...

Kejap lagi, naik atas ... Comfirm isap okok, sebab stress ... & the most strong reason - sebab gatal pegi beli tadi, kalau xde ... Xkan la nak kluar gi 7e mlm2 semata2 nak beli rokok kan ...

I'm going to try again, & when I'm succeeded ... I'll announce myself officially a social smoker ... Hahahahahahhahah, degil xnak brenti jugak ...

Nite2 guys ...

It's a Long Night

I was peeling off some garlics when I receive a call from a very best friend, preparing for my signature dish - rendang ayam ... I was really excited to review about that actually, then came all the drama that dragged along till now ...

heheh, gambar sekadar hiasan - ni rondang 3tahun lopeh

Our 'so called bestie' - was having this hard time ... Yahhh, it's ME ... I'm the one who causing her all the pain, for what ?? Saje kot, puas hati rase menang ?? But this is not how I expected it to end ... I was about to make a clean escape out of the circle ... But somehow, somebody pulled the trigger ...

You wanna say 'Reysha busuk hati' ... Go ahead, I don't care (that much) on what people think of me ... But go to my friends and whining about the problem that you can discuss with me for a better solution ?? It pissed me off !!!

Did you get what I mean ?? You're my best friend, that person that you called pun my best friend jugak ... You guys have equal attention, equal rights on my advice & problem solving skill (poyo la pulak) ... What is it that make it so hard to address things that you're not satisfied with, directly to me ... Instead of wasting your money/time making phone calls hundreds kilometers away ??

And you deserve forgiveness ... More than other people did ... So no matter how bad you screwed up, WE will still be here for you ...

Lets talk about the problem now, I've been keeping the secret ... For the sake of both of you ... But you shud known better what you've been doing to me recently ... It pissed me off dude, and for God sake A ... Stop talking behind my back about my friends, if you're not willing to pay then just make you stinky face ... We sure understand that ...

FYI, you play nice that night ... We tot you're really a nice guy, just didn't expect this kind of s#!+ from you ...

Having a stack of money didn't gave you the right to underestimate others ... Yes, we do whining/complaint about others every now & then ... But you're a guy dude, keep it to yourself ... Instead of being b!+c#y & spreading out the gossip ...

I think I'm doing the best I cud, keeping my S away from your relationship ... Somehow I still got the blame, I'm the one who tell his friend about her little secret ... I'm the one who creating all the drama here & there ... I'm the crazy b!+c# on facebook, I'm going to tell the world every single details ...

Lemme tell you this:

1. I have a JOB

2. By job means, my time is limited to call others & gossiping

3. My job actually restricted me from posting bulls#!+ anywhere online publicly

Got what I mean ?? It's down to work ethic dear, remember to focus when your lecturer's teaching ...

I don't wanna go further down to work ethic, because by then I'll be reaching to the bottom of this problem ... Which it should been solved by the both of you, because no one understand your relationship better than you guys do ...

So little B, watch your mouth yea 'adik' ... Before you go 'maybe she feels something thats why dia bagitau ko' ... There's a fine line between what I did, & what you did ... Because I was CLEARLY SINGLE ... So, let's not argue more ... Because it's not a game to win ...

So lets conclude this, so we all can get benefit out of it ... Don't try to ruin somebody else's relationship, because karma is a b!+c# ... How do you think I knew all the things u said behind my back ?? Because it's a circle of trust I build around me, & in the phone call issue ... It's a 9years wall, you think something can get in and out just like that ?? Think again ...

I'm not trying to scare anybody, I'm not saying I'm against the law & have right to voiced out whatever i wish in my blog ... & hurt others ... As I said, I want a clean escape ... Away from ALL of you guys ... Because it's been too much for me lately ... So, good luck guys ...

Dear, I really wish you will feel better tomorrow ... ~lotsoflove~

Kekanda Adinda (Monoloque vs. Atilia)

I'm in love with this song, bole x ?? Hahah, kesian xde bf ... Tapi xpe la, this is for my friends yg getting married soon ... Good luck guys ...

Final Episode

After a while of catch & release, been tired with the words 'yubodoh' & 'yulabodoh' ... Or 'yunislowla', & 'yunilembapla' ... Now it's off for good ... Yes, off again !!! So please, no more 'Bile nak kawen ??' ... Or 'Kau ni, asyik urus org nak kawen je ... Bile nak urus kawen sendiri ??' ... No, no ... Please don't do that to my face anytime sooner ...

