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Saturday, July 30, 2011

Things About Me: Part III

Little angel that will always remind me of things I really wanted in life ...

After a successful pre open house last night, my house mcm dah raye now ... With my grandma & auntie ... At the moment, tgh tunggu turn mandi ... So update blog jap, hahahahahhahahah ... Pasni kene bawak dorang pegi jln TAR tau !!! Sorry wani, aku pegi dulu servey2 ... Nanti next week kita pigi jugak ...

Thanks for all my friends that hav been supportive thru my 2months relationship ... Which now I can clearly announce (or understood) - it's OVER ... Thanks to those who been asking me to hang on there, & to those who's been telling me he's not the guy jugak ... I appreciate both +ve & -ve advices ...

It's time for me to move on, I'm taking a baby step on it ... At the moment, I already delete all the sms ... & pictures, just ade 2pictures left ... Later la, I'll transfer ... Hahah ... His special setting on phone book pun already cleared ... The only thing that haven't been removed - is the idea of he's coming back ... Hahaahahahahahaah ... Sorry la, saye memang sgt b'terus terang ... Sorry if u hate that, kalau menyampah ... Jangan bace blog aku ...

Tipu la kan, if I said I can erase him just like that ... I WISH, I can honestly be doing all the good things for myself ... Without wishing for him to realized it, will be working on that from now on ...

~ 'Untuk bakal suami tercinta' ~ that's my latest approach ... Everything I did, trying to quit smoking ... Skipping 'opera' session ... Staying home, instead of somebody else's home ... Hahah, I really wish I can honestly be doing it for myself ... Honestly ?? I don't think I hav any intention of running back to him ... Or is it just my ego, clouding my judgment ...

When we broke up, he said ... He still wants me around ... But I know this kind of guy, they always have issues wif commitment ... Said he's not ready for you ... Ugly truth ?? He don't think u're the one, he deserve someone else better ... Jangan jadi hipokrit la, sgt cliche kot ... 'U deserve someone else better than me', 'I'm not the guy for you' ... 'There's nothing wrong with u, it's me' ... Tu sumer bullshit ... Find ur balls & said it ... "Kau xcukup bagus utk aku" ... Kan senang citer ...

A few weeks back, I've been thinking ... How do we survive this, when I hate his friends ... & he hates mine ... I was pretending all the time, when I have to go pick up his friend before we went to opera ... Sgt xikhlas sebenar nyer, tapi buat jugak ... Ok, enuf ... Don't make this a kutuk mengutuk session ...

I'll be fine, you shud know I'm very resilient ... Hahah, tahap bouncing aku memang sgt tinggi ... I can cry the whole night, & be fine the next day ... Hahah, but there are times when I got down on my knees over a break up ... Setahun ok, aku nanges ... But I'll never forget that, so I'll always be thankful for the peace of mind & soul blessed by God ... Never be over confident sgt, & don't get too weak over the down turns ... Bnyk2 b'sabar dgn dugaan2 from God ...

Tibe2 t'ingat kat a friend's dad, who always advice me on work & life ... That was during my life changing broke up in 2008, quote "if you think God have tested you to the most you can handle, don't get comfortable but be prepared because there's greater test for u in future" ... So, always be prepared ... For any kind of test ... & always remember, that life can turn upside down complete 180 every single day ... Just don't get too comfortable dgn nikmat yg Tuhan pinjam kan sementara ...

Ok, not going to elaborate more on that ... Sebab xrase diri ini cukup bagus lagi utk bagi nasihat2 seumpama itu ... So, enuf merepek ... I'm gonna be fine ... Dr bangi, sampai jln TAR jugak la baru siap this post ... Hahahahhahahahah ...

Hav a good weekend ...

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Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Things About Me: Part II

Ini adalah kesinambungan dr previous post ... Something I would like to share with my readers, sebab I know my readers are my close friends (& stalker of course) ... On my current status, progress on my relationship ...

