During the last interview, that was when I had a crush on my boss ... Haha, a year ago mamat tu ntah baru balik dr site mane kan ... Selekeh je, now dah boss duk attend meeting tu la bole pakai smart2 kot ... Haha ... The next day mase attend the training course, I googled him & found out that he's married ... Then everything stops there, you guys know I had a strong crappy policy on married guys kan ?? & I still hold on to that very principle strongly, will never ruin someone's marriage ... Chewahhh ...
But ade jugak la fikiran jahat, 'will it change anything if I join them last year' ?? 'Did I made the move a year too late' ?? Jawapan nya ialah tidak !!! Memang boss aku dah kawen, xde effect pun saye join bile ... Last year when I'm about to join tu, he's having his first born ... Paragraph ini wujud semata2 mengelak kan rasa hipokrit dlm diri, kekkekkekeekkeke ...
Interview seblom raye, was waiting for their respond kengkonon nak kene tender resignation kan ... This part I will explain in my next entry why the word kenkonon tu even existed ... After raye also dorang diam je, sampai putus harapan la tunggu dorang offer ... After my brother's reception on end of September pun senyap lagi, mase tu still menaruh harapan la since I declared I'll be available by October ... Sampai kene carik other option to survive, sewa rumah pun dah delay sampai a month in stead of 1-2 weeks on August & September ...
Sampai ... 17th of October, I received a phone call ... Tanye biler free, I said I'm available immediately ... Trus kene gi kj, sign appointment letter ... Esok kene gi Manjung dgn boss ... Aku ni seronot sgt dpt keje, gi celebrate 'farewell' party la sgt ... Pagi bgn2 je dah 8stengah ... So I missed my first ever site visit, & late for my 1st day ... Sabtu masuk office jumpe boss, trus sign allocation letter kene hantar to Manjung ...
Mase tu memang xpikir ape, boipren sumer ku tolak ke tepi ... Dlm kepale otak cume ade satu bende, nak balik umah pack barang ... Mengikut perjanjian asal, kene duduk Manjung 3weeks je ... Tu yg mcm eksaited je kan, keng konon weekend je nak gi Pangkor la ... 3weeks later ?? Here I am, still in Manjung ... Extended for another month, katenyer ...
None of the introduction above related to my main point in this post, but at least I give you guys an interesting start kan ?? Hihi ... So, same thing happened this year ... As I just joined the company, dpt another offer ... Rm 650 extra from my current salary, kau ade ?? Hehe ... But I declined atas bnyk faktor ... & bnyk jugak reference & good advice from people around me ...
Sebagai contoh, my father pun advice - 'more money normally come with more responsibilities, less hours for yourself' ... And someone I just knew share a very good advice - 'it's a test either you're greedy or being thankful' ...
This year's choice not as stressful as last year's decision that I made ... Reason being - I always feel this job was meant for me ... Imagine, I went for 4 interviews before I finally join them ... & after a year, masih lagi rezeki utk saya ... Complete with penantian 2bulan for the job offer, fair & square la with the fact that I turned down their offer last year kan ?? Heh ...
As I claimed this was meant for me, it's not that easy for me to take care of it actually ... Kadang2 kite rase, 'sape la nak dengki, bukan bnyk pun gaji saye kalau nak banding dgn pengarah cawangan jalan JKR daerah Manjung' ... Tapi kite berurusan dgn manusia, ade manusia yg xpuas hati dgn semua bende ... Jadi kalau die dah nak dengki, die tetap akan dengki jugak walaupun kelebihan tu sebesar zarah ...
So nak kire mcm mane ?? Die tabur pasir kat rezeki awak, pastu awak tabur pasir balik kat die ?? Tu sebenar nyer terpulang pd individu terbabit ... Mcm saye, saye pk die ade anak ... Tinggal anak die kat rumah, sebab nak keje tolong suami ... Sampai hati tak kau ?? Kalau aku memang xsampai dik !!!
Question - "kenape awak nak pk pasal die, die pk pasal awak ke" ?? "Die tak pk ke, mcm mane awak rase kalau org buat mcm tu kat die" ?? Ok, kalau aku tambah lagi 1 soalan ia akan jadik menambah2 ... Haha ... So, jawapan - kan saya dah ckp tadi ... Tu lumrah manusia ...
Saya pakai swift, die pakai myvi ... Die dengki la, walaupun instalment swift tu bole kaver pampers anak die sebulan + instalment myvi ... Kalau saye kene beli pampers ngan susu anak mcm die, mungkin saye tak mampu bayar swift ... Owh, & die xtau pun swift tu dah sangkut sebulan lebih ... Haha ...
Saya ade iPad + nokia 80 ringgit, die ade samsung ... Die tetap nak dengki, walaupun iPad tu sebenar nyer org sedekah je kat I ... Sebab susah itu org tak nampak, biler nampak org lain lebih ... Kite akan jealous ... Biler saye balik lunch bersama paper cup starbucks tu, org tak kan tau saye hulur reward card kat kaunter sambil berkata dlm key paling rendah - "dik, tolong check ... Ade free drinks tak, kalau ade saye nak redeem" ...
Nampak tak permainan nyer di situ ?? Saye penah pegi curve without spending a single cent ... Parking depan maybank - free ... Pastu pegi makan kat marche ... Bnyk duit mak makan kat marche ?? Memang takde, that was balance credit I've top up in few months ... Just swipe membership, 1sen pun xbayar ... :)
Got what I'm trying to say ?? Org tak kan tau susah kita, or maybe they know ... But they won't care that much ... Plus, I don't think people enjoy your story during hard time that much kan ?? They appreciate the the fancy food photos on instagram more, or the beautiful pictures of your vacation on private resort rather than the snap shot of balance in your acc ... Yelah, manade org upload gambar transfer duit bayar hutang ke hape kan ?? Sebok upload gambar duit berkepuk2, letak kat fb ... Motif ?? Tatau ... Padahal pegang duit tu 5mins je, boss suruh tolong cash kan duit nak bayar gaji bangla T_T ...
And another thing, biler kite terlalu obsess cerita/ambil tahu pasal org ... Awak jadik paranoid, biler nampak org discuss je ... Awak akan perasan mcm org discuss pasal awak, padahal tade ape pun ... Sebab that's what you do behind other's back, so you expect people's doing the same thing as you do ...
Utk kesekian kali nya, it's a time utk muhasabah diri sebenar nyer ... Maybe saye pun xbole berterusan begini, open myself to the possibility utk org dengki ... But how low shud I put myself down in order to please people ?? It's your call, draw your own limit ... :) Boss saye slalu ckp, 'stay positive' ... Always think positive about others, world will be a better place tomorrow with one less negative thought in the morning ...
Ps: for the first time ever in my whole life, I felt nothing when someone confront me ... Maybe because I've already knew what's going on, so I'm well aware of what she's capable of ... :D
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