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Thursday, December 22, 2011

It's Even Worse Than It Looks

You shud know, when a guy show cased a single violent action ... Pack ur bags & leave ...

Related to my previous post, this is what I got ... Actually it's even worst, cabinet tu tadi ade atas my desk ... But 1office saksi, semua org dah nampak perangai kau ... From this moment, doa aku cume satu - jangan la housemate aku sampai kawin dgn kau ... This is unacceptable ...

Even when F accidentally hit me pun, that's not acceptable even it was a reflect reaction ... Lagi la kalau kau INTENTIONALLY humban cabinet aku ... Find ur honor dude ...

Boss tade, berani la kau tunjuk hero ...

Final Stress

Ade jek makhluk dtg merosakkan mood aku pagi2 ni ... Last day kat Kerteh ni pun, kau nak carik pasal lagi ... Dah la kau tak mintak maap kat aku langsung kan ??

Ni la yg membuat kan aku rase nak ungkit balik semua bende ... Kau tak nampak ke, bnyk lagi bende aku nak settle ?? Dgn result asal bole dorang hantar aku kene sign, RFI lagi blom settle ... Dah la kau nak mintak soft copy keje aku ... Kau ingat aku tade keje lain, nak layan kau jam2 tu jugak ??

Kadang2 manusia ni tak sedar diri, kau nak rase kau bagus sebab keje kau lagi penting dr keje aku sign result ?? Kau jadik engineer la, baru kau bunyik ... Hutang study loan sampai 60k buat degree, ape kau tau ?? Ni la masalah lack of appreciation on education kat Malaysia ...

Siap nak kluar ayat bangang kau, melayu suke tangguh keje ... Aku sign site diary keje kau even for those mase aku tgh jage piling kat Rembau kot ?? Mulut tu cantek sikit, biler org tegur ... Kau tacing lebey ...

Bile time aku, summary result dekat 200 item ... Esok aku kene print out report, ptg kul 5 baru kau bagi ... Penah aku bingit kat kau ?? Aku tak kuase nak kaver kau, kalau kau bagos ... Kau bagos la, doesn't matter whatever shit aku ckp pasal kau ...

Good luck la ~

Friday, December 16, 2011

It's Friday ~


Blue Sapphire


Now I know why dorang pesan, 'Jangan rambang mate' bile shopping utk kawen ... Sebab memang makin gatal nak kawen ni, makin bnyk kehendak ... Aku tade la nak kawen sgt dah, tapi dah bole la start kumpul duit nak tambah budget future husband supaya dpt beli bende2 merepek yg di-idam2-kan ...

Dulu time tade bf/ade bf yg tade perasaan nak kawen, sgt determine - 'Saye seorang yg conservative, my wedding must be very traditional & follow adat ... Baju kurung for engagement & kurung moden for nikah ... It's a must to wear kebaya for reception' ... Poyo abes ...

Skali boipren ajak kawen, bole plak berangan nanti tunang nak pakai dress la ... Dr focused to diamonds, tibe2 gatal tgk blue sapphire pulak ... Nak xbox la, mac book pro la ... Mengade kan ??

I always have this intention nak bagi my future husband blue sapphire wedding ring ... Sebab tu every time aku jumpe mamat dah kawen pakai blue sapphire, aku t'lompat2 & compliment them the ring - 'It's a nice ring' (ayat standard aku) ...

Since excited tgk blue sapphire on sale kat Tomei Mesra Mall smalam, gigih la aku google about blue sapphire sehari dua ni ... Pastu t'google la skali blue sapphire for ladies kan ... Comel kot ??

Imagine this ( ^ ), to match .. this ( ^ ) ...............

Or these ~

Berangan, berangan ... Hahahahahahahah ~ x_x

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Merajuk

Hari ni saye sgt marah ... Aihhh, malas pulak nak publish this post since ade org akan perasan aku marah kat die ... Again, I have to explain myself ... 'Tade keje nyer aku nak dok marah kat org yg tak penting dlm hidup aku, aku marah sebab aku care & sayang (heheh, malu2 ... kecik sket font tu) about this someone I'm mad at ... Yang tak berkenaan tak yah perasan, get a life ...

Mari saye review dulu sedikit sebanyak sejarah mengenai org yg saye marah ni ... Kalau kau rase meluat, tak payah bace ... Sebab setau aku, ramai jek yg sebok nak tau dengan sape aku kluar & slalu gayut tepon dgn suare gedik ala2 manje skarang ni ...

I met him 2weeks ago, tak payah nak 'bile nak kawen ??' sgt ... Aku siap buat label baru kot ?? Aku Belom Nak Kawen Lagi ... Baru jumpe 2minggu, tak kan la dah nak trus kawen kan ... Lemme do this step by step, proper way ...

So kitorang lepak minum that very day, on the way back ... Aku dah berangan sebakul, heheh ... So typical me, beli kan bunge sekuntum kat tepi jalan pun aku balik ckp kat sumer org - "He's the one" ... Hahahahahah, sile gelak guling2 ...

From the 3hours hangout, bnyk bende that we learnt about each other ... & the most of it, I figured that he's not a typical lelaki Terengganu yang suke minah klantan putih melepak ... There you go, 1st hint - bf aku mamat ganu ...

Sampai rumah tu, actually aku nak sgt msg die bagi tau - "I dah sampai, good nite" ... Muah muah muah x8 ... Hehehheheheh, but I didn't ... Sebab die ckp die nak tido kot, so takmo kacau la ... & the main reason is, I know I'm falling for him but I don't wanna keep falling ...


Dah lame, I didn't felt that way ... Since the last break up, my heart kind of closed ... As much as I'm trying to deny it, I just have to deal wif it ... That I'm hopeless romantic ... & it's been a while since the last time I went back home & be stupid after a date ...

The next day baru I texted him, said good morning & thanks sebab banjer makan ... Naseb baik die bagi aku makan Chinese food, kalau tak mesti aku buat muke choosy & makan tak habes sebab food tak sedap ... We won't be falling in love with each other I guess if it was a different restaurant, since aku akan buat muke tak happy & he might not like the grumpy me ... ;p

Dr good morning wish, masuk dirty2 topic sket ... We both tied to our blackBerry & senyum sorang2 the whole day, texting each other ... Sampai ke petang, when I reached home after work ... Die ckp he likes me, yay !!! Hahah, hati dah kembang semangkuk time ni ...

2 days from our 1st date, he declare 'you're mine' over the phone ... & pesan jangan nak gatal2 dgn orang lain ... Eheh, memang tahan napas takmo senyum dgn hidung kembang kuncup depan boss time ni ... Heh ...

Dalam eksaited dpt bf, I did gave him 6months probation period ... Lepas 6months baru bole jumpe my parents, sebab I don't want things to go wrong mcm my previous relationships ... Nanti my mum sedih lagi ...

I went back to Bangi that weekend, I did offer him - nak ikut tak balik Bangi/pegi wedding kat Johor ... But I'm afraid he'll be left alone ... Since I'll be bz being the MOH for the wedding ... So he declined it ...

It's Friday, I was lying on the bed ... B'malas2an guling2 atas katil sebelum mandi & getting ready to drive to Kulai, Johor when I recieve his marriage proposal ... Heheh, yeahhh ... I got him to propose after 3days, ;p ...






Excited ?? Memey la ... Tapi tade la eksaited sampai nak kawen trus kan ... But the planning is there ... Atas faktor2 kewangan, saye kene bersabar ... & since my future husband's work related to money, paham2 jek la he's very particular bab2 duit ni ...


Hahahahahahah, sape kah ?? Accountant, lawyer ?? Majistret, doctor ?? Hahah, I can't tell u guys (yet) ... Sebab p&c issues ... Sabar yeaaa ...