Many of you already know, that I love weddings ... I love the dress, I love the tiny little gifts ... I just love it ... But, not so many of you don't really understand me actually ... Whenever I talk about weddings, they assume I'm desperate to get married ...

Lemme tell you my opinion on wedding, please prepare a pack of tissue if you're a sensitive person ... Heheh ... I only can start thinking about marrying a guy, when I can see him clearly in my picture of future ... Kissing my forehead, right after akad nikah ...

Because for me, it's a sign of a brand new life ... A vow he proudly announce, taking all the responsibilities regardless what happen in the future ... & forgiving the past ... Then salam cium tangan, respect & thankful for his willingness ... & a kiss on the forehead, represent the forgiveness ...

Got me ?? It's big, to me ... Bukan stakat designer dress, or invitation card from Jakarta ... Bukan jugak utk wedding by the lake or hantaran 50k ... That's how I managed to walk away from a guy who's willing to spend 80k on me, just for the wedding ... Because money is not everything ...

& right after marriage, aku nak branak terus ... So I need somebody who can deal wif that ... Kalau xmampu nak beli baby seat recaro ... Or baby walker ala2 jet ski for my baby boy, don't talk to me about getting married ... Yes, memang aku materialistic ... So ??

Rumah saye memang ade Pesona Pengantin since 2008, that's my collection ... Asal beli Pesona Pengantin jek, desperate nak kawen ke ?? When you buy Apartment, xde pulak org ckp dah excited nak beli apartment kan ?? Still menyewa jek ...

Xcaye tanye Nani, she'd been to my house ... & enjoying my collection of magazines, & most of it ... I make full use of it when my bestfriend is getting married ... All the ideas for the dresses, it came from there ...

Kalau korang rase, I just made up this stories ... To cover my S whenever I got dumped, go ahead & feel good about yourself ... It's my personal opinion on my future I laid bare naked ... & I'm taking full responsibility on choices I made ... I don't care what people said, it will go down to my own judgement eventually ...

Do you think I can consider marrying a guy who still put himself out there hugging other girls ?? Think again ... I'm not that girl who's willing to wait & swallow your lack of confidence until you say you're ready in few years time, because in the next 10years I'm gonna hav to swallow your shit thru you're middle age crisis ... But by then, you're a husband ... It's my responsibility to stay by your side, don't make me elaborate more ... Just don't make me go there ...

What the hell I'm doing now ?? I'm DATING ... It's not a relationship yet, ok I admit ... last few weeks yg t'gedik2 tu hape kan ?? That my weakness ... Over excited dgn new bf ... But we haven't passed the stage 'mengenali each other' yet ...

I admit, I like him ... Ok fine, I love him !!! But I have to be realistic, love have to work both ways ... I have to be prepared, & consider possibilities that things might not turn as I wish ... & always remember to 'Cintai dia yang mencintaiku' ... We're not breaking up, don't worry ... We're just taking things slow ...

Enough of the 'bile nak kawen' question, sebab memang jauh lagi ... Xnampak pape, ape kah lagi date ... Ok ?? Saye xtarget pun bile nak kawen ... I'll get married when I feel comfortable enough about it, bukan sebab my friends sumer dah kawen ... When the time come, I'll let you know ... Aku bukan artis pun nak kawen senyap2 annn ?? Heheh ...

Bawak2 la bersabar, nak tgk mokcik nyer wedding meletop ke xkan ?? Sorry you have to wait ...

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Fighting for Love

Wahhh, title xbole blah ... Untuk menyokong kerjaya bf tersayang yg sgt bz dgn program 6p skarang ... Saye nak pegi dating skarang, yes ... Dating tengah2 mlm ... Sebab memang xde mase, even for a short tea or lunch ...

Saye buat salah sebenar nye, sebab tu kene pegi dating jugak walaupun dah tengah mlm ... Ok, xpayah elaborate bnyk2 ... Nanti baru citer ...

