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Monday, January 31, 2011

Semakin Hari Semakin Gedix

Saye bnyk keje, tapi sgt gedix nak update blog pulak ... Tapi saye nak menyuarekan pendapat peribadi saye, tentang kesibukan kerja ... (yeahhh to penggunaan bahase Melayu)

Saye org yg xpandai mengemas, heheh ... It's genetic tau !!! Hahahahahhahah ... So, maid ... PA, adalah perkara yg saye akan hargai dlm kehidupan seharian ... Heheh ... Demand lebih ...

So, dlm kesemakan diri sendiri ... Saye ade seorang pembantu yg bole tahan semak jugak, org Ganu ckp - BOLOQ !!! Contoh untuk situasi tersebut adalah - dgn kesemakan maksima atas table saye yg dipenuhi pelbagai jenis bahan dr multi categories ni, org yg boloq akan memilih untuk menyumbat kertas2 kerja yg perlu diserahkan pade saye di antare timbunan2 yg ada ...

So, nampak mcm die dah lame siapkan la ... Kertas2 kerja t'sebut, tapi saye yg semak lagi slow ni yg lambat sain ... TAPI ... Saye tau jugak die selit2 kat bawah tu ... Hahah, sebenarnye ... Pembantu saye bukan la fakta penting dlm post ini (tibe2) ...

Ape yg cube saye sampaikan adelah (wahhh, bagus nya mood bahasa Melayu hari ni) ... Biar la meja saye semak, kalau meja saye xsemak ... Makne nye saye xde keje ... Yeahhh ...

Tu jek sebenarnye yg saye cube sampai kan ... Heheh ...

Konklusi: Biar la meja saye semak pun, at least saye tau saye bnyk keje nak kene buat ... Wwweeeee, :D ...
Pendekatan: Penulis menggunakan kaedah monolog dlm penulisan ... (Hah, xde motif nak poyo di situ ... Slaps !!!)

Sunday, January 30, 2011

I Decided to Marry Him: Part II

I didn't expect to update my blog this often, risau gak korang bosan kan ... 'Minah ni ape hal, sumer bende nak citer kat the whole world' kan ... But, reading my favorite blog by Miss X ... Remind me of the fight I had back few weeks on Facebook ...


It was my bf's fan from his previous office, she's crazzzyyyyyyyy ... About my bf ni, to that extend she copy his picture ... Edit it, make it her profile picture ... Sile lihat contoh, :D ...

But I didn't blame her entirely ... Lets just say, she's less attractive la ... And the main problem, that drives her towards those craziness is no other than my bf la ... [Sighhh]

It happened right in front of my face, when she asked him ... 'Do you ever love me' ?? Then my bf went like, 'U tau kan, pakcik U suruh I janji xkan jatuh cinta dgn U' ?? Dorang (my bf & that girl) ni, stock manusia bace novel melayu ... So tolong maaf kan patah2 jiwang dlm post ini ...

Did you get my point ??

Yes, he's trying to say he's not interested - indirectly ... But somehow, I see that as a diversion ... He don't really wanted to say no, but somehow he's avoiding the question ... On the other side, he gave hope to the other girl ... Rite ??

Lets not dig in too deep on that la, it'll only embarrassed all the parties involved ... So, all that craziness ... Leeds to the climax a few days after my birthday party, that's when we started to published our photos together on Fb ...

She logged into my bf's fb account, delete our relationship status ... Delete tagged photos of us together, & God knows what else she did ... From my opinion, it shows another stupid move from my bf ... Why la must be such a fb w#0re, gave your password to everybody ??

It was hard on me, it's not easy for me to swallow ... Because fb, is part of my social standard measures ... My friends from school, college ... Even my cousins & family members ... & my co-workers too yahhh, don't forget about that ...

The last time I broke off, I even delete the post of changed in relationship status ... Because I think it's cheap to tell the whole world about it ... So, when somebody get into my space and do as they please ... It pissed me off ...

I went back defensive, attacking her on fb ... But still, remain her as anonymous ... Results in, my bf's friends called me w#0re ... For creating such drama on his wall ... Then I went silent for a week ...