So far, things went well for us ... I screwed the 6months probation period, & already bring him back to see my mum last week ... AlhamduliLlah, my mum happy ... We're not talking to each other (me & my mum) that morning when I left home, takut jugak to see her respond kan ... Skali balik2 rumah jek, I can smell she's cooking nasik briyani ... Hahahahahhah, I know she'll love him ...

My mum trus senyum when she saw him, dr buat2 bz kat dapur ... My mum trus lepak kat sofa, siap gadoh rebut2 seat dgn my youngest brother ... Hahahahahhahah, I was upstairs mandi mase my mum interview him about job sumer ... I dah tido when my mum got back from tesco & kept the conversation going with him, she definitely like him ... I know, :D ...

Last time I gaduh2 gurau2 dgn my mum, she did mention this statement -
"Your taste kan same dgn I, I'll love whatever you choose" ... Yeahhh it does, including this one ... Heheheheheheheheh ...

Ape hal intro panjang giler ?? Hahah, dr marah sampai tak jadik marah ... Since the main issue nak kawen ni is money, aku pun semakin extreme la meng'google' wedding stuff ... Photographers, door gifts bagai ... My intention - grab any available reasonable offers supaye bole save ...

Kau tau ape aku dapat ?? Kene tepek 'eksaited sgt' ... Memang best ah boipren aku kan ?? Pastu dgn pantas & garang aku tepek balik - "Fine, 3thn lagi baru kawen" ...

Aku pun tatau la, aku yg freak out ke ?? Memang lelaki ni tak ambek pot sgt ?? Kalau tak hambek pot ni, xde la aku kesah sgt ... Masalahnye siap kutuk balik tu the best part ... Org booking dewan 2years advance kot ?? Photographer lagi, make-up artist ??

Tape la darling kan, you kan bnyk duit ... I tunjuk 0.4c, u ckp kecik kan ... Org tak nampak ... From now on, aku xde mood nak kawen dah ... Tade nak plan ahead ke, xmo ... Xpe ah, shut down for a while ... Enjoy the vacations ... Sampai ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ntah ... Sampai I got the mood to plan again ...

Actually I'll still plan, berangan ... Gather pictures of things I love, but put actions on hold ... Heh, keep everything to myself ... Nanti book everything last minute, kalau mahal you bayar jek la kan darling ... I hate love you ...

Bye ~

Friday, December 9, 2011

People Talk

I always think, people will always think of you the way the wanted to think about you ... & I still do ... It's like, regardless what you've done for them ... Put aside all your positive efforts, they'll always remember you by the one (or maybe more) thing they hate about you ...

Yes, I do have things I hate about someone else ... But I always tolerate the weakness with that person's best personality ... Or even there's only a few things to appreciate compare to their pile of weaknesses pun, I always consider them as a friend ... & friends stick together for better or for worse, even when there's a few times I'm ashamed by their behavior towards my another circle of friends ... I apologized for them said, "she's a b!+ch but she's my best friend" ...

Growing up, people became even more mean & heartless ... Those selfish enough, will only think about themselves ... Their happiness, & protecting what the consider their's ... Friends or no friends, most of the time money is more important than making your friends happy ...

For instance, you'll feel left out when your friend went out for vacation with her other circle of friends ... Nak kecik hati sebab you're not invited, or she didn't put effort to initiate that kind of hangouts with you ... But if you got invited pun, you'll put on a face when you're around her other circle of friends ... Make it difficult for her to choose between her other friends, or you ...

If it's was for me, maybe I'll get jealous for a while ... In time, I'll heal & move on ... & most probably, I never voice out my feelings ... I keep it to myself, let her have her moment ... & wait patiently, because one day I'll have what I dreamt of ... Yet, there's still people out there who go around telling people that I always have hidden agendas ... Base on what, I totally have no idea ... & my life is too precious to care more about them & their negative thoughts ...

The best thing I can do for my own good, leave all these people who dunno how to appreciate me behind ... & cherish those who's willing to do all it takes to spend time with me ... Seriously, recently I found out that I've wasted too much time chasing people who'd taken me for granted ... While actually there's a lot of other amazing people who actually appreciate it if I give them a chance to hangout/catch up ...

& those who dunno to appreciate ni la, yg normally go around stalk my facebook la ... Keep an update on my blog, do I have a bf ?? If I did then, when will this next guy dump me ... For what, God knows kan ... But base on my understanding, you know deep inside what you said about me is not true ... That's why you kept trying to find a reason to prove it, stalk me thru fb & blog ... Hoping, one day you'll find the reason to prove I'm worth all the things you said ...

My advice, just move on ... If you hated me that much, buat ape keep an update about me ?? For your own good, stop stalking me ... & focus more on your current life/relationship ... Again, move on !!!

I can't be around people who keep telling me it's wrong to be happy, & I just can't stand those who made me feel guilty when I'm doing the right thing ... While there's other people who kept telling me I'm too kind & sweet that it make it hard for you to be around me when you're just not good enough ... It's just confusing ...

Once a friend told me that I have a noble heart, that I should share my thoughts with others ... Because it's beautiful, the way I think about it ... My perspective towards things happened in life, that's the reason I started blogging in the 1st place ... But since things didn't really turn out as planned, it scares me ... It's just feel like sharing is not a good thing (this is what I mean, certain people just make it feel wrong to do the right thing) ...

But I'm not going to let others change me, I'll be sharing my experiences & approach in my daily life ... It's just a matter of time ... Till then, this <3 is for those who really care ...

Have a great weekend ahead ~

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Bride's Maid Outfit - Material

Sehari selepas hunting baju kurung for my 2nd bride's maid outfit (5th Nov), perjuangan diteruskan di kawasan sekitar Bangi ... When I left home, ade these places in mind to go to accomplish the mission - My Jan, Seksyen 8 Bandar Baru Bangi (memang kedai haku sopping baju raye dah 2thn) ---> Wangsa Walk ---> Gulatis Metro Point, Kajang ---> Alamanda, Putrajaya ...

Tapi on the way, ter-de'tour pegi Warta ... Then baru pegi My Jan ... But as I window2 kat My Jan, ade 1pasang yg comel & suweet kaler light purple ... But it feels like, baju raye haku tapi kaler pepel ... Hadoi, so decided - tak mau !!!

Pastu ckp kat adik cherry, I don't think kat Wangsa Walk akan jumpe ape yg dicari ... Since kakak cherry taste tinggi (lempang) ... Seriously, sebab dah extremely searching for 2days in a row ... Dah dapat perasaan yg agak impossible nak carik something I wish for, the piece yg I adore kat Semua House semalam pun I rase custom made ... But it's green in colour ...

It's a simple kurung moden, chiffon ... Collar cheogsam if I'm not wrong, with a little bit embroidery ... & butang bungkus kat lengan, both hujung baju dgn hujung kain just simple straight seam ... Tade details pape ...

Yang sebenarnye, dah termimpi2 kan border lace yg manager Jakel yg hensem tu tunjuk smalam kan ... Hahah, tu yg xbole nak terima ape jua pilihan lain ... Ade je alasan, purple tak cukup light la ... Macam baju raye haku la ... Heheh ...

So dalam kebuntuan to maintain the budget, tibe2 teringat a piece of lace I bought in Tangkak ntah tahun biler ... Rm100 for 2m of lace & 2m of satin crepe if I'm not wrong ... Just the lace kaler pink, so I just need to find another light purple base ... & use the lace for patching ... Bijak2 ... Heh, pujian diri sendiri ...

Kite makan dulu ...

Appetizer ...

Mine ...


Adik Cherry's ...


 Dessert ...

 
Pelaku ...

After I gave up hunting for ready made baju kurung kat My Jan, trus pegi Gulatis in Metro Point, Kajang ... Mission - carik chiffon & satin impian ... Tak pandang kiri kanan dah, tengok harge mcm murah ... Rm29.50 /m for the satin crepe, rm24.50 for the chiffon ... Both lerang 60", so ambek 3.5m each ... Total rm189 ...