Sorry if my response lambat sket ... I owe u guys a post - Relationship 101 ... Then you'll know how stupid I am ... Hahahhahahhahh ...

ps: just got a text from him, maybe he can be done @1am ... sempat brew a cup of coffee for myself ... shud I bring earl grey for him ?? hahah, kau gedix lebey ...

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Bride's Maid's DressES

I'm F'ing lucky to have the best bride you can ever find in the whole world ... Imagine die suruh I change dresses during reception ?? Hahah, kalah haku yg nak potong kek ... Hahahahahhahah ... Kalau awak nak bagi, saye suke jerrr !!! Heheh, xmalu ...

So, saye memang bnyk dress (kurung moden or kebaya) yg meletop2 sebenar nye ... I love lace, heheh ... Xtau la ape hal, tapi baju raye haku memang dr dulu cam artis ... Kalau makcik2 tgk, dorang ckp mcm org nak kawen ...

Tapi dah semakin dewasa ni, dah slow down sikit la ... Malu dah nak meriah2 sgt, heheh ... I have 3pairs kot, baju kurung moden lace tailored ... 1 tu kaler baby blue, dah xmuat ... Another one is a golden dress I wore for my graduation, & another white lace with silver & pink details xpenah pakai ... Hahahahahahhah ...

this is my graduation dress, the 1 I planned to wear during the nikah/b'inai event

So, I'm going to bring this one ... & the white one for the wedding in September ... Another dress, actually on the way ... It's by Rico Rinaldi, sebab die bukak his boutique dekat giler dgn rumah haku ... Sangat tempted nak pegi sane ok ??

1st I tot my bride was mad at me, sebab lawan tokey kan ... Bole plak bride's maid nak pakai baju designer ?? Siap dah buat back up plan, going to use the dress for my engagement kalau didn't get approval from the bride ... Hahah, but she's actually cool with it ... Die ckp, "Janji jangan pakai baju kurung nak pegi class" !!! Hehhehehehehhehh ...

But u got nothing to worry yahhh darling, sebab I dah discuss dgn Rico to make it as minimal as possible ... & mamak pun cakap ur dresses are beautiful !!! So I got nothing to worried about overshadowing the bride ... Heheh ... I'll go for 1st fitting next weekend, will send u the picture ... Ok ??

On top of that, she asked me to go to her bridal house ... Pick up another dress lagi ?? What ?? Dah bnyk giler my dresses ni, tapi die nak bagi kan ... Saye terime dgn hati terbuke ... Heheh, hugs sket ...

Good luck preparing yahhh darling, sorry I'm thousand miles away ... I'll make it up to u a week before ur wedding ... Lots of luv ~

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Bile Bf Saye Curang

Nanti saye upload gambar, gambar dlm memori card 1lagi ... Sgt malas nak transfer ...

Ok, xtau la sama ada ini hanya lah perasaan saye semate2 ... Atau ianya benar2 b'laku ... Bile I'm in the middle of crisis, mesti my stat double up ... Korang memang stalker kan, nak menyibuk jek check my blog ?? Hagak2 la kan, xkan sumer bende nak post kat blog ... Annn ?? Ok enuf, filter ...

This is the post I wanna do, to share things I did when my bf curang ... Die xbape nak curang pun sebenar nye, die just kluar dgn his ex ... & only put effort to tell me tgh hari esok, tu pun after kene tanye la ... I asked him point blank, "I rase u curang" ... Pastu die trus spill, hahah ... Senang jek rupe nye nak suruh my bf tu mengaku, hahah ... Honesty is the best policy ?? Totally agree !!!

Bile I got my heart broken ni, I ade 1trigger automatic yg will stop me from doing stupid things ... Like when I light up my cigarettes, I'll say - "enuf Reysha, him being stupid is not a reason to do more damage to yourself" ... Or bile aku nak menggatal, I'll always remember kecurangan bukan alasan utk berkelakuan soon-d@l ... Hadoi, camne nak filter ni ...

