Dear Carlos

I better do this now, before the week ends ... Then I'm gonna be stuck with work next week, then all these won't be that exciting to share ... Post ini might be sangat poyo, readers please be prepared ... Hahahhahahahhahah ...

Changkat is another happening place for clubs at the moment ... Something like Heritage Row, but at the moment it's kind of the melting pot in kl ... By melting pot, I mean ... Center of attraction ... Senang ckp, tempat mat salleh lepak ... Heheh ...

I don't have any favorite place in particular ... For ambiance, I really love to hangout around the Curve ... Because it make me feel civilized ... Ape kah ?? Hahah, but I love it ... Make myself in control ...

Changkat ?? Far2 different from the Curve ... It's packed, limited parking space ... It's a row of shop lots transformed into clubs ... It is hectic around there ... Apsal aku review pasal Changkat pulak ni ?? Hampeh tul ...

My point is - last week when I was there with the high school sweetheart ... I was introduced to Andres ... Owner of one of the club there ... American, Australian ?? I don't know, because I was not paying attention on them ...

I don't know, it's just me ... Just like I prefer the Curve instead of Changkat, I prefer a Malay guy over mat salleh ... Like when I met Carlos -

Carlos: Hi, I'm Collar ??

Me: What ?? Like shirt collar ?? (Imagine me making sigh language of shirt collar on a dress, hahah)

Carlos: No ... CAR LOSS ... (hahahhahahahahhahahh)

Me: Owh, Carlos like desperate housewives Carlos ??

Carlos: Yeah, I'm from (I already forgot) ...

Me: I don't care ...

See ?? I don't know, maybe it's what my mum been telling me since I was a kid ... Perfect guy means - tall, dark & handsome ... Hahah, totally a lie ahhh !!! I love je super fair guy, like the lawyer ... & that guy working with JKR ...

I don't know, maybe I'm being in control too much ... Or maybe it's glued in my mind that the relationship with foreign guy is too good to be true ... So I rejected it since day 1 ?? Owh, I remember rejecting an East Asian guy back then in college ...

But when a Malay guy say 'hi', I'll put effort to translate him into my 1st impression ... Or honestly speaking, flirt back ... ;p

I don't hate them, it's just not working for me ... Or sebenarnye I got my heart locked for some other guy ?? Hahah ... I'm not sure about that ... As far as I can remember, if I reserve a place for some guy ... I'll be staying home watching my tv series ... Really la, percaye la ...

I'll stay home dlm proses mengurat, cover baik la ... But somehow that didn't work as well, clearly ... Hahah ... So better I went out enjoying myself ...

I went to see Muiz at the airport yesterday ... Yahhh, he cared about me ... When I'm right in front of his eyes ... So I guess it made me feels the same about him, I love him ... When he's there before my eyes ...

Yes, it's so unfair ... Tapi mcm la he don't have any other girls who he kept in touch, somehow claim to me that they're way over ... & the one month old text is still there in the BlackBerry kan ?? Yahhh mokcik, that will make you a better person la kan ??

I'm just exploring the option, trust me ... I knew Muiz better than you guys do ... He's just not sure yet about taking the next step in our relationship ... & I'm just not that kind of girl who stay home & wait ... & I can't keep pretending I'm a heaven sent gf all the time, I'll made up my mind soon ...

I'm Back

Hell yeah I'm back on my blogging mood ... Since I lost my drives back few weeks ... & everything around my life went in slow, & again ... New direction for my blog ... Hahah, how uncertain kau ni Mokcik ... So here's my excuses - for the new concept ... :D

I haven't be honest with myself lately, juggling my post in between dresses ... Food, friendship ... Wedding preparation, bla x3 ... The truth is, I'm far far away from getting married ... It's ridiculous to buy a diamond ring anytime soon, or met my wedding dress designer ... Since I have no idea when I'm going to get married, or whom I'm getting married to ?? Hahah ...

If you notice from my labels, I had a lot things I wrote about relationship ... How confusing it is for me, as I think it's hard to understand a man's action towards the relationship ... Or it's just a stupid reaction from me who always complicate things ...

Seriously ?? I'm the last person to give advice on relationship ... Heheh ... Since collage, my relationships stay for an average of 3months ... Hahah, somebody do the math for me on the number of guys I dated please ?? ;p

I love weddings, yes I do ... But I love weddings as much as I love the wedding dresses ... & I love dresses as much as I love Chinese food, & I love Chinese food as much as I love grilled fish ... & I love grilled fish as much as I love cupcakes ... & I love cupcakes (& the list goes on) ...

Hehe, you got what I mean ?? I love a bit of this & that ... & the intention of sharing every single thing in my blog, just make it fall all over the places ... Too many information to be shared, making it messy & unorganized resource of reference ...

So, I've been searching for things that I love the most ... As difficult it is for me to admit it, but it's the most honest of me ... I LOVE GUYS !!! Heheh, nothing more interesting to compare with the companion of a comforting guy to complete your day ...

Lets do this ...

I love weddings, but it will be more exciting to have a date ... Lagi la a perfect guy, drop dead gorgeous ... With the perfect ride ?? Come on girls, don't be hypocrite ...

I love the clubs, but do you really enjoy girls night out without any guy ?? Come on !!! You don't really wanna go out with your girls just to dance with yourselves ?? You can do that in the dancing class !!! & when you got you hands on the hottest guy that night, it's just feels like there's only you & him on the dance floor ... Nothing else really matter ...