Mase turun escalator, terpikir jap ... Smalam abang manager sasa offer rm270 for normal satin ... Rm350 for satin silk ... Itu termasuk border lace, sebut harge rm125 for 0.5m ... So paling mahal pun, rm150 minus border lace for the chiffon + satin kan ??

I guess that's the power of sales strategy, sebab die display price rm85/m ... Offer for rm29.50, & rm35/m offered rm24.50 ... Kau rase dah murah, padahal bole tawar for cheaper kat Jakel ... Heh, pastu baru terkenang how beautiful the non-washable chiffon kat Jakel nyer flow ... Hahah, padan muke !!!

Lesson learnt - jgn terpedaye sgt dgn sales ... Normally harge die same jek, kurang lebih 2-3ringgit jek ...

Tape la, janji dapat my dreamt chiffon ... Border  lace tu, put on hold jek la ... Lengkali baru beli for next event, kalau ade rezeki lebih ...

So it's official - lining satin crepe in hot pink ... Base plain chiffon in light purple, both from Gulatis ... & lace patching from Tangkak ...


Now there's 2 options for the tailor, either Tum Tailor (Seksyen 9, Bandar Baru Bamgi) ... Or my auntie kat Tangkak ... Depends on my availability to send the material to Tangkak & quotation from makcik kat Tum Tailor ...

Tum Tailor - Last time I sent my kebaya, upah rm80 + rm120 for patching if I'm not mistaken ... Rm180 for baju kurung chiffon (with diamond studs), full lining ... Rm120 for 2piece kurung moden, lace on top & plain satin for bottom ...

I wish I still can get the price of rm120 for the patching, & rm180 for the tailoring cost itself ... So, total cost of rm300 ... Hopefully ... Haih, kan bagus kalau ade phone number makcik tu ... Bole sms jek tanye ... Tu la, hari tu die sms tak nak save her number ... Kan senang kalau ade personal contact ...

Ade hati jugak actually nak sms Rico mintak quotation, ;p ... Tapi tape la ... Tak cukup budget untuk itu kali ni, heheh ... But seriously, why not ?? Since the cheapest you can get for tailoring is around rm180 + rm180 for the patching ... Almost rm400, kan ?? Tu tak termasuk material tau darlings ...

If you go for designers, simple design cost around 1k ... Dorang buat beadings sumer siap, at least you puas hati kan ?? Dr aku hantar kat tailor femes kat Kajang tu, dah la mahal ... Hancus my sutera Terengganu, dorang potong ikut suke hati mak bapak die ...

Enough said, will be updating on the tailor I choose soon ... Then the final outcome later on, but everything will be published after the wedding's done ... :D ... Sabar yeaaa ...

Nite2 ~ >hugs<

Bride's Maid Outfit - Hunting

Pertame skali nak mintak maaf sebab t'paksa publish post ni, 1bulan selepas hari kejadian ... Xde la nak budget artist sgt, cume lebih baik mcm ni ... Dr aku pung pang pung pang about bende yg kecik jek, nanti jadik issue lagi di kalangan mereka yg sengaja mencari issue utk diperbesarkan ...

Pada 2 November yg lepas, saye menerima satu lagi tawaran utk jadik bride's maid - kepada my lovely cousin Pn. Diah ... Only for reception, since her sister will take that job during nikah ... But it's on the same day, nikah pagi ... Reception in the afternoon ... So my dear friends, aku akan take another job je lagi for bride's maid ... Sebab xbole jadik pengapit lebih dr 3x, hahah ... Superstitious ...

So, dengan notis sebulan sblm the wedding ... Agak selesa di situ untuk mencari outfit yg sesuai ... Adik Cherry attended her 1st ever interview on 4th November, so kakak Cherry pun mengambil kesempatan itu mengangkut adik Cherry pegi Mesjid India utk servey2/beli trus kalau b'kenan ...

Until, I found out that sangat susah sebenar nyer utk carik a nice baju kurung according to the Bride's order - light purple ... Dah pusing 1 Semua House tu mencarik, tapi yg ade mostly dark purple ... Or else, it's made of lace ... Which aku malas nak beli another lacey dress, sebab nanti susah nak recycle ... Pakai skali jek for the wedding, or for some special events which tak tau ntah biler akan berlaku ...

So I decided to have it tailor made ... Yes, memang tak cukup mase ... Dengan I'm flying to kk on the 6th until 14th November for another cousin's wedding ... Baru rase tak cukup napas nak carik kain & hantar jahit kat Tangkak ...

Kenape nak hantar kat Tangkak jugak ?? Sebab I nak save cost, so the outfit will still fall under the bride's budget ... ++ the wedding is in Kulai, Johor ... So I can pick-up the dress on the way there ... Xpayah nak pegi 2-3 kali, just pegi once to send the materials & measure ... At this moment ?? I'm praying for everything to be easy on me ...

I decided to use chiffon for the baju kurung, so dengan slamber panjat Jakel tanye plain chiffon ... Skali manager yg sasa + hensem & super peramah tu tunjuk border lace kan ... Owh, sangat la jatuh cinta ... Memang la aku tak tido mlm ni ...

Bile kire price for all the material, it's still reasonable ... Ye lah, kalau beli yg baju kurung yg biase2 pun dah almost rm200 kat Mesjid India tu ... Before saye terbeli, t'ingat pulak pasal upah jahit chiffon which normally x2 dr upah for normal (cotton, satin etc) materials ...

Kalau kat Tum's Tailor, Seksyen 9 Bandar Baru Bangi - it's rm180 ... Kalau kat Tangkak, last time I tempah baju kurung modern siap lining - rm100 ... I'm praying hard, that auntie won't ask extra for non-washable chiffon ...

Another concern was the lace patching, last time I asked kat DzulldeClassique (read this post for more details) ... For a simple beading on hujung lengan & leher will cost around rm180 ... For the beading/embroidery only ... & tadi kat one of the textile store depan Sogo tu, the quoted me rmm180 for lace patching on lengan & bawah baju kot ... Own lace ...

Kalau material rm200 (with lining), upah jahit almost rm400 for lace patching ... Baik aku buat kat designer kan, puas hati ... That's why, mcm mane pun ... Kene usaha kan jugak hantar kat my tailor kat Tangkak tu ... Supaye everything fall in the budget ... Or else, tak payah gedik nak chiffon sgt kannn ...

But I'm going to put my best effort, just like what I did for Anis's wedding ... Later I'll update on the final material for the bride's maid outfit ... But I think my decision on the tailor is already fixed ...

Till then, good nite ~

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Lost in Words

I'm back in sanity, AlhamduliLlah ... No need an expensive vacation, or getaway to some fancy island to ease my mind ... Just enough being around people who really cares, instead of some fake friends ... I did - promised I won't curse again in my blog, somehow I'm just a human ... Punya kelemahan & pertimbangan pun berkurang bila kesabaran diuji ... Yeah, bahase Melayu saye masih credit ... Thanks ...

Kalau korang rase, menyakitkan hati aku itu satu sumber inspirasi utk menjamin kebahagiaan korang ... Go ahead, I'll stay in silence like I always do ... & kalau korang rase, check my blog everyday itu satu kemestian utk meyakinkan diri sendiri yg bf korang tidak curang ... It'll be my pleasure ...

For what it's worth, I'm no less than who I really am ... I'm still here, holding on to the best I have left ... Setelah sesi lepak 4jam with my bestie yg dah 3thn xjumpe, I realize something (which I'm not comfortable to share with you) ... Somehow got me thinking - I'll find a decent guy someday, & I don't mind waiting ...

Just that, enough is enough ... Let me move on & live my life, stop trying to hurt me ... Maybe saye tak perasan, dr pertuturan atau perilaku ... Ade yg menyinggung mane2 pihak, sometimes when I talk about something - some may find it interesting while others might think that's annoying ...