My point is, bile saye kecewa ... I don't go running back to my ex arm, saye pegi berlari ke pantai ... Until I got my sanity back, then I can talk about it in rational mind ... Sebab perempuan ni emosi, & mcm2 can happened when u're mad ... U might say things that u're going to regret later, so silent is golden ...

bawak myvi b'siar2 ...

For now, I already forgive him ... Hahah, senang jek kan aku nak maap kan org ?? Tapi sakit hati tu still ade la kan, bagi bracelet sebutir ok kot ?? Kalau dpt gold bracelet conform lupe terus !!! Hahahahahahahaahah ... Focus !!! You'll do everything to save ur love right, that's what my best friend been telling me last night - fight for your love ... So let down all my ego & anger, I do still love him ... So yes, forgive him ... Just liddat ...

When I forgive him, then dah xpayah la nak keep the tension in conversation kan ... So, it became relax sikit ... Xde la asyik nak maki2, 'u're an S hole' ... Or 'u're 1hell of a stupid S' ... & u can discuss things, instead of attacking ... Hahah ... For now all I need is a silent treatment, xde la silent sgt ... Hade jek I replied his text sumer ...

& I nak pegi menggatal dgn lelaki hensem tonight, I dah mintak permission ok ?? Permission la sgt ... Hahah ... Darling, when a gf ask for a permission ... That wasn't really asking for permission, it's just a way to tell u what she wants to do ... Hahah, I'll promise I'll behave ... Bole ?? Normally, I ckp jek nak meletop ... Nak buat xsampai hati, heheh ...

Go deep down to the bottom of ur hearts, & ask urself what u want ... If u're willing to break ur heart again & again for the guy you love, then do all the things you can to stay ... But if u can't see any happy moments with ur partner in future, then let it go ... There's always someone for u out there ...

Like when I met my bf yg curang ni, I tot he's perfect enuf ... But I forgot that he's capable of breaking my heart ... & I found somebody that can love me more than 'a guy I called perfect', but I'm not sure if I wanted to go thru another break up for something that wasn't sure ... Because I dunno if I'm gonna love another guy's smell, or the smell of detergent he used ... Or how loud do he snores, or do I love his favorite clothing brand ... It's tiring to go thru that process all over again ... So I decided to stay, until I tell myself my own limit ...

Happy tuesday guys, esok aku cuti ... Yeahhh !!!

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Friday, July 15, 2011

I Learnt the Hard Way

Saye telah b'janji pd diri sendiri, utk watch my words when writing in my blog ... So post ini akan di buat dengan berhemah, walaupun hati ni panas membara ... :D

When I graduate, I don't have any practical training ... Sebab mase kat UiTM, it's not compulsory for diploma student to do practical training ... & during my degree in Nottingham, BEng programme students are not required to complete their industrial training ...

With my result yg tak cukup makan, I landed a job 100km away from home ... Cukup 3bulan, saye dapat warning letter ... Cukup 6months, I got TERMINATED ... Yes, saye kene buang keje ... Bukan nak bukak aib sendiri, but I just think it worth to share ...

Saye keje 5bln, baru kluar myvi t'cinte ... Selama 5bln tu, how I survive ?? Public transport ... From Bangi to Seremban ... Sampai kekurangan xde transport ni, the company buat alasan I xbole perform ...

The truth is ?? PM aku resign, notice 3bln ... So selame 3bln notis die tu, memang mcm xde PM ah ... Suke hati die je nak dtg pukul brape, nak balik pukul brape pun ... Mcm mane aku blajar tgk drawing ?? Level dah salah, PM datang mengamuk tunjuk number kecik2 kat tengah2 portion earthwork tu ... That's how I know, "Owh, tu level die" ...