Ni bukan la post nak promote diri saye single, tapi agak tension sebenarnya ... All these while, M will say - '& yet, you stay ??' ... When I went complaining about my relationship ... But actually, they don't know a single thing ... On what actually is going on in your life ... YOU are the only one who knows it better ...

It's not about letting go the 0.7carat diamond for engagement, or losing the opportunity to have Hearts on Fire on 2nd anniversary ... It's giving up the secure wall around me ... Knowing that I can't buy own house anytime soon, can't afford new ride until the next increment ...

It's scary, yes I can find another guy to build another secure wall around me ... But how often do you find a better guy after another guy you dated ?? Like when I left my ex in 2010, with his 10k credit card debt issue ...

Then later I dated another guy, who don't even have a credit card ... Somehow have zero financial capability ... No fixed salary, don't have record on his cash flow transaction (he took cash term of payment) ... Except when his aunt sent him some money la, then you can see a transaction ...

Maybe it's me, who's too fussy ... Or maybe it's my principle that keep me failing in relationship (I don't believe in true love yahhh, evil huh ??) ... But seriously, I think people stay in a relationship because they comfort each other in many different ways ...

Like when I decided to stay with M looonnngggggggg time ago ... I think he's gonna be kind to my kids (future la !!!), & he won't make a fuss about my kids having UK education ...

There are time, when I picture myself married to a teacher ... He's driving a BMW, in courtesy of me (hahah, poyo abes) ... ;p ... I memang generes la !!! Xcaye tanye my ex !!! Hahah ... Haip, focus !!! Heheh, I mean ... I don't mind working like hell, & go back to find a husband watching tv on the couch ... With my baby fetched from the nursery, & mail taken from the mail box ...

Xpayah la a house'husband' who cooked or mop the floor ... It's more than enough that he can help pick-up my dry cleaning, & throw his dirty shirt into the laundry basket ... Kemas his own psp, & help me change the bulb when neccessary (wahhh, panjang pulak list !!!) ...

Nak balik la, letih pulak tibe2 ...

Anyway, it's not M's fault that we broke up ... It's my choice, I decided to leave ... So now, tgh swallow my decision la ... Back to my old life where my source are limited & I have to work my S to get things I wish for ... So in future, if my future bf cannot afford designer dress for the wedding ... Swallow that !!! Hahah ...

But I'm sticking to my decision, & take in big M's (different person wif M) advice ... "Buat ape all the materials if you're not happy" + "Attitude memang susah you nak ubah" ... Tapi tipu ah, big M memang xsuke my ex ... It's obvious, sumer org tau ... Hahah ...

Big M suke sgt kat MS actually ... He's my ex, big M met him during Hari Raya last year & kagum with the hospitality his family gave to me ... Hmm, but no ... Sorry big M, it's a pass ... I'll take my chances, find some other guy ... :D

So, good luck K ... Mengurat ana, hahah ... Siap kantoi, 'buat2' t'salah sent msg ... U're free to board in the May trip, I have nothing against you ... & the next trip jugak ...

I'm gonna be fine, don't worry about me being depress & die ?? Mokcik don't do that ok !!! Just it's a bit emotional at the moment, gilo ko xde perasaan langsung ?? Heheh ...

Cheers ...

Hearts on Fire - Part II

Post ini adalah copy paste, sebab sambutan menggalakkan ke atas previous entry ...

I went crazy in diamonds back few weeks. A friend lemme try her 75k Hearts on Fire, it's super hot!! It got us (me & bf) into the rush in diamond hunting. If you've been browsing through wedding blogs lately, you'll find a few advice on choosing a diamond ring.

One famous advice is not to get those with small stones, because the probability of loosing that small2 pieces (since there's a lot of it) is quite high. In cost-wise advice?? Normally (<--- my personal opinion), the one with small diamonds arrangement are cheaper than the fine cut. (3-7k, depending on design)

Because?? They don't really have dozens of fine cut diamonds (certificate diamond) for that kind of arrangements, except if you request for a custom made. You should expect a custom made price then.

Diamonds can come in varies shapes from different types of squares (as I see it square from the 1st time), rounds etc.

Then you have to consider a few things before making your choice which is the color, clarity. & carat of course. Carats measures the size of the diamond, for Asian they normally advice to go for smaller carats as it suits best with our small little fingers.

I'm not going deeper into color & clarity as I already mentioned it in my other post.

Another good advice on diamond rings is to choose 4prongs instead of 6 to make the diamond pop ups/ look bigger beside choosing higher setting (ring design).

diamond appeared smaller in 6prong

this one better

Good luck searching for your perfect ring ladies!!