I had enough, living under the microscope ... Where you feel like every single move will be closely observed, & every single words I said will be judge by those who I don't even know ... But life's unfair, & I'm trying my best not to complaint ...

For the 2nd time, I wish you guys good luck & all the best in every single thing you do ... Have a good life with your loved ones ... I'm not going to say 'leave me alone' since it's not going to make any change ... My advice - for you own good, stop trying to get to me since it's only going to hurt you back ...

Enjoy your holiday, my dear readers ...

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Camne Saya Tau Biler Ade Orang Stalk Saya

Warning - post ini adalah entry ala2 gedik, tapi sebenarnye directly utk org yg tak habes2 nak stalk aku ... Tak bagus utk ibu2 mengandung, especially yg baru kawen & mencube2 nak dpt anak tapi menyebok nak ambek tau hal org lain aku ... Duduk la rumah diam2 jage laki kau yeaaa ... Bukan ape, kot nanti terkenan muke aku kan ... Nanti kau jugak yg meroyan sorang2 ...

First of all, tengs sebab bagi aku feeling artist jap ... Femes mak nokkk, kau google ari2 ... Aku plak perasan lebey ?? Ke kau yg 'kurang pandai' ?? Ape2 pun kau buat dlm dunia ni, do it smartly la ... Jan memalukan diri sendiri ...

Meaning, jadik blogger (blogger ke ??) bukan bodoh nak kutuk kau gitu jek kalau aku xde proof ... Sebab aku memang feeling artist lebey kan, so aku tau la bile org dok google Reysha Mokhtar tu kluar ape ... Kau akan sampai kat welcoming note aku yg berabad tu, so aku tau la ade la yg gatai tangan pegi google name haku ...

So, insyaAllah lepas ni ... Kau google name haku lagi, ni la yg kau dpt ... Tak payah sebok nak tau aku kluar dgn jantan mane, aku pegi Sabah 18x ke ... Aku tak mintak duit laki kau ... OR, kalau kau risau sgt pasal aku, ade baik nye kau pegi la jage member/boipren kau tu ...

Kalau kau yakin die sayang giler kat kau, If you believe you guys are made for each other, kesetiaan tak berbelah bagi kannn ?? Then trust la boipren kesayangan kau tu ... Apsal nak check on me pulak kan ?? Hahah, pandai pakai pandai simpan la akak ehhh ...

Korang ni buang mase aku jek ~

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Wedding Planner in Kota Kinabalu

Since my hit bnyk on this post, so I decided to do more justice to it ... Since I think, I'm writing more on the vendors ... Compared to what I post as the title, aku bnyk kutuk the wedding planner jek actually ... So, kire skali dgn Anis's wedding planner ... I think it's good enough as a reference for those 3planners & a caterer ...


Puan Shazuwani's Wedding


Food & Banquet Equipment by Bridal (located in Api-Api Center, I've already forget the name)
Service: Hall Decor, Bridal Make-Up (female mua - for solemnization)
Price: Not sure
Recommendation: Not Recommended (tettt !!!), kindly refer my previous post ...

Pelamin by Nishah d'Peterana Wedding Couture
Service: Pelamin, Walk Way & Reception Dress
Price: Range from 5-10k depends on your design of course
Recommendation: Highly Recommended
Extra Tips: They work efficiently, from start to finish ... Senang ckp, tak bnyk songeh ... Communicate a lot, tanye dulu how they bride prefer which layout for the red carpet instead of just lay ikut suke ... Just make sure you deal the price nicely, confirm & make it clear with them how much & term of payment ...




Puan Zuhanis's Wedding

Food & Banquet Equipment by BTC Maju Holding
Service: Food, Hall Decoration, High Table & Cake
Price: What I heard, almost 25k ... But I'm not surprise sebab SESB ade panel caterer ...
Recomendation: Recommended
Extra Tips: Mahal kot, if I have other choices ... I'll definitely find others ...

Pelamin by Dayang Bridal (Inanam Township)
Service: Pelamin, Bridal Attire & Make-Up (female mua - solemnization & reception, both bride & groom)
Price: 5-10k (but definitely lower than 10)
Recommendation: Highly Recommended
Extra Tips: At first I'm kind of giving them a low mark, tapi lepas my last visit in early November I changed my mind ... Then I figured their total charge, sgt berbaloi kot ... Sebab the price include pelamin dewan + pelamin nikah kat rumah ... & the make up & attire for both bride & groom ... & payment made after reception selesai ...



This post will be updated from time to time, hope it help ...

Why I Hate Stalkers

Aku paling pantang, kalau aku tak usik org ... Pastu kau nak kacau aku lagi ... It's over, I get over it ... He's totally over it, why can't you ??
One of the problem in blogging, is stalkers ... There's 2 types of stalkers, a good stalkers & the envy stalkers ...
Good stalkers ni, normally are pure readers ... Yg found your blog while googling/searching for information, & felt in love with you blog ... They're definitely nice la, tak kacau org ...

While envy stalkers ni, is those normally who know you ... Might be a close friend (but they's actually just pretend to be friends), or a friend to a friend ... Or else, org yg memang dengki, busuk hati - org tak kenal pun nak main hentam jek kan ... Kalau kau bagus, buat jek la blog sendiri kan ...

I wanna talk about a friend to a friend, aku tak tau la ape yg kau nak emo sgt dgn aku ... Aku tak kenal kau, & you're obviously a twisted bitch - I figure that when they said you've already invited everybody to your wedding, somehow I didn't hear the announcement ?? The announcement was made when I'm away for a while, so I figure  - she don't want me to come ... This is just my judgement la, kau ni shady ...

Ok fine, we're not even friends ... Aku, dgn member kau dah broke up for months now ... Dr kau t'lompat2 clubbing dgn tunang kau (lets not mention you're using my connection), sampai kau dah kawin skarang ... Ade aku kacau kau ke ?? Aku 'pretend' to be nice, ambek barang aku kat rumah kau ... Then aku declare we broke up, tu pun just once ?? Lepas tu aku xpenah nak contact kau, or jantan kau ... Or jantan member kau, & aku xde pulak t'gedik2 mintak kene invite to ur wedding walaupun aku bole just send a msg kat kau ... Kau nak ape dowh ??

Aku kalau nak kutuk kau, melambak aku bole kutuk ... Your over did green wedding, your 'best friend' pun didn't attend your wedding ... Tapi aku tak penah kutuk kau kot ... The post about your friend yg obviously tak puas hati dgn aku tu, & condemn aku every single time we met - I've removed it the moment we broke up ...

Biler org kacau laki kau, kau pandai pulak meroyan kat fb kan ?? Kau kacau org kau tak pk ?? Kalau korang tak reti nak respect/layan org nicely, kenape nak harap org lain treat korang that way pulak ?? This is life, what goes around comes around ... & always remember karma is a bitch ... One day bile kene kat batang hidung sendiri, ingat2 sikit ape kau buat kat org ... Jangan nak menyesal & blame org lain pulak ... All the best to you guys ...

Aku dah block 1keturunan, puas hati aku ...

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Ugly Thought

For one second, terlintas niat jahat dlm hati - 'I can simply post a comment & screw someone's life' ... But I didn't, because I'm just not that type of person ...

Go ahead, satisfy yourself ... Call me a coward ... I admit, I don't have the guts to do so ... Even I do feel everything is so unfair to me, even I feel like all they do is disrespecting me ... 

But all that matters to me is that I can sleep at night, without worrying about what I said might cause to other person ... & not feeling guilty for the rest of my life for destroying someone else's life ...

You guys enjoy the rest of the night, bye ~

Monday, November 21, 2011

Tips2 Menjadi Pengapit yang Cemerlang

Haha, title mengong mintak pelempang ...