I love fine dining, but do you really think you can survive a table alone in Tony Roma's ?? Yes, of course ... But if I have the chance to grab a male companion, who I can share the appetizer with ?? That will make me feel it worth to swipe my card on a tight budget weekend ...

I love designer clothes, a well dressed guy will complete the look ... The best accessories to go with anything ...

I love an upscale apartment, but what will that mean to me ?? Just myself & Mox ?? Will I be satisfied to have that as the highlight of moments in life ??

Am I right ?? Or should I go on with the list ??

During college, I met new guy every 2weeks (average) ... Now that I'm working, expanding my connection thru social networking & stuff ... I met new guy every single week ... Last weekend I spent the weekend with a high school sweetheart ... & this week, I end up dancing with a stranger on a side of a bar ...

So lemme share all those experience here, it might not the way you expect things to happen ... Because I handle things in my own cold-hearted way ... But this is how this blog going to work from now on ... My journey finding the right guy ...

Thank to Carlos, he's my muse ... Nothing but a perfect guy ... He's somebody I like, but he's just not the guy I love ... There's nothing wrong about him, just that I had my heart reserve for a Malay guy ... Hahah, how conservative was that ??

Enough with the introduction, I'll spill more on the juicy details in the next post ...

Later ~

I'm Not Myself

Please go away, let me be in peace ... I have lots to do ... Yes, I missed you so much ... But please, at least until my reports done ...

God, some guides please ...

Forbidden Love

I miss him so much ...

God, please tell me what to do ...

More Than A Dozen to Go

It's a stressful day, with a lot to be done before the week ends ... ++, I took a day off early this week ... So, yahhh ... Take that !!! Heheh ...

I love drama, heheh ... Cannot deny that ... I love to clean the house when everybody's sleeping/not home ... So they have the surprise face when they got home ... Heheh, drama ...

When it come to my work, I love to do that as well ... I love to surprise people on the outcomes of my tasks, but I guess it just din't work that way ... Last minute will just make it difficult for others ...

So I better get it done now, & push back all the update for the blog for now ... :(

Rumah Saye Banjir !!!

Rumah saye banjir, kecoh kan minah ni ... Xsampai 1inch pun ... But now I know how ... It's like, banjir kilat jek ... For about half an hour, air b'rebut2 nak masuk rumah ... Then about half an hour later, surut ... (It went up increasing at about 4am ... & we started cleaning around 5am)

Selipar tu - sebagai hiasan ... Saje la, being dramatic ... Cam selipar tu t'umbang ambing sendirian mencari haluan kan ... Padahal, kutip la !!! Kalau nanti kene carik along the street ...

Memang penat la, I can't imagine how people manage when air masuk sampai 1feet ... I yg xsampai 1inch ni pun, sampai lenguh2 tangan nak sapu air tu kluar balik ... Nasik baik it's clear rain water, kalau muddy ?? Menangis la ...

So, there's pros jugak when the flood hit my place ... So that the floor yg dah b'bulan2 xmop, kene mop jugak someway somehow ... & semua habuk2 kat celah sliding & at the corner sumer kluar with the water flow ...

Heheh, later ...

Bintulu - Day 3

It sucks sebenar nye ... Sebab tu malas nak update ...

Muiz keje lagi, half day ... I went down to the lobby to purchase late check out, but they can't give me any ... Since the system didn't work yet in Bintulu ... So, imagine ... 9.15am baru t'hegeh2 turun bawah ... Then kene rush back, up to the room ... Nak packing bagai, have to check out at 10am ?? Yes, Tune Hotel kene check out at 10.00am !!!

Then, I have to wait for Muiz about an hour ... I had enough meal at nearby cafe, then we went to the local market to find ikan masin & gambir (utk Fiq, hahahhahahahahahh ... Padan muke, memang saje aku nak kantoi kan kau kat cni) ...

Then ... At 2pm dah reach the airport, my flight 4.30 ok ?? & Muiz left ... Yahhh, he got work to do ... Bla x3 ... Malas nak complaint lebey2, walaupun sebenar nye kecik ati ... Just because it's Bintulu kot, if I'm in KK then ... It shouldn't be a problem pun if he drop me off 2hours early ... Because I know what to do ...

I mean, if he left me waiting for 2hours around kl ... Or let say Melaka, comfirm la mokcik gi shopping kan ?? Heheh ... Sumer bende kau komplen mokcik, too much attention rimas ... Not enuf time nak bunyik ... Heheh, b!+c# slap !!!

So, as I arrived ... I wait another hour (++) lagi ... Sebab my sister lambat (yeahhh bebe, you're in my blog) ... Hahahahhahahahahh ...

Lambat nyer update, basi dah ... Dah siap gaduh dgn Muiz pasal nak pegi kursus kawen ... He already done his, that's mean I have to go on my own ... Memang hangin la kan ...

Hmm, this week going to be in airport once again ... Fetch daddie & the 'kain's ... Hahah, sampai xmuat bag daddie shopping ... I kirim lace, but he said they have like 2-6inch width ... Sampai gaduh2 la tadi, hahahahhahhahah ... Penat nak tanya thru the phone what else do they offer there ... Nak kene pegi Delhi jugak ni one day, shopping kat sane ...

If it's nice, I'll post the picture later yahhh ... Bisnes2 !!! Hahahhahahahh ...

What else do I want to share with you yahhh ?? Lupe ...

My Refrigerator: Part II

The peti is here !!! Yay !!!

Tapi bole turn on after 2hours ... :(