Thursday, June 28, 2012

Oh Baju Raya

I have this one beautiful piece, some kind of kasa rubiah nak hantar pegi tailor for hari raya ... At the moment tak tau nak hantar kat mane, it's a choice between satisfactory & price ... Because daddie bought kain tu from India, it's a really nice piece kalau turned out well at the end of the day ...

I had the experience dgn dzul de classique, walaupun sejengkal jek dr rumah ... The answer is still NO ... Lagi la this piece memang fully embroidered - dekat collar, the bottom piece & for the hand ... So is a big NO, sebab the last time my silk dgn design kaki was disaster ... There's 2pieces, both memang hancus ... & it's clear that I'm still traumatised, haha ...

Then there's lovely auntie kat Tum's Tailor, Seksyen 9 Bandar Baru Bangi ... Which is, nice ... But do expect tailor's workmanship, sebab name pun tailor kan ... Once when I took my lace & satin to her for my bride's maid dress, makcik tu yg suh aku gi hantar kat designer ... Hahah ... Seriously, that's how I end up sending that dress to a designer ...

Then of course, the designer - Rico Rinaldi ... It is really nice to deal with him, but my budget is tight for these few months ... Heh ... Let the picture speak, you guys judge ... Sorry my photography skill memang sampah ... Haha ...

the dress minus heels ~

Another option was my tailor in Tangkak, Johor ... Tapi mcm jauh sgt, to send & pick up dah bape ringgit ... Pastu I don't really like the finishing she did for my previous baju kurung ... Further more, cehhh ... Mcm buat surat rasmi in English time skolah plak ... Hahah ... Anyway, I got this expectation to make this dress well fitted ... So my body nampak cam ala2 hour glass gituew ... Hahah, giler gedix ...

Konon2 nak camni lasource

Tibe2 rase nak send to the one paling dekat dengan rumah, since kalau hantar area kajang pun dah almost 4hundred sebab ade lining ... Wahhh, money please grow on the tree kat depan rumah !!!

I'm Waiting for a Train ...

You're waiting for a train, a train that will take you far away. You know where you hope this train will take you, but you don't know for sure. But it doesn't matter, because we'll be together.

Haha, giler poyo ... Tujuan sebenar nak bagitau I'm bored as hell dalam office ni ... Since tomorrow will be my last day in the office, & sebab dah tender resignation letter ... Yes, I'm resigning by the end of the month ... Which is end of this week .. So I don't got any task since then, dah tak tau nak buat ni ...

I dunno, to some people ... Resignation tu cam a huge thing, mcm making decision nak kawen ... Back then when I moved back from Kerteh pun, ade la jugak rase sayu2 sket nak pindah KL ... Hahah ... But this time around, I just feel like it's a routine ... Something that I have to do ...

I resign atas tiket 'masalah kesihatan' ... Which is bukan la tak bole jalan ke hape, but my attendance was down hill ... Few days earlier, dengan azam & semangat berkobar-kobar ... I leave home around 6.45am since Monday, for 2days in a row ... Going back home yesterday, I dah bole raser my body tak sedap ... Mcm nak demam ...

I end up waking up at 7am this morning, I leave home before 8 ... Naseb Sungai Besi tak jem giler this morning, so I manage to reach the office ngam2 9am ... Berjaya jugak mengekalkan record above the red line for this week, yeahhh ...

My feet is freezing at the moment, as I'm sitting here writing this ... My point is, I'm still pushing myself to do things beyond my capability ... Sebab my mum sumer advised me not to push myself, since they know how I've been living my life all these while ...

For instance aku ade order cupcakes on Tuesday, balik keje from Subang I'll go shopping siap2 before I went back ... Sampai rumah around 8, get simple dinner then start baking ... Depends on flavour, kalau dorang request yg filling2 tu leceh sikit la my work ... & will take longer time, normally everything will be done around mid night ...

Then I'll wake early the day after, & keje mcm biase ... Whenever I got time to replace my sleep, then I'll do ... Even there are times when my mood swing dah start to go crazy, my sister will ask - "Kau dah tido ke belum" ?? Yup, that's so me ... So after this medical condition, I was advised not to do those kind of things ... I have to love my body, pamper myself ...

Pamper dalam konteks berikut bukan la bermaksud aku nak pegi spa every week, it's just that I'm doing things that my body can actually do ... Bukan minum red bull, kacip patimah bagai cam dulu ... Reason being - my oven is still working, & I have plan to make babies in this oven body ... So yes, people bole cakap ikut sedap mulut dorang ... "Ala, akak tu ok jek lepas operation" or "Minah tu xde pun mcm tu dulu" ... But this is my body, my future ... So, I'll decide what I can do & what I can't ...

"You know where you hope this train will take you, but you don't know for sure" ... I do have plans for the future, what I don't know is that will it work or not ... All I can do is work hard to carry out my plans, & pray for the best to happen ...