I just wanna share my experience jadik pengapit, actually I read a few good advice from Miss X's blog ... At least ade la sikit preparation (mentally) before I jumped on the plane & leave for the wedding ... But seriously, it's a lot harder than you I expected ... You can set things in your mind, what you should & shouldn't do ... But bile sampai time event, there's a lot of things going on ... & you can't really control everything ...

So here's a few things you can do when you're holding the responsible as the Maid of Honor:

1. Perfect Attire

Standard advice - 'jangan lawan pengantin' ... Tapi jangan la terlampau simple sampai nampak mcm nak pegi class/the bride tangkap muat one of the guest suruh tolong kipas ... Baju bride's maid jugak main peranan to complete the whole look of the combination - the bride's & groom's attire, pelamin & the theme ...

But actually, you should really consider a comfortable outfit ... Something that will be easy for you to run back upstairs to fetch anything t'tinggal, & whatsoever ... In my case, aku kene turun bawah check kete pengantin dah sampai/siap ke belum & run back upstairs ... Jangan tanye ape fungsi best man itu, nanti bole menimbulkan kemarahan ...


Base on experience, memang rase agak selfish sebab lebih mengambil berat tentang kain yg meleret2 compared to the bride ... & the bride kind of taking care of herself ... So, comfortable dress is a must ...

2. Extra Large Handbag


Jangan ngade nak kutuk handbag merah aku yg attention stealer tu, sebab ianya memang dibawakan khas utk the reception ... Sebab dlm tu, bole letak 1kotak tissue ... 2-5bijik henfon, & extra shoes haku skali sumbat dlm tu ...

3. Extra (Comfortable) Shoes


Because you will be standing for most of the time, so aku suggest korang bawak la extra shoes/sandals ... & more, sebab korang kene tunggu a few hours sampai majlis selesai ... It's a relieve to have a comfortable shoes to survive the rest of the evening in the hall ... & lagi la kalau korang pakai kasut baru yg menggigit2 itu  ...

4. Proper Arrangement

Seeloknya, standby tissue/baby wipes bagai in position before the event started ... Suruh la sape2 letak tissue/baby wipes tu somewhere nearby the spot u're standing, supaye tak nampak mcm kau hangkut kulur-kilir baby wipes tu ...

Muke suspen tissue dah habes ...


Pastu handbag tu pun, sepatutnya di arrange properly ... So xde la appear too much in the picture, sampai jadik foul item biler select picture to print ...

 Handbag merah ...

 Lagi ...

& lagi ...

Sebaiknya, dtg tengok the hall/setting the night before or the morning before the wedding ... So bole request /arrange for something ... Like ask one of the bride's maid standby pegang hand bouquet mase merenjis ... Or find the perfect spot utk letak tissue, whatsoever you need during that event atas pelamin ...

5. Emotionally, Physically & Mentally Prepared

Make sure you have enough sleep, tak payah nak beauty sleep sgt ... Just enough that your face didn't look dull, & you can strike a proper pose for the pictures ... In most of the pictures, I look fat & hunched back because I was not standing properly ... So make sure you look good, because bride's maid/best man are photographed as often as the bride & groom ...

I guess that's it for now, emo jap endon dah goal ... Come on guys, I don't wanna hear Indonesian songs all day on Hitz ... Cukup la kat Hot fm jek ... Nite ~

Bride's Maid Dress: Part II (by Rico Rinaldi)

1st of all, sorry sgt sebab lambat giler review ... Dah 2months, heh ... I have to do justice to the dress, tak kan la nak upload gambar from my 3.2megapixel bb kan ... Give credit to the dress, & the designer jugak ... & thanks to the bride, susah2 hantar the pictures through email sampai 4folder ...

Yahhh, maut ... Hahahahahhah ...

Even the bride's concern about kain yg meleret2 ... Pengantin xtrip, pengapit yg lebih2 ...

Aksi pijak kain, part I ...

Aksi pijak kain, part II ... Kaver2, jln laju2 ... 

Haha, dengki ... Gambar ni hide the best man ...

With the bride ...

I should relax, & stop holding the dress ... Sebab it looks just fine ...

I don't have to review more about Rico, you girls already know his talent ... Overall, sgt la puas hati ... When I first stepped into his studio, neves la ... Sape tak neves kan, jumpe designer ... He's not there mase tu ... Sebab there's a lot of time before the wedding, we managed to arrange a few meetings ...

Biler he asked about my budget, I mcm froze kejap ... Aku memang fail sikit bab spot question ni, balik mandi/nak tido baru t'pikir what I should answer ... 

My original plan, memang nak hantar kat Kimie Kajang jek ... Tapi entah mcm mane sumer kedai kat Kajang mase tu tutup, kedai yg satu tu bukak ... But you know I'm not going to send anything else to them ... & I've already asked makcik kat Tum Tailor, die yg suruh hantar kat designer sebab I request design mengade sgt ... ;p

So according to that plan, my budget is around rm400-600 jek la ... But I'm sending it to a designer kot, so tak kan la nak that price jugak kan ... Dalam hati b'harap, please jgn mintak mahal2 ... Heh ...

Tapi I already set a limit to myself jugak la, kalau Rico quote over 2k ... Memang aku buat muke tak malu pegi collect kain balik ... Hehe ... B'pijak di bumi yg nyate la kan, kalau sampai 2k memang aku tak mampu nak bayar ... 

The price Rico quote for me, kire lebih sikit from my budget la ... But with that beadings, dengan aku pegi fitting sampai 3kali kot ... There nothing more I could ask for ... I'll definitely recommend him to adik bradik, sahabat handai & sedare mare ... I think if korang bace review org lain pun, memang sumer akan ckp - highly recommended ...

I wanna say this from the moment I met him on the 1st meeting, tapi malu ... Heheh - he looks so much better in person ... Different la, from those pictures from google & newspaper ... Kat mate aku la ...

What else korang nak tau ?? Anything just pm me la ...

kthanksbye ~

Bride's Maid Dress: Part I

As I mentioned in this post (----> Bride's Maid's DressES), I'm wearing my graduation dress for the solemnization ... This dress made by my tailor kat Tangkak, as I mentioned in this post (----> Baju Kurung Moden: Part III) pulak ... This is one of the cheongsam inspired neck done by the tailor, if you're curious to know how it turned out ...

Enjoy the pictures ...

Feeling Vanidah Imran jap ...

I wonder, how I manage to look fat ...

Seriously, I don't understand why I look so plump in all the picture ... Padahal a few days earlier I look super duper skinny, dah mcm skeleton ... 

Sexy sgt, 18sx ni ...

Tu jek, thanks ... Hehe ...

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Baju Kurung Moden: Part III

Dlm schedule yg pack, I took the trouble to drive all the way to Tangkak for my next project - kurung moden, chiffon + lace patching ... Leave home agak lambat, almost 11am baru gerak ... I reached there at 12.30pm ... Xde ngade2 nak gi tgk2 kain ke, whatsoever ... Trus gi kat the tailor, normally I parked kat dlm bus stand Tangkak tu ... But since it's Friday, I manage to find a space right in front the shop ...

Pictures ...

 Promote myVi sket ...

 Close up ...

 Next to Watson, Tangkak ...

No. tepon t'pakse dirahsiakan, ;p ...

Heh, siap show off purse & level poyo diri sendiri yg main sudoku ... But I really wanna share with you guys about the cost, which is tersangat la murah & berbaloi2 ... Chiffon full lining, dgn lace patching all together rm160 ... Tu pun lace patching tu die just estimate, kalau lebih die pulang duit lebih balik ?? 