Then come the final storm (I really wish this is it, the last one) ... She took one of our picture together, & reposted it on my bf's wall ... Wif these words (something like it la) in red ink on it:

"Ini ke lelaki yg bakal menjadi Suami ku,
Lelaki yg bakal menjadi Imam solat lima waktu,
Lelaki yg bakal menjadi bapa kpd anak-anak ku, (& so on ...)
Terima kasih Tuhan, sebab buka kan pintu hati ini utk check fb 'beliau',
Mulai saat ini, kite putus ??"

~ Sign ~ (nama pelaku lain) <--- kaver la, tapi kantoi jugak die yg buat ...

Haih [sigh lagi], it kills me actually ... Kill the whole feeling left after all the fb mess earlier ... The most stupid thing is, he even accused me of putting that picture up on his fb ... As I'm the only one who knows his password that he changed recently ...

Getting into b!+c#y mood ...

Hey bf, your password tu ntah pape ... Poyo, proud sgt dgn number tu ... Which sumer org can get it on the 1st try ... Plus, u already used that password earlier kot ?? Sebelum kite tukar previous password tu, u're using that one kan ?? Then u go back using that stupid number, which well known by ur peminat susah mati tu ?? She opened ur email as she please kot ??

& how low do u think I am ?? Siap edit photos, letak2 text lagi ?? Euhhh, so not me kot ... Padahal baru jap tadi edit gambar darling Safee Sali, hahah ... But, my point is ... So not me la, nak edit that 2photos pun ... T'hegeh2 dlm picasa tadi, lagi la nak buat text bagai ... And the novel-ish wording ?? Eiuhhh, nak type sms entirely in Malay pun took me 5mins ??

Ok, now cool down ...

Am I the one who's being to hard on him ?? Or it is him who didn't protect me/himself from all these mess ... I can change his password (which I already did), but I just don't feel like it's my call to do all the cleaning work on this mess ... Because it his bu!!$#!+ ...

At this moment, I think I really need a proposal ... Instead of discussion between the both of us about getting married, then we skipped to the planning & shopping ... But will he ever understand my needs ?? Seriously ?? I can't even tell if I wanna put my hope in that ...

Anyway, I really respect the action that blogger yg I adore so much tu took over the drama on her blog ... Can't imagine what I'll do bile org serang I publicly on my own space that I love the most ... Most probably I'll just delete it, and make sure no one ever see it ... Or if they did, I'll pray they keep their mouth shut ...

So there'll be pros & cons for being b!+C#y ... Yes, you'll look like a monster ... Marah xtentu pasal, but in time ... People will understand the reason causing your action, for those who never understand ?? Biar jek la, there's nothing to loose in making point in some other people's head ...

Mood Poyo Kembali: Nail Clipper ke3 yg Dibeli di Guardian Mesra Mall

Pagi2 ni dah gedix nak mempublishkan perkara remeh temeh yg b'laku semalam ... Nail Clipper jek pun, tapi nak jugak !!!

Huhu, as the title dah dramatic giler ... It's about a nail clipper ( <--- kesalahan dlm karangan mase spm ni, penggunaan ayat b'ulang tanpa dielaborate), 3rd nail clipper that I bought since duduk Terengganu ni ...

My point is ...

Dah dekat sebulan xpotong kuku, sebab last time I did ... Org buat kan, manicure ... Huhu, :> (poyo abes !!!) ...

Heheh, entry ni memang utk membazir mase pun ... Heheh, but at least kene take some lesson out of it ... Hmm ... I wanna conclude it on advice utk xmembazir utk bende2 yg kite bole buat sendiri ...

But I can't !!! Sebab manicure mcm best, hahah ... It's not easy to let go ... Heheh, later yahhh ... ABG zaid bising ajak minum ...


Saturday, January 29, 2011

I Decided to Marry Him ... (post yg bnyk 'wow')

As I was sitting on my bed, tunggu mood nak mandi this morning ... Suddenly it just hit me, 'I'm going to marry him', and give him lots & lots of condition ... Find the perfect 'number', the I got back on my wedding planning track ...