Kau hingat ade org nak ajar kau If you expect people to say, "Reysha, ni drawing earthwork ... Ni level yg consultant design, so kalau kat site ni ... Kite check la, machine operator buat area die betul x ... Kalau xcukup level lagi, kite bagitau la ... Kene potong lagi 1kaki ke, setengah kaki ke " ... Seriously ??

I'm a cold b!+c# I know I can be a bit harsh when delivering my order, aku tau korang cakap aku gatal kan, dengan jantan sumer lepas ... dengan pempuan payah sgt but it pissed me off the way you guys present your work ... I mean, when you're in diploma ... Ur assignment will have a proper cover page, well divided into introduction ... Research method, then the findings ...

Later when you do your degree, it emphasis more on research ... Somehow you have to follow the report format for submission ... Xpayah cover page bagai, but it well presented la kan ... Ade submission form sumer ... Kalau stakat print kaver page, staple kat catalog ... Tu adik aku yg pmr tu pun bole buat Why not apply any of the skill picked up during college in your work ?? I mean, xde sedikit pun ke ... Perasaan nak put the best you can give in your work, sebab org lain buat mcm tu ... So follow jek la, xde keinginan nak buat yg lebih baik ??

I'm not asking for a fair treatment pun, I didn't expect you to go down the hard way like I did ... What I've been thru is my experience ... Something valueable, that you don't have ... But to see you guys having those privileges, & taking things lightly ... It's just frustrating ...

Just please, those phrase - "Ala mokcik, kau dulu pun mcm tu jugak" ... Don't throw that to my face, because you don't know what I've been thru before I got here ... I'm doing the best I can, controlling my nerves spending the last few months here ... Lets make it easy for everybody ...

Have a good weekend ...

My Side Project

I have a lot of things to share actually, tapi sangat malas nak type ... Bole ?? Hahah, gedix lebey ...

I'm spending my weekend in Kerteh this week, normally I'll feel stress ... Sebab xbalik kl, I dunno why do I have to feel that way ... Padahal I'm doing the same thing over & over again jek biler balik kl tu ... Somehow, staying home this weekend ... Leads me to a finding, surprising actually ... Heheh ...

I love cooking !!! Hahah, mcm pelik thinking about it ... Besides shopping & men, I love cooking ... I had my 1st paid job this weekend ... Walaupun it's actually under paid sebenar nye ... But I'm thrilled & put in 120% effort into it !!!

The order due on Sunday morning, nasi lemak with rendang ayam for 20pax ... I've started preparing 60hrs before, prep the chilies ... Then I just went for final round of shopping at pasar pagi this morning ...

Went back home, I cleaned the chicken ... Peel off lengkuas, & clean my kitchen ... By 12pm, I'm sitting on my cheap sofa eating nasi lemak sambal kerang bought from pasar pagi also ... & feeling no stress at all ... Obviously, I love cooking ...

& people around me were very supporting, my mum donated her dried chilies ... Die nak bagi her ikan bilis jugak actually, tapi t'lupe nak ambik hari tu ... & my bf understand my interest completely ... Pegi dating pukul 8mlm pun xpe, he wanna make sure I bake my cupcakes ... Hehe ... But not for now la, I do have a permanent job at the moment ...

My office mates pun, walaupun sokongan itu lebih kepada arahan ... Like, "Mokcik, buat nasik lemak sedap2" ... Or, "Mokcik, nasik mu buak lebih" ... Heheh, but I appreciate that ... In other way it sounds like encouragement jugak ... :D

I fixed my schedule, 2days advance for this job ... Siap mengamuk kat abang Zaid sebab ajak pegi kt ... Hahah, last2 xjadik pun ... That's how I got all the free time to clean the chicken right away ... & I'm sure I'll got well rested for tomorrow night ...