I was considering to send it kat Tum Tailor yg dekat dgn rumah ni jek sebenar nyer ...Tapi since t'sgt penat & overslept that day when I just arrived from kk ... Tak sempat la nak jumpe makcik tu before I went back to Kerteh ... Kebetulan I have to fetch the rabbits kat Merlimau, & buat2 ambil my brother kat poli Melaka ... So tade la membazir sgt my trip smalam ...

When she asked about budget lace patching tu, actually my budget is around rm120 ... But rm60 je die mintak ?? Memang la I don't mind pegi balik Tangkak, utk tempah baju ... Sebab I already estimate the cost kalau area Bangi ni, at least it will cost me nearly 3hundred ...

Tum Tailor
For sepasang kurung moden - rm80
Kurung moden with lining - rm160 (x2 the price, sebab lining kene gunting & jahit like another pair)
Lace patching - rm120 (this is the price mase I did a simple kebaya, she patched in a few flowers from the bottom piece)
Total estimated - rm280 at least

DzulldeClassique
For sepasang kurung moden - rm150 (with lining utk kain mermaid saje)
Kurung moden with lining - tak penah tanye, since I had bad history sending my sutera to them (refer this post)
Lace patching - rm180 (this is the price for simple sulam kat hujung lengan & kaki baju, so I figure lace patching pun will cost somewhere there)
Total estimated - rm480 simply, aite ??

Chia Lee Sekolah Jahitan
For sepasang kurung kurung moden - rm 50
Kurung moden with lining - rm100
Lace patching - rm60

For me, sgt b'baloi la ... Especially for chiffon or anything yg required lining & gedik nak lace patching ke beadings bagai ... Like my project this time, since it's not for wedding ke engagement ... Rase mcm membazir nak spend mahal2 for a pair of baju kurung moden ...

Plus, I'm really satisfied with the output ... Just sometimes, their finishing especially on the neck tak brape kemas ... Kalau normal baju kurung, all the time it turned out superb ... Out of 3 chengsam neck I requested, 2 turned up well (made of lace & thai silk) ... Just the one made of chiffon mcm xbrape kemas sgt ... 

I can't wait to share the output, jgn risau ... I requested to fetch them in 2weeks ... Hahah, ngade kan ... Nak lace patching bagai, but bagi 2weeks jek ... Till then, enjoy more pictures ...

 Myvi nak publicity gak ...

 Fuel up, tak yah kutuk nape myvi aku standard BM nak pakai ron97 ... Bapak aku bagi budget tuang minyak tu, kau hade ?? Scratch kat bumper blakang, kene langgar ngan student MFI kat roundabout exit Toll Bangi mase balik dr wedding pPop ...

& finally, the rabbits ... Kembar lain mak, lain bapak c Lilo ... Ni tgh kesedapan b'rehat2 kene air-cond all the way back ...

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Hint 1

I was 14, when my family moved to Sabah ... On the way to the airport, I feel like crying ... I feel like bursting into tears, but I didn't ... Because there's no solid reason to do so ... & I'm still staying in Semenanjung, finishing my junior high school ...

Then I completely moved to Kota Kinabalu during senior high school, I was so stubborn objecting my mum's wish to stay in the same school ... Because I feel like I wanna take charge on my own future ... It was a blast when I was 16, I was completely happy the whole time there ... I can't even remember now how I feel back then as I'm leaving all my dear friends in Peninsular ...

Then I have to leave again, back to Semenanjung by the end of the year ... Since my parents got transferred to Lahad Datu ... I was so happy to go back at that time, get closer to my bf of 3years since I was 14 ... & yet, none of the events hav been so emotional ...

Growing up made life not easy, more option choose ... More obligation & plans, tight you down to stay around for quite sometimes ... It's getting harder to jump on the plane & leave everything behind, it's just not that easy as it was when I was 17 ...

I'm about to get transferred back to kl, it was something I've been waiting for the last 6months ... Somehow it feels so hard to start packing my things ... I wish everything is easy like it was back then when I'm 17, or when I was leaving kl for this job at the 1st place ...

I guess I don't really have something interesting in my plans for next year in kl, that's what make it so hard to leave something that I'm comfortable with ...

Heh, mokcik ... Ape kah so emo ... Just find something interesting then, get urself excited ... Or try to live ur life the whole year without plans in ur head ... I'm sure there won't be so much damage, ease up a little bit & enjoy things provided right in front of me ...

I'm just a bit emotional lately, this maybe another 'cry for attention' post ... Hahah ... Soon I'll be fine ...

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Hell No

I have a plan I kept secret in my mind, somehow I just got set back as daddie kind of saying NO NO on that ... It's not a complete NO, but daddie kind of giving me a conditional approval on that ...

I have to confirm a job before I can do so ...

Seems like my schedule post have to be reschedule for a later time ... Sorry guys, so much for secrecy lately ... Since I realize there's more stalkers than I actually knew ... Till then, I'll keep you posted ...

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Stress

Tibe2 aku stress, for no reason ... Balik ni I wanna bake, hari khamis danak balik ...

Owh, I just figured ... Org beli jek fondant icing tu, xde kuase nak buat nyer ... Heh, penat tongang tonggeng carik recipe these few days ...

Wish me luck, esok den haplot gambar ... Cait, mentang2 la NS menang ... Hilang trus slank ganung, ;p ...

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Dear Stalker

This is funneh, getting funnier as the drama developed ... Hahah, it's not my intention to expand the drama pun ... But this girl, I dunno la ... She just love me so much kot ?? Hahah, seems to me that she can't live her life without my attention ... She's loving this I guess, my response on her behavior ...

Remember this post a few days back ?? Heheh, it doesn't matter dear ... If you're less attractive, when you got the right attitude ... People love you no matter what ... I ade jek kawan yg less attractive, a good friend of mine mase kat UiTM ... A very good friend ...

We had lunch together, dinner ... Go shopping ... What make her amazing ?? Not a single second she falls under my shadow ... Standing next to me, doesn't make her any less of the person she is ... Dean list student ... She's a successful designer now, in one of the top international consulting firm in the country ...

You got what I mean ?? Muke cantek xmenjamin ape2 ... & less attractive won't make you any less than a human ... Tapi kalau dah la tak cantek, perangai pun teruk ... Ape aku nak cakap lagi ??

Because this is exactly for her, I have to write it in Malay ... The rest you guys figure out yourself ...

Penah tak terpikir, kenape MK sampai skarang xbole nak move on ?? Kenapa die xpenah ade perempuan lain, walaupun kitorang dah break lebih kurang tujuh bulan skarang ?? Penah tak pikir, dlm bnyk2 perempuan dalam hidup die ... Aku jek yg die bawak balik kampung ... Well, my job kat sini is one of the reason of course ... Ain yg die bangge2 kan mcm adik die tu, Linda best friend die kot ??

Nak kate perangai, kitorang same jek lebih kurang ... Ape Linda dgn Ain buat, aku buat jugak ... Terlompat2 nak kluar mlm, baju mcm tak cukup kain ... Tapi kenape MK still layan aku dengan baik ?? Kenape dah 7 bulan pun, die masih nak contact & share masalah die dgn aku ??

Cube la, bersih2 kan hati tu ... Brenti la, dengki kat aku ... Berat kot, tuduhan yang kau buat tu ... Walaupun kau tengok aku mcm ni, tapi selame aku dgn MK, aku xpenah kluar dgn jantan lain ... Maybe tu salah satu sebab die always carik aku balik ... But who knows kan ??

Kau nak hidup dlm dunia fantasi kau tu, aku xpenah sentuh pun ... Ape kau post kat status MK, aku xpenah usik ... Kenape skarang, kau nak kacau aku lagi ... Upload gambar yg dah berbulan2 tu ?? Pastu kau nak ckp aku yg tergugat ?? Kau biar betul ??

Aku tergugat sebab ?? Kau kapel dgn MK ?? Really ?? Tergugat sebab MK layan kau lebey ?? Layan ke ?? Pikir sendiri la, tak perlu aku nak bagitau semua kat sini ... Cukup la, jangan malu kan diri sendiri ...