So, before my service ended here ... I would like to thank everybody for their  help & kindness, selama saya bekerja di sini ... & I'm sorry if I ever do anything wrong to any of you guys ... It's been nice working with everybody here, I'll take all the sweet memories with me & left the unwanted behind ... Hehe, esok aku post kat wall group ... No worries ...

Till then, wish me luck !!!

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Lie, Make it Real ... If it Doesn't Work, Blame Someone ...

Recently a major drama exploded among my circle of friends ... Korang pun tau, kawan aku bukan ramai sgt pun kan ?? I have no intention of revealing the details, sebab from my point of view ... It's something huge, maruah kau ... Maruah family kau ... & I'm not God to punish you ... It's all on you baby, you decide on your own all those things you did ...

No need to explain myself, neither to cover my S ... I apologized for things I did wrong, & I won't apologized for things I believe I do right ... Especially in something related to my religion, there's no tolerance in that ... Memang aku bukan baik sangat pun, but I know what's right & what's wrong ...

What you guys do is actually the same, you both created a lie ... & build more lies around your story to make people (or maybe yourself too) believe your lie is REAL ... So I stand strongly by my principle, I won't lie for any of you ... Friends or not, you shouldn't put anyone in the position to choose ...

Leave all those others out side the picture, just between me & you ... We both know who the hell is lying ... I choose to stay silent in this drama, & it's not like it's a kiss & tell contest ... I'm not going to trash her, just to make you feel better ... It's a sincere apology, just that ... So don't get ahead of yourself ...

I have a lot to say, since I've lost a lot for the past couples years ... But it's just not right to channel my anger publicly, even some other people already did - trash every single aspect of my life publicly ... They said 'God will do all the punishment for you, & if your lucky enough ... You'll be around to see how they got punished' ...

Just like what happened recently to someone who broke my heart, God took something from him as well ... & I'm lucky enough to have someone told me he lost that one thing he put all his faith in ... Sounds evil kan ?? But just don't be the reason for any of the bad things happened ...

p/s: find someone else to blame next time you come around a problem & stumble ... You did a fine job pointing finger for the past few events ~

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Weddings-Marriage Personally

I've been attending weddings every fortnightly on average since last year, especially on school holidays ... Being in kk on 1 of my best friend's anniversary, light up the memories we had a year back ... Dulu kecik2, I attended weddings ikut my parents ... When I was little, I enjoyed it very much when they let the kids to put on 'inai' ... & I really2 love taking photos with the bride, REALLY ... Sampai jumpe bride yg tak kenal kat hotel lobby pun, I'll ask my mum to snap a photo for me ...

When u're a teenagers, u prefer to hangout with ur friends on weekends rather than following ur parents to weddings ... & during that transition from teenagers to a grown up women, weddings are something interesting to take part in ... Especially close friend's, since ur grew up together ... & it's interesting to be a part of one of their important event throughout ur stages in life ...

As a women, we always look forward on the wedding ... What u're going to wear, how you want your hair done ... U wanna find the perfect shoes to compliment the outfit, you go all around the city to find the right hand bouquet that will stand out ... For me ?? I would like a perfect husband to fit in all the beautiful details, yes ... I am that selfish, ;p ... But then u realize, that it's not that simple ...

Someone that look good, might not be so perfect to share your life with ... Because of different interests, & financial capability probably ... Someone who can make you happy, might not provide you the kind of wedding/life you've been dreaming of since you're little ... But someone who can give you all, might just not make you happy ... Maybe he'll spend more time on work, instead of spending time wif you ...

My opinion personally, it's something you tolerate when you decided to get married ... Quoted from a friend - "If I'm not that religious & have no family to care about, I would have marry the other guy who can give me almost everything" ... But she married the person she loves instead, & tolerate long distance marriage some more ...

While for me ?? Some might argue my current bf's capability, but I always refer back to my roots ... Pesan Nabi Muhammad SAW, pilih pasangan b'dasar kan 4 perkara - harta, keturunan, rupa paras & agama ... Tapi pilih agama, nescaya kamu akan bahagia ... My bf memang xbole nak provide harta walaupun die ensem, or b'kelakuan baik2 to be the ideal future husband ... But I can simply argue a topic, & he'll came in strong & clear on hukum ... Complete with the exact arabic term for the situation ...

That's what made him on the top of my list ... No matter what other people think or say ... So where do you stand in this argument ?? Will u marry your sweetheart even it's clear he can't provide u financially or spiritually, or a guy struggling to give you the best he could provide but somehow guide u to a better life each & every single day ... Or u prefer someone who drives sports cars, but spend 2hrs a day wif u because he's busy all day chasing business deal ...

For whatever you choose to prioritize, the most important thing is to deal with it ... You should well aware of those choices u made when u go for ur bridal gown fitting, prepare your mind & soul for the ups & downs in marriage when u pick up your wedding rings at the jewelry store ... & don't forget to pray & ask for guidance along the way, & seek for help when u come into obstacle instead of running away ...

As much as I love weddings, that's how much I adore my happily married friends ... Lots of luv ~

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