But this entry won't be about him, or anything related to the wedding ... Because this is my personal space, something close to me ... & personal ... It's for my father ... (Wow, my eyes started watering already)

Daddie left for Lucknow, India in October ... A few days after Hari Raya, then last December he's around for a couple weeks ... That's when I dropped the news about my wedding, heheh ... He's a bit confused in the 1st place, as I'm the 1st child to get married in our family ... But in between that confusing moment, there's a few silent moment from his eyes ...

As he lived far2 away (wow, mcm fairy tales story plak), it's difficult to arrange the date ... Since I have to make it fit to daddie's working schedule, and convenient for everybody ... 1st, the engagement was planned on 12.3 (ni cubaan pertama to get engaged) ... Somehow we have to reschedule as mummy will be leaving for India to visit daddie dgn grandma ...

Then we postponed to May (2nd attemp), somehow I mengamuk2 and called it off ... Sebab my bf ade perempuan lain (wow [lagi], dramatik nyer ... Hahah, it's his crazy fan ... Who didn't stop bothering us), I'll explain it next time in other post la ... Then I gave him September, last call dah tu ... Somehow ade drama lagi, that's how we got here ... & there is another chance ...

Forget about him, it's all about my dad ... So, a few weeks after the December visit ... Daddie came up wif this planned to get retire early ... He applied, & waiting for confirmation from HQ ...

And this is what I thought ...

Of course he's not happy there, somehow he don't wanna missed all the experience on his kids' wedding ... Or maybe, it's not worth to missed all the moments ...


I'm speechless now, can't find words to put together anymore lines ...

I love you dad, I love my mum equally (in case she wonder if I ever love her/ love my dad more all the time) ... Heheh ... Don't worry about the wedding, because u guys are my world ... There will be no wedding without u guys ...


Sunday, January 23, 2011

It's a Tiring Day ...

I just arrived here at 4am this morning, then over slept for about 1hr caused me to arrive late at work ... It's fine the 1st few hours in the morning ... Then my day get worse as the day approaching to end ...

I was having a fight wif my future/soon to be ex bf, fighting for my freedom [I'll post about it later] ... Then I was hungry as I skipped lunch ... It's just pissed me off ... Made me wanna scream and create drama in the office ...

But no, it didn't happened ... Well you know me, I'm kind of a control freak ... Everything must go perfectly in my world ... The spelling, capital letters ... The 3dot (...), well spacing ... Haih ...

At the moment, my eyes feels like closing ... It's really hard for me to keep my eyes open, I'll be heading back right after I'm done wif this ...

This is another cry for attention post, yeahhhhhhhh ... Heheh, but I won't get into 'gedix' mood this time around ... It's more to B!+c#y this time ...

Oh, then I remembered my point ... Hahah, I'm fighting for my right at the moment ... The right of being happy, instead of making somebody else happy ... It's about time for me to get off my bad relationship, and it's time to find someone else for another chance instead of giving someone the 2nd chance (because it's not even 2nd chance anymore) ...

I can't love u anymore ...

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Saham Tinggi Sgt ??

I lost a friend last year, somebody really close to me ... Who suddenly became distant caused by an incident ... Which I can say partially reflect reaction, but somehow under a steady mind, you should be able to control it ... Especially for a guy ...

I've been doing some mean things to him as well, I skipped his farewell party on purpose when he's leaving ... We'd stop talking to each other for quite a while, when a few months earlier we shared almost everything together ...

He's a close friend la, a good one ... Somehow, for a God knows why reason we just stopped talking ... It's not about that back couples months incident already, it's a new year ... We've carry on with our own life, at some point I've tried to be nice to him ...

I texted him (but he didn't received as he already deleted me from his bbm contact), I even say hi on fb (chat) ... Somehow he always came out wif 'bz' reasons ...

This is how we felt apart in the 1st place, he shown lack of interest ... So I back down, refuse to make fool of myself ... So here we go again, same attitude over the friendship I offered ...

Well, you know what ?? I'm done being nice to you ... Nak kate saham tinggi sgt, xkawen2 jugak kan ... So, go th wif all your ego monster inside ... I'm just trying to be nice, & have u as a friend ... Didn't expect to be close mcm dulu pun, but somehow I'm done trying ...

Xkuase nak layan noxxx ...

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