Aku dah ckp - I'm not even competing ... Ayat itu bermaksud, aku xnak bersaing pun ... Aku nak jadik saingan kau utk ape, rebut MK ?? Aku xnak pun, kau ambek jek la ... & aku bole janji dgn kau, aku xkan balik kat die lagi ... Ok darling ?? (muntah)

Enough yeaaa, jangan kacau saye lagi ... Bole ?? Saye tak kacau awak pun, saye delete GAMBAR SAYE yg AWAK UPLOAD jek ... Cube pikir logical statement tu, but on second thought ... Mcm artis dah aku ni, org nak upload gambar scandal pulak nok !!! Hahah ...

Whatever it is, NI ... Aku doa kan pintu hati MK terbuke utk kau, kalau kau percaye die memang jodoh kau ... Mesti kau akan berusaha utk pasti kan hati die utk kau sorang, & insyaAllah die akan lupe kan aku ... Kau buat la smayang hajat bnyk2 utk korang berdua, dr kau sebok harap/ungkit bende yg bukan2 pasal aku ...

I'm not that same person who I was 6months ago ... Aku xkan ngamuk2 kat kau mcm dulu, sebab MK tu bukan bf aku pun ... So, please ... Please, please ... Delete jek la gambar tu, xpayah la nak simpan2 utk mengaibkan aku lagi di masa hadapan ... Please stop, tu jek yg aku mintak ...

Kau nak ckp aku tergugat, perangai aku tak senonoh ke ... Whatever you opinion is, go ahead ... It's a free country ... Dah la, buang mase jek ... Kalau kau tak paham, kau google translate la ...

K-thanks-bye xx

Ps: Kau tau stat aku bulan March hari tu sampai 1k ?? Hahah, skarang baru aku tau kenape ...

He Was Just 14


I was on my way to Kuantan, when it happened ... I saw his pale, cold feet ... Said to myself, 'It's either a girl or a very little boy' ... In fact, he is ... Just 14, & it was the end for him ... Al-Fatihah ... 


Thursday, October 27, 2011

Untitled

Do you ever feel like someone's talking bad about you, judging you when they don't ever met you ... Somehow have a strong opinion of what type of person you are, base on their perception ... & no matter what you do, you can't change the way they think of you ... & it's just not worth it to stand up to those kind of people ... Since you're never really connected anyway ...

I'm that person, who often got misunderstood by my appearance ... I have this cold face towards someone I barely know, & I have no intention of getting rid of that ... Since that was me defense mechanism towards something I can't trust - like someone you just met ...

Seriously, I don't do that purposely so I can give them something to talk about ... It's just me, I'm not quite open to those I'm not comfortable with ... & I don't live to please others ... But I'm human as well, sometimes ... Or maybe each & every single time, it hurts when people judge ... It depends rather you care, or you don't & just move on ...

People said, "Xpe la, muke cantek ... Senang je" ... The truth is, it's not easy ... When you have a lot of talents, you collect pile of enemies as well ... Lets not address them as an enemy, they're envy ... Bukan senang to say, "I'm happy for you" when you really mean it ... Put yourself in your friend's shoes, do you really think they're really happy for you ?? I rather not say that, I'll came up with some other phrases if it didn't came from my heart ...

I was a different person back then, aku suke menyerang - voice out my opinion ... In an offensive way of course, aku suke humiliate person that messed with me in my blog ... But I promised myself that I won't do that again, since I have no idea who's my silent readers are ... Of course I wrote it to send a message to some particular individuals, but the whole world can read it ... It's just not right to do so ...

I see that as an appropriate & wiser step in making my writing inspirational & benefit others ... So, from previous drama ... Which I already wish it ended, it does ... Somehow, they still find ways to get my attention ... & here we go again ... My relationship ended up in March, can you imagine how long was that ?? It's been more than 6months now ... Why can't everybody just get over it ??

Nothing they do that really makes me care actually, until ... Someone uploaded our picture back in January ... I deserve to be mad over that, it's simply over the limit ... I even have that album deleted when I started a new relationship in June ... Memang la there's no harm since I'm single, but that's just too much ...

I'm not that mad to go scream at her, enough with a simple step of damage control - delete that picture & pretend like nothing happened ... Apart of me, tired of the drama actually ...

Honestly, I pity her ... I do go thru that phase at some point in my relationship ... That was when I was with Muiz, it's just me alone in the relationship ... But I'm going to say I'm hundred times luckier, sebab Muiz is actually existed ... His attention is there, just I can't have his heart ...

Of course, I'm jealous ... Tgk org lain declared themselves in a relationship, & they're happy with each other ... While I can't have that with Muiz, because he's not on Facebook ... But managing 'the boyfriend's' Facebook account ?? Update status sorang, like sorang2 ... Seriously ?? Kesian tau ... Actually I don't really care, but when you uploaded that picture of us ... That's my privacy you're messing with ...

I don't know what she's thinking, if she thinks I'm a competition ... That's rubbish because I'm not even competing ... & if you think by humiliating me will make you a better person, I suggest you think again ...

Actually the inner side of me still think it's that less attractive girl from previous drama yg made these up ... I do think she purposely create the chat log with herself, because she knows someone would have read it ... Even saying it made me feel bad, but I'm not going to elaborate on that ...

It's just made me think, no matter what happened ... I'm still lucky ... With all these mess in my life, I still manage to find way to be happy ... Around people who really loves me, instead of hoping for someone to love you ...

Don't worry about me, I'm starting to get comfortable being single now ... Till then, take care guys ...

~Lots of Luv~

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

My Cupcake Business

I've been thinking a lot, about taking my cupcakes baking to the next level ... Been calculating the cost to run, & machinery needed to expand it into business lately ... Since I'm high maintenance, so my cupcakes pun agak high cost with expensive ingredient & quality equipment ...
It would mean a lot if I got a loan granted, but from my calculation - 10k is not enough to start the business plan I got in my mind ... The oven will simply cost around 3k, & a good mixer surely cost around that as well ... With the demand I got so far, I can't get back all the investment in 6months ... It probably took a couple years for me to do so, & I need to put all my effort in promotion ... Which I can't since I still have my job ...
So, taking things one step back ... I'm not ready to jump in with my both legs ... & as my normal off day routine 'bermalas2an on my cheap sofa' ended for today, I came up with this brilliant idea - sponsor my close friends'/cousins' wedding cake ...
It's such a waste, that I've been attending a lot of weddings since last year ... & haven't got a chance to promote my cupcakes, since I kept my plans in the big picture ... While actually I should start things slowly ... & I can't be a full-time baker with my day time job restriction ...
It's a competitive business I know, a lot have established in home baking business ... All I need is an exposure, & I need to start it slowly instead of dreaming of a grand breaking entrance ...
I can't just open a cupcakes shop, it will cost me huge number ... & there's not guarantee I can sustain it ... The shop lot will cost me thousands to rent, the machinery ... Workers, & the ingredient ... I can't even run the business for a month with 10k ... & not to forgot, my restricted time to manage + bake ... That exclude of training if I'm about to hire workers ...
Baking, will definitely left me sleepless ... My mum have already rejected the idea of me doing a cupcake business, her point - "Do you wanna end up like those girls in DC Cupcakes ?? Sleeping under the table" ?? It's freakingly true actually ... I've been thru it, sleepless thru the baking process ... 1st when I was baking for my best friend Anis's bridal shower gifts, & recently was Abang Zaid's birthday cake ... I only manage to sleep at 4am in the morning, when I have to be at work at 8am ...
Special projects like wedding cakes, is the most suitable for me right now ... Since I won't be doing it on daily basis, & I'll pass out my contacts from there ... All I need is more effort in baking, business cards + ideas for decorations ... Owh, & some cost for transportation ...
I'll be sponsoring some of my close relatives/friends wedding very soon ... 1st up, my cousin Alia's wedding on early December ... Since her reception is in a golf club, I'm trying to get her permission to do it for her solemnization ... Then I'm going to try to get in Kashfi's wedding in January, heheh ... Ok, now there's more weddings lined up in my mind ...
All these while, I was waiting for my brother's engagement for my breaking entrance ... I should have been doing this a while ago ... But I guess it's better than never kan ??
To my silent readers, do pm me if you would like to have my cupcakes for your wedding ... I'll surely give you a special price since I'm just about to start my humble baking project ... I'll be updating the pictures once I got my small projects going ... Then we'll see how far can I go from there ... Wish me luck yaaa ...
Have a wonderful holiday ~

