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Sunday, May 20, 2012

Pack & Leave

We always said - as we grow older, things get complicated ... It is, but I just realize that I have this one thing I can go easy ... Or in other words, something that might be complicated for others ... But I'm good at it, which is - pack & leave ...

Some people find it difficult, to leave home ... To work hundred miles away from home, married or single ... Then I realize how fast things went back then in 2010, when I decided to leave home & work in Kerteh ... It was like, I went for interview on Friday ... Get on the plane for a week long vacation in KK, went back beli tilam kat ikea wif my former bf ... & leave at 4am in the morning on the next Monday dgn Ahmad Faliq ...

Even when I told my dad, "I'll leave for Kerteh the moment we get back from KK, if I get the job" ... My dad kind of shock to hear that, but for me it was easy ... By that I mean, I don't get sentimental packing my things & leave ... Maybe sebab I was trained dr kecik2, since my dad travel around the country for his work ... Imagine he gave 2hrs notice to pack, when we're moving from Tawau to Papar ...

Somehow, to move back from Kerteh to Bangi ... I got emotional packing my things ... Haha ... Maybe because every single thing in the house are personally mine, compared to those in my parent's house which are mostly shared ...

So, here I am now ... About to do the same thing, pack & leave ... Honestly ?? I'm excited, to get my own place ... & get committed to my job ... Just like back then in Kerteh, keje ... Go back home, tgk astro ... Sleep, & the repeat that routine everyday ...

Bf ?? Kalau bole masuk bag bungkus, I'm pretty sure I will ... Haha ... But that's not the point now, I'm not worried about 'hanging on' to my bf ... Because to me, bf is not a husband ... Yet ... But it got me thiking, what will happen when I'm married ?? Will I still be packing my things & leave for my job, from my own judgment at the moment - YES ... I'll definitely do the same thing, pack my things ... Grab my kids, transfer them to my new job place ...

But will that do justice to my partner ?? I think I'll be very lucky to have a partner who agreed with my career plan, but chances are ?? It's quite impossible to find someone who can just find a new job somewhere else, every time I move for a new project aite ?? Unless I get married to a teacher, tu pun jarang nak dgr a male teacher mintak tukar skolah sebab nak ikut wife kan ??

All these, just reminded me that I had a long way to go in planning my future ... More things to take into consideration, more responsibilities ... Right now I should just focus on my work, dr looking forward on planning for things that wasn't sure ... Pour my effort on things more important than thinking, whether my future husband will fit right in my plan ...

Oh, btw ... I haven't get back to work since my surgery, feeling a little bit under the weather these few days ... Right now, susah nak predict either I can stay fit for the whole week or not since I can easily get tired after an outing depend on how much energy I spent ... & staying out over night is the most likely activity that can cause the pain to re-occurred ... I might have to go back to the clinic to get things check up & extend my medical leave ... Hihi ... Till then ~

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