Right now xde plan to go extreme on catering la, project kecik2 mcm ni cukup la ... I mean, something I enjoy doing it ... But I wanna go extreme on my cupcakes this hari raya ... I better send my samples to grandma kan, mesti die promote habis ... Cucu kesayangan die buat, hahahahahahhah ...

minimum promo price I bole bagi rm2.50, lepas raye kene up rm2.80 ... the cup 1 & 1/2 inch kot ...


mahal sebab I pakai chocolate Van Houten, dah tried another choc ... tapi xsedap mcm Van Houten, my qaqc ckp xpass ...

So order depends on sambutan, kalau demand tinggi saye buat yerrr ... So far memang xde intention to decorate it, sebab I memang masak utk makan ... Bukan for decoration, heheh ... Senang ape org nak makan time raye, & bukan sumer org suker icing tu ... Heheh, statement back up yg baik ...

Later I'll upload photos on my nasik lemak project ...

Friday, July 8, 2011

Mensucikan Blog

Ni xde hubung kait dgn Bersih 2.0, tidak same sekali ... Sebab rase nye, dah slalu sgt meroyan skarang ... Sikit2 nak panas, salah sikit nak panas ... Ape hal kan ?? Ilek sudah ... Pastu merepek ntah pape kat blog kan ... Sebab makcik jual nasik sup kat depan opis xmo goreng telur, tu pun mau touching ke ?? Hahah ...

Dengan semangat baru ni, xtau ah semangat ape ... Hahah ... 2bln skali ade resolution baru, yg lame ntah pegi mane ... Tapi ni semangat utk memperbaiki hubungan dgn orang2 di sekeliling la ... Since I promised not to meroyan dlm blog lagi ...

So, xde dah kutuk jiran seblah rumah ke ... Kutuk member kau gemuk, member die xhot ... Tipu la xde, hahah ... Tapi saye akan lebih berhati-hati dlm penggunaan perkataan, supaya post saye lebih berhemah & mesra member2 ... Hahah ...

Diharap, usaha ini akan mendapat sokongan la ... Dari kawan2 sekeliling, dan ahli keluarga ... Jangan buat mokcik emo plis ... Atau dgn kate lain nye, mokcik kau xpayah la nak emo sangat ... Sikit2 nak tulis kat blog, annn ??

Ok, dah determined mood ape utk resolusi kali ini ... Mood mensucikan blog yg suke maki2 org ni, xmo dah kutuk2 org ... Tepek direct, siap haplot gambar ... Isk x3, teruk2 ... Enough of that ... Nak meroyan nanti aku post kat blog lagi satu yg private tu ... Hahah, nak jugak ...

Kire cam my promise la ni, better content ... Xmo dah emo & too personal ... Kalau dah emo sgt pun, I'll make sure I arrange my phrase properly ... Ala2 pempuan suci gitu, tapi xnak la suci sgt ... Gedik pulak kan ... Heheh ...

Dah merepek, bye ~

Sunday, July 3, 2011

I Just Love Her

I found this blog just now, I started to fall in love with this girl ... Lady la !!! She's happily married, expecting her 1st baby ... Oh, how I wish I can be like her ... Pouring her heart out, telling her great love to her beloved husband ... With no limitation ...

Heheh, I put her on my blog roll ... Tapi xlarat nak follow, because I'm not really interested to click on Low Placenta Lying or Pregnancy Tips at the moment ... I mean, I'll only read that when I have nothing else to do ... But I'll prefer to click on Wedding Favors, or My Reception Dress Preview ...

But I just wanna share what I found wif you guys, because I think she's amazing ... Like when she wrote the post about women in love, I couldn't agree more with her honest opinion - that women do stupid things when we're in love ... But friends will always be around no matter what you choose to do ...

Or when she listed quality values you should find in a guy, she included snores & street smart ... That was something you face on daily life ... & I just love it because it was so realistic ...

She's amazing, go check her out ...

Oh My

Stress !!!

I've already did a post about what I did in a month with my hot stuff new bf ... Detailed to every single week yahhh ... & just found out that it was only saved up to the 1st week review ...

Sgt sentap, malas nak tulis balik ...

Good night ...

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