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Sunday, October 23, 2011

My Jr. High School Best Friend's Wedding

Panjang nyer title post kau noxxx ... Gedik lebey kan, since t'kene badi wedding planner melatah/menyumpah depan aku smalam ... ;p ... Dalam kemalasan & mood berehat2 hujung minggu xhabes lagi, t'pakse update jugak ... Supaye cerita tak basi, heh ... Alasan2 ...

The Wedding Planner ...

It's a really beautiful wedding, worth to share it here ... With a lot of details that I loved ... I don't even know where to start ?? Heheh, ok ... Budget skema jap, lets go down the history ... ;p

I drove 90minutes to reach Sagil, Tangkak ... Sampai2 Tangkak, all the memories burst in ... I spent my junior high school here ... Lalu my school SMK Tun Mamat yg dah brape kali renovate tu ... The whole canteen is air-conditioned tau ?? Hahah, I don't even know if it's still the canteen ...

This is how I met my best friend Fiza ... We went to school together, sit next to each other ... Sebab aku asyik mengamuk sitting at the most front + left of the class ... Sebab silau + panas = aku tido all the time at that spot ... So with her, we sat at the most back + right of the class ... Dekat dgn pintu, full of distractions ...  Asal org pass by jek, confirm aku usha ... Hehehehheheh ...

That was form 2 ... If I'm not mistaken, during form 3 we still seat next to each other jugak ... But for sure, aku suke2 transform myself from budak hostel & MENETAP kat rumah Fiza ... Heheh ... The thing I missed the most ?? Naik bas pukul 6stengah pagi from Sagil, reached school before the sun rise ... :D ... Owh, & the sambal tempe + kicap yg sgt sedap ... Sampai skarang I can't figure out, how the tempe are still crispy even with the sambal kicap ...

Ok, too much of it oredy ... Upon my arrival, they're reading the taklik ... I think it's only practiced in Melaka & Johor ... Where the bride, will have to read a few lines to the mum ... Mintak halal kan makan minum, & ampun kan segale kekurangan sepanjang tempoh tanggungjawap itu terletak di atas bahu ibunda ... Sumpah syahdu, memang xsanggup nak dgr (kalau aku la) ...


The solemnization habis around 11am, then the guest bole makan ... Yay (untuk aku yg kebulur xbreakfast dr Bangi), hahah ... After the short break, she went for short photograph session before she changed into her sanding outfit ...

Makan2, my 1st round right after nikah ...

I really love her wedding flow ... By the time the groom arrived, the have some silat & zapin performance ... Then dorang terus went for makan beradap, lepas makan potong kek ... Then baru tepung tawar ... Sounds awkward kan ?? But it was just fine, sebab - org xlapar tunggu pengantin lame2 ... Lepas tepung tawar, everybody was happy to leave without missing a thing ...

So here's the details:

The Setting

Night View ...

I love it the moment I walked in, it's just like a warm wedding festival ... The VIP section under a huge tent on the left, & the buffet section on the right ... Pelamin utk sanding, cake cutting & meja beradap ... Sumer under that huge tent ... Siap ade platform ok ?? Exactly what I wish for my wedding (kalau aku ade laman rumah sebesar itu, ;p) ...

This is the thing I've been rambling about - lurve 18juta x ...

The buffet section was serve mcm biase la, but families & close friends are free to eat at the VIP tables since they will top up the food & change the plates ... That how I manage to ate twice, ;p ... Hahah ... They only set up the tables utk family belah lelaki by noon, so xde kecoh2 nak sound2 org xbagi duduk sane ... Cool wehhh !!! Heheh ...

VIP Table ...

I really hope someone can capture that scene, sebab batery blackBerry aku kong di saat itu ... Hampeh tul, because it awesomely beautiful ... You know I won't say it's good if it didn't impress me kannn ?? Lempang, ;p ...

Update: Yes, someone did ... :D

Dais

Pelamin Nikah ...

Pelamin Sanding/Outdoor ...

Entertainment


Aku penyanyi Ghazal kat skolah Tun Mamat dulu (cehhh, poyo) ... So I always love Ghazal, cair trus when they sing Siti Payung - the 1st ever song I learnt to sing mase kat skolah dulu ... The one & only sebenarnye, ;p ... On their 1st set, it's the 1st song ... Heheh, luv x3 ... Here's the video, tapi sekejap jek ... Since my battery mcm siot ... ;(


Warming up ...

In action, lurve it !!!

I'll definitely have them for my wedding ... I'll pay extra for transportation, or maybe can consider my school teaching uncle's group ... They're getting million times better, just tracked them down on YouTube a while ago ... Heheh ...


Penari Zapin yg comel2 ...

It's cute this pakcik b'silat in Baju Batik ...

Tapi ni memang total cuteness !!!

Better Picture of the Ghazal Team ...

Food

Sgt sedap, as I said - I ate twice !!! Heh ... Fried boneless chicken was a bit dry, but dalca kambing was the best ... There's kurma daging, & rojak jambu ... + fried so'un with tempe + kentang ... Hahah, of course I always love the food there ... Keeps the old memories alive ...

Make - Up - Sentuhan Aziecun

The same make-up artist for both solemnization & reception ... Make-up mase nikah was just nice, mase sanding baru she add up another layer of eye lashes & the layer on the bottom ... She just do some touch up by 12pm, by 2pm both bride & groom are ready ... She worked professionally in time, & she's damn cool & friendly ... Her touch are fabulous, dr pagi sampai ptg it stays fresh ...

She just did some touch up for the reception ... Change the eye shadow's shade, & tambah eye lashes ... I only have pictures during solemnization, by noon my phone dah mati ... Gambar reception satu pun tade, ;( ...


From my BB ...

From camera mahal, ;p ...

Her free-lace business was based in Pantai Dalam ... Soon I'll gave the link for her blog, dah lupe ape nama blog die bagitau smalam ... Highly recommended !!! Heheh ...

The make up at 3pm, this is raw from the photographer I suppose ... Blom edit ...

With pengapits, hahah ... Pengapit mase nikah yg baju hitam, yg baju putih tu pengapit jugak ... Changed to her purple baju kurung during reception, sebab best man pegi pakai baju hitam mase nikah ... Better version of me, cehhh ...

Door gifts yg mencurah2, non-stopped food serving ... Too bad I can't stay longer, sebab nak balik (padahal panas bontot sebab blackBerry xde battery, putus nyawe noxxx !!!) ... I left around 4pm, babe I really wish I can stay longer ... Kalau aku bawak charger, confirm aku melepak sampai mlm ... Sorry ...

& finally, be4 I end up my wedding reviews ... Aku akan wish korang happiness ... Hahah ... Fiza @ P-pop @ Peah ... Hahah, bape bnyk la name kau ... Selamat pengantin baru babe, I know you'll be happily married ... Hope all your plans work out just fine, selamat menjadi isteri yg baik ... Nanti aku pegi jb pasni bole lepak umah kau, heheh ... Muahhhssssssss !!!

Ala, aku dah t'rindu kat kau ... :(


Good